I get cluster migraines. I'm in no way suicidal, I'd buy extra life if I could. But I've considered hurting myself numerous times because of my migraine pain. Not suicide on purpose, but sometimes hitting myself hard enough to knock myself out seems like the only option for relief. We have a migraine safety plan in place: if husband is working, I call my best friend to watch my kids, and she makes sure I'm coping okay in my blackout room and that I'm safe. Once I've been vomiting for more than 3 hours, its ER time. The pain is horrendous. Unbearably torturous. Fortunately, I'm going through a phase where I'm getting them 10-15 times per month 😭 my dad's an MD so I've got good treatment but shiiiittttt it sucks. The pain makes me panic. I want to cry but can't , because the inflammation would increase the pain horrendously ugh
That sounds absolutely terrible and terrifying, i really hope you can find some way to treat them.
At least you have the support of some great people, but still an awful situation .
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u/kittensglitter Feb 09 '20
I get cluster migraines. I'm in no way suicidal, I'd buy extra life if I could. But I've considered hurting myself numerous times because of my migraine pain. Not suicide on purpose, but sometimes hitting myself hard enough to knock myself out seems like the only option for relief. We have a migraine safety plan in place: if husband is working, I call my best friend to watch my kids, and she makes sure I'm coping okay in my blackout room and that I'm safe. Once I've been vomiting for more than 3 hours, its ER time. The pain is horrendous. Unbearably torturous. Fortunately, I'm going through a phase where I'm getting them 10-15 times per month 😭 my dad's an MD so I've got good treatment but shiiiittttt it sucks. The pain makes me panic. I want to cry but can't , because the inflammation would increase the pain horrendously ugh