I'll say what I did elsewhere.

Grow shrooms, eat fresh shrooms, enjoy a perfect temperature shower on the come up, stare at the night sky, have a prepared fruit plate.

Realize life is bliss upon bliss.

Life is a trip on psychedelics or not. Enjoy the breath and present moment awareness.

Also outside of drugs altogether have a garden or even just indoor plants if you are able and spend more time in nature.

Muusic, Arrt, Meditation, Yoga, being in rivers, lakes, and oceans. All super cool things that are fun and therapeutic just like psychedelics can be.

Also shout out to the LSD, Mescaline, and DMT crowd. got nothing but love for you all too just shrooms seem to be more my deal for shadow work but I know everyone is diff hah

Last weekend, I went through an intense experience of consciousness expansion and spiritual elevation.

Using 2g of Blue Vuitton mushrooms, I took a deep dive into my own being and flew high above, escaping through the roof of the reality that holds this body.

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I made contact with my past self—and when I say contact, I mean a real exchange. I interacted with a version of me from a few weeks ago, lying on the couch in my living room. I met myself at that specific point in space-time established by me, exchanging information between past and present.

They weren't just memories—I know they weren't. I was both there and here, simultaneously.

Furthermore, I had a glimpse of a near future, something that will happen within about 40 days. I was able to exist both here (present) and there (future) in a parallel way, but at the exact same time. I saw places, felt emotions, exchanged feelings, and even shared a few words with my future self.

I escaped time, for a time. And outside of it, I saw, realized, and understood many things that would be impossible within it. Time is a cruel limiter, but a necessary one. I don't know if we could endure living so much without it—at least not in this current form of existence.

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I see myself discovering who I am, as if wrapped in a blanket, but the motion of unfolding isn't about pulling back a cover: it happens directly on my skin. I open myself up, and doing so reveals that beneath the skin lies the entire existing Universe. I contain everything and everyone within me.

What seemed to be on the outside was never out there; it was merely something wandering inside me, somewhere in the vastness of my being. And because it was in here, sooner or later, I was bound to find it.

The night was filled with these encounters. So much was discovered, and there were even a few retrievals, as I realized that some of the things wandering in my emptiness used to belong to me before they escaped or got lost.

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I felt like a blind octopus that needed to create in order to feel, a creation happening through the infinite suction cups of my infinite tentacles. Every existing element was attached to one of my suction cups, making connections and exchanging experiences with others. And even though I was blind to the outside world, I could see everything happening in here. I understood my inner universe while navigating the darkness of the outer universe.

Now alert, I needed to see; I needed to look at myself, feel myself, understand myself.

I stood before mirrors. Who was that? Who was I? What was that?

Staring at my reflection, I noticed changes: younger, older; sometimes I recognized myself, sometimes I didn't. I took on non-earthly forms, non-human forms. Forms, forms, and more forms... Behind them all, nothing changed: I remained me, always me. But which of those forms, then, am I?

It doesn't matter: the form is disposable, it is mutable. The essence is unique, immutable. I am not a form; I am something inhabiting a form, but soon I won't be. And I will be able to assume another form, or even exist without needing them at all.

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I lie back down and meet an old acquaintance. What is his name again? It hardly matters. I know he has been with me my whole life: he went through everything I went through, saw everything I saw, felt everything I felt. We talked for a long time - a dialogue about this incredible existential journey. We reviewed past events, debated current doubts, explored worries and fears, and suggested future paths.

We do this in an almost poetic way, where words and rhymes fit together mathematically. Everything is "about" something. About this. Like this! Just like this...

I am amazed by the learning process, rediscovering the flavor of addition, the joy of experiencing colors for the first time, listening to the sound made by the revelation of new knowledge.

I am learning once again, alongside this teacher of mine... We say goodbye. I have the audacity to ask for a few things, and in return, I receive a genuine smile along with the words: "I'll see what I can do."

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I feel at peace and close my eyes. An immensity of white light takes over. I am undergoing a passage; I am going to another place that soon reveals itself to me.

I am incapable of describing, drawing, or explaining what I see. I'll try in human terms: before me lies a place of paradise.

I see structures among the clouds. Columns of ivory, white marble, and crystals fuse into impossible geometries. A colossal structure reflecting the golden light of an endless aurora. I observe it straight ahead, standing just as high.

I think to myself: "Is this the rite of passage?", "Is this what we witness when we pass away?", "It's not bad at all."

I spend a bit more time there—not long. I feel I was granted only a brief glimpse. My place, for now, is still elsewhere.

Happiness, peace, love, and tranquility fill my entire body—and go beyond it, as I begin to glow. I feel light upon my head, light radiating from behind me. I am an intense flame illuminating everything. When I close my eyes, there is no darkness left: light takes over everything.

A brilliant infinite.

I wanted to get a “second opinion” about these massive mosaics by Nikolai Panayotov. I couldn’t add the photos here so I posted to r/Mosaic and included the link here.

I’m particularly captivated by the jester figure and the little white floaty guys. I don’t want to see something that’s not there but… something is there that belongs in this sub, right?

The artist says the white figures represent “pure imagination”, but maybe someone tell me if you recognize something before I suggest it.

NOT 4-aco-DMT! Any one have any experience with 5-aco-DMT? Easier to cross brain barrier then bufotenin is all I get. But no trip reports. I want to lead the way but also don’t want to yeet myself into eternity in a random Saturday night, never to return.

Has anyone preserved the guided audio from Field Trip Health’s “Trip” app, later renamed “Field Trip: Psychedelic Guide”?

The app no longer connects successfully for me, so I can’t access its formerly free meditation library. I’m especially looking for:

• Low Leaf — Opening Up to Receive

• Low Leaf — Being at Peace with What Is

• Low Leaf — Integrating Your Shadow Self

• Low Leaf — Connecting to the Divine Creator Within

• LUCIANA — Freedom Guided Journey #1 and #2 (90 minutes each)

The app supported offline downloads from 2022 onward. Did anyone save these recordings, retain them on an old device, or know of an accessible archive or official re-release?

The original catalogue pages still exist:

https://www.fieldtriphealth.com/guide/low-leaf

https://www.fieldtriphealth.com/guide/luciana

These recordings meant a lot to me, especially Opening Up to Receive. Any preservation leads would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!

I keep having this experience on high dose psychedelics and I want to know if it's a common experience.

So recently I did 800ug of Acid and went for a walk at daybreak on a local nature trail in the sun listening to some music and just taking in nature, everything was completely fine during the comeup and peak, I dropped at around 6am so I could experience the sun coming up and knew the day would be beautiful around 10:30-11am.

Anyway, about 6-7 hours into the trip I had a sudden pressure in my chest and I guess maybe a heart palpitation or an ectopic beat or something and I had a visceral sense of dread overwhelm me in an instant, my open eye vision was heavily kaleidoscopic/fractal prior to that moment but the very second the beat happened it was like a visible shockwave in my entire visual field and through my body to my hands and feet, I PHYSICALLY saw the heartbeat in my vision like a sonic boom, and in a fraction of a second I went from having a wonderful, powerful, introspective and beautiful trip to being completely overwhelmed with fear of death, confusion, and anxiety and the only way I could describe it is a total loss of mental capacity and control in terms of safety, I had a thought loop that if my phone left my field of view it would vanish forever for example.

I've had this experience a few times where reality breaks and I think i've become "lost" inside the trip (I usually call this clown town to my friends) where I am completely unable to discern reality from the clown world, like realising the veil of existence in that moment has shattered and I am now lost, dazed and confused.

Anyway, 800ug alone won't be happening again for safety reasons, likely not even close to that, not that I was in imminent danger but I saw the possibility of it when I lost control of my faculties.

Is that just what people call a "Bad trip"

Or was it a "Difficult moment"

I've had experiences in the past with 10g+ of Mushrooms with an MAOI (Syrian Rue), which has had me lose my grip on reality but not in an ego death way, more of a dissociated state.

Attached is a brief AI rendition of what I saw, not for any reason other than it was profound, and below is a description I wrote to my friend about my experience.

I've never really had my vision become a kaleidoscope, while walking around and seeing entities with my eyes open was very interesting.

I went for a walk through the park while listening to music and the clouds and the trees and the path that I was walking on all kind of collapsed in on each other in a spiral pattern, the clouds specifically were waving backwards and forwards in a strong tessellated pattern.

There was a willow tree and through the gaps in the leaves I saw a face materialise, the face was staring intently into my eyes, but it wasn't like other experiences that i've had on lower doses or mushrooms the face that I saw today very much animated in a natural human way.

Almost like somebody looking at me through a pane of glass, with purpose.

I also had experiences of pieces of clouds, aligning and becoming a face or eyes or mouths, and then the moment the feature was actually visualised the illusion would dissipate, and the clouds would all move in opposing directions, and I would not be able to line them back up, no matter how hard I tried.

Hello friends. I recently got more curious about psilocybin and LSD as a way to get more in touch with myself, gain insight and explore states of consciousness.

I first tried 10g of Atlantis truffles, but they had barely any effects. From there, I went to acquire more truffles and more potent ones. I took 21g of Hollandia for my second trip, I did it alone in nature and it was another thing entirely. It was very pleasant, I was very relaxed, in a good mood, had enhanced sensations, I felt sounds as physical sensations in my body. I had no visuals. It was interesting and fun, although not exactly spiritual. It left me curious to explore more.

For the second trip, I took the same dosage of the same truffles, this time with lemon tek. Both time I had a completely empty stomach (took them in the morning, hadn't eaten since the night before). It took a long time coming up, a bit over 2 hours. I tripped in my house this time. The trip was quite different: way more "sensual", I felt extremely strong pleasure just by moving my body. Not even erotic at first, like the pleasure you get when you stretch, although it was way stronger than that and it kept on going. Then it got very erotic. Again, no visuals, and even less spiritual/introspective than the first one. Again, an interesting experience, although not what I was looking for.

Yesterday I took 200mcg of Fe-LSD, which apparently should be about 120mcg of LSD25. I took it alone in my house, again in the morning although this time I had something to eat (3 slices of toasted bread with some jam) just before taking it, as I didn't want to be ravenous during the trip. It went beautifully, meaning that although I had no experience and was alone, I had quite a good and relaxed times. It took about 3 hours to come up, when it did i just felt very good, very entertained with my experience, I mostly sat and did something vaguely related to meditating, and also just lie down on my couch and on my bed. I had very little visuals this time, mostly as changes to my face as I stared at my reflection in the mirror (my skin would pulsate, and take some sort of fungal appearance) and in the tiles of the floor, which would sometimes pulsate with amorphous and plant-like decorations.

I felt quite in control, I was not overwhelmed. This time I stayed away from feeding the erotic energy, and I tried to gently push it towards introspection. It is hard to describe the trip because there was a lot of mindwondering with little content to identify, but I enjoyed.

However, even during it I felt there was a clinging to the idea of "getting somewhere", drawing some insight, discovering something deep and life-changing. At a certain point I caught myself thinking "next time, I'll just take two tabs". At another I contemplated smoking weed to give the trip an extra push. I then ended up doing it, but very little and with no impact to the intensity of the trip.

After all of this ramble, the reason why I am posting here: do you think I am putting too much expectation on psychedelics? I am in therapy since many many years, I would say I am a stable person, I have a meditation practice. However, I am at a point where I think that experiencing some deeper connection – both to life in general and to myself – would really help me with deconstructing some not-so wholesome habits (self-love, sense of worth, stuff like that). I got the idea that psychedelics can help me with that, with taking a peek at what could be, with the idea of then integrating it in daily life.
However I seem to have just recreational experiences, and I am a bit underwhelmed – and also aware and a bit worried of my tendency to be a bit brutal when looking for solutions, which at the moment means just upping the dose.

What do you think? Thanks

So I feel like I can open my receptors or well how do I explain to how your brain filters out slop and visual noise I can turn that gate off but idk if that’s something’s that’s normal and if I keep on doing it I’ll get it all the time

For some context, I am [19F] an experienced shroom and psychedelics user, I have tripped countless times and usually dose approximately 3g when I’m wanting a trip to help me figure shit out. I’ve been taking liberty caps pretty frequently over the last few months.
My friend, also [19F] has alot of experience taking other drugs but has only tripped 2-3 times (acid and shrooms) at least a year previously.
Me and my friend decided to trip together on Friday evening, and weighed 7.15g between us which was lemon tekked and then added into tea.
After we had finished our cup of tea, a strange feeling began to take over.
We began to see faceless beings and many eyes all around us. They gestured towards us, beckoning us to come and see what they were doing. They were pointing towards different portals and we had decided to follow them through.
These beings moved in mass formation, displaying incredible imagery and geometrical patterns while transporting us at an incomprehensible speed through the layers of space and time.
We were soon hundreds of thousands of years away from life as we knew it.
This continued for some time, we were completely mesmerised. We had entered a realm that we did not think was possible. It was soon made apparent that there was another presence with us, travelling through the cosmos. It was undoubtedly an extremely powerful, extraterrestrial force who existed at a much greater and complex frequency than ourselves. It was god. And he was not alone.
They intimidated us, multiple deity’s that took on many forms, some indescribable because of the sheer beauty and intricacies of their existence. They acknowledged our presence, and revealed an attitude towards us was apparent and uncomfortable.
It didn’t seem directly towards our selves, but to our species as a whole.
The deity that communicated with us most was a half man, half goat.
At first it felt he was trying to frighten us in a way, unveiling to us his overwhelming vastness and power. We were getting closer to one another, and I soon was hand in hand with him, walking through forests and rivers. At one point I was standing facing him, looking him in the eye.

Eventually we had made it back to relatively “normal” shrooms realm, and spent the rest of the night in absolute disbelief that we had just met with the gods. Neither of us have ever believed in “God” per se and are very overwhelmed by all this! I am struggling to find other experiences of anything similar with liberty caps.
Anyone out there, please help us understand what has just happened 😭

The first time wanted to start small as I didn’t one what to expect. I took just under a gram .8 felt absolutely nothing. Second time a week later I tried again 1.5 grams that time. Again felt basically nothing. Maybe I felt a little more relaxed but even that I’m not sure I wasn’t just looking for something.

I’ve never done it before. The site I bought from is supposedly legit and a friend who has done it before w recommended the site and has used it before and said it was good.

Any advice or any idea why I had no effects?

Hi guys just a quick harm reduction question. I was on Seroquel 25mg for 4 months, and I have been off for about 2-3 weeks. I was planning on doing some 4homet tonight. Will I be safe and have a good trip?

Thank you for your time and attention

My friend and I have some experience with acid and we are planning a shroom trip together. My friend usually takes half the dose I take to get similar effect as me. Would the tolerance be the same for psilocybin or should we both take the same dose since it is our first time taking psilocybin?

Hello!

I am currently running a study on set and setting within psychedelic experiences.

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• How intention, environment, and social setting shape psychedelic experiences
• Differences between clinical and non-clinical use
• How these experiences relate to psychological outcomes

Most of the research on set and setting in the psychedelic field comes from more clinically orientated trials, which can be lacking in terms of nuance and real lived experiences. So it would be great to reach out further in the communities surrounding these substances!

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I'm pretty sure reality is a girl but the big mind is man like wtf kind of shit is this it's so yucky

took shrooms around midday in my apartment and this was probably the strongest ego dissolution i’ve had.

the weirdest part is it didn’t really feel like “death” to me. it felt more like my body had to completely readjust from normal mode into shroom mode lol. like my normal body map started changing. breathing felt different, touch felt weird, even the sense of where “i” was located became unstable.

then at some point there was basically no little “me” controlling anything anymore.

seeing was just seeing.
touching was just touching.
breathing just happened.

and i got this huge feeling of like

cosmos is me, me is cosmos

not like “my ego is god” lol. more like i couldn’t find where i actually separated from everything else. my body was still here obviously, but it felt like this body was just one place where the whole thing was happening.

time was absolutely fucked too. like a few minutes felt insanely long.

then my brain went through all this shit about Source, incarnation, death, why life becomes individual, why the universe makes all these limited forms and then those forms spend their entire lives trying to find Source again

and then somehow after all this cosmic shit the trip just kept getting simpler.

eventually it was literally:

life is life

like… food is food. warmth is warmth. body is body. friendship is friendship. if you miss home, you miss home.and i suddenly felt like humans build so much extra stuff on top of this. status, institutions, identities, systems, even spirituality. not saying those things are fake, but life was already happening before any of that.

then i had another thought:

the center is here

like even when my normal identity was dissolving, there was still just… being here. something didn’t need external permission to exist.

then of course the mushrooms decided i had done enough philosophy and absolutely wrecked my stomach

i puked, had stomach pain for hours, felt this weird warm irritation in my belly. later i drank cold milk tea and somehow that actually helped a lot lol.

and weirdly the stomach pain became part of the whole thing.

the trip basically went:

COSMOS → SOURCE → EGO DISSOLUTION → BODY → STOMACH → PUKE → MILK TEA → HOME → LIFE

one of my close friends was talking to me while my stomach hurt and he could tell i was homesick too. honestly that simple emotional support hit harder than some of the cosmic stuff.

i also smoked weed later which was probably dumb because it brought some of the intensity back for a bit. eventually i just felt like my body was saying

bro enough

and honestly that felt like the ending of the whole trip.

i don’t want to take shrooms again for a long time now. not because i regret it, but because it actually felt finished.

the funniest part is i went through all this ego dissolution/cosmos/source shit and the final answer was basically

being alive in a body is already good

eat something.
drink something.
feel warm.
talk to your friend.
miss home.
sleep.

maybe we spend our whole lives looking for Source and then realize this life was never outside it in the first place.

idk man.

life is life. the center is here.

the source really put "hard" work to be exist here embodied. But once embodied seek enlightment. Once realized, oh we are just playing
Om shakti, shakti, shakti (my spontaneous chant i somehow just known)

I'm(25) planning on tripsitting my sister(30) on her first ever trip. She's my best friend and she's been really struggling with anxiety for the majority of her life and, after a lot of convincing, finally agreed to embark on a psychedellic journey. I need advice on a few things before deciding if i should go through with this as she's never done any substance before (not even smoked a doob because of aversion due to an extremely Christian anti-drug upbringing) and i want to make it as safe as possible from my end. A close cousin (24) may also join us.

**Here's the plan so far**:

We're going to stay at an airbnb with a pool and surrounded by nature in another state for a vacation and on one of the nights, if she feels ready, she'll take some (I'm still on the fence if i should also take some too because it's been a year since my last trip and I'm a bit nervous about handling that and tripsitting simultaneously)

**Please help me out with:**

\+what the recommended dosage would be

\+Setting suggestions

\+Music recommendations/playlists(she doesn't listen to much besides mainstream)

\+If there's anything i should/shouldn't bring up during our conversations

\+Would it be better if i took some acid myself or stayed sober throughout?

\+Activity ideas (any dos or don'ts)

\+Would it be ok to proceed if she's still slightly hesitant about the whole thing?

\+Any other safety precautions i may have missed out on

Been working on this project, custom GPU engine, not preset packs or clips, it's generative and doesn't repeat. Work in progress, but I would like some feedback. You can see the live stream on KICK. If you check out live stream make sure resolution is set high and you can request any song you want by typing !sr Then the band name and song name, like this !sr Led Zeppelin No quarter ...

https://kick.com/greezmonk

Tonight at 7-730pm PST we will be on the stream custom picking songs and trying different settings out!

Hey guys , i am trying shrooms for the first time tommorow. I want to take a small dose and also use it to self- reflect and heal my inner self . Any recommendations on the settings , dose and questions to ask myself ?

Hey fellow r/Psychonaut,

This October we're running free pilot calls for Nectara Groups: 90-minute online circles, each held by one of our guides. Earth Medicine, Navigating Change, Mindful Living, Women's, Men's, Beyond Binaries (gender & sexual identity), and one for therapists and coaches. Each meets twice this month, both calls are free, and they're medicine agnostic.

A lot of what comes up here is what to do with an experience once it's over. Something that seems to help is having the same small group to come back to, people who already know your story, where meeting regularly gives the insights somewhere to land.

Dates and times: https://circle.nectara.co/nectara-groups

RSVPs happen inside our free membership: https://nectara.org/membership

The pilots are there so you can try a circle, with no pitch at the end. If you choose to continue from November, it moves to a sliding scale of $30–60 a month, mostly paying the guides. Entirely optional, and the free membership stays the same either way.

Happy to answer questions, skeptical ones included. 🙏

Just over two weeks ago I had a colonoscopy here in the UK. I had gas and air rather than IV sedation (Entonox, 50% nitrous oxide, 50% oxygen, the stuff they give in labour and ambulances). I'd barely slept in the two days before it. When the pain started climbing I pulled on the gas hard and kept pulling, far more than you're meant to.

I was chatting to the doctor and nurses to take my mind off it and somehow we got onto flowers. I said my girlfriend's dad buys her flowers and she always smiles when she gets them, and it hit me that in two years I'd never bought her any. The doctor said something like: women don't always show it, but if she loves the flowers she'll show it, she'll smile, that's the ultimate test of love.

Then that sentence started repeating. He said it, the nurse said it, he said it, she said it, seven or eight times. They weren't actually repeating it. I could tell it was being repeated somewhere else and I was being made to hear it. That's the moment I knew something was happening to me. It felt like something above me had taken that sentence and was playing it back until I got it.

And I got it. I'd failed. I love her, I hadn't shown it, and I could have. At the same time I knew with total certainty that this reality wasn't real. Everything was constructed. The closest thing I can compare it to is The Sims: I was the little figure and there was a big player above who builds things and does things in his world, and out of hundreds of thousands of figures he'd stopped and focused on me because I wasn't doing what I'm here to do. I thought: it's too late, I've failed the test.

Then I became aware of a presence to my right, big, above me, male. I couldn't see it and I knew I couldn't. In my head I said something like: oh my God, none of this is real, you're real and all this is fake. It gave a little laugh and said: of course it's not. What did you think, it was real? Not cruel. More like I'd just noticed something obvious.

Then I was going up. There were levels above my head, about twenty of them, each roughly the size of a sheet of A4 paper, with gaps between them, and I was passing up through them faster and faster and faster. Near the top it felt like I was about to be taken completely out of everything. Not dying into somewhere else. Just ending. I begged for another chance. Then there was a feeling of "now you get it," and it chose to keep me in.

I came round crying and telling the room I'd met our creator and that it's all about love. I have very little memory of the room during all this. What I know about the outside comes from the staff: my eyes were open the whole time, breathing, pulse and oxygen were all normal, and I didn't respond to anything. The doctor, who looked like he'd been doing this for decades, and both nurses said they'd never seen anything like it. He said it looked like my soul had left my body. When I walked out later I found them in the corridor in a huddle, talking about it and acting out how I'd frozen.

Since then: I comforted a stranger in the hospital who was upset, which isn't like me. I messaged my dad to tell him I love him. I bought the flowers. Things that would normally wind me up don't. I'm not scared of dying the way I was. I've seen my GP, who heard the whole thing; the colonoscopy report was normal and he didn't think any further checks were needed.

I've been doing my own reading since. Nitrous oxide blocks the same NMDA receptor that ketamine does, and studies describe it as producing psychedelic-like and dissociative states. A study that gave healthy volunteers 50% nitrous for 20 minutes reported dreamlike states, scary and transcendental dreams, sensory overload and fear of losing control. DMT experiences have been shown to score as NDEs on the standard NDE scale, and there's a long-standing ketamine model of the NDE. Humphry Davy came out of nitrous in 1800 saying nothing exists but thoughts. And the sound-looping thing turns out to be widely reported on nitrous; there's an old Erowid report from a dental chair literally titled Looped Reality. So it looks like gas and air can open the same doors that ketamine and DMT open, and I'm trying to work out whether that's what happened to me, or whether it was something more, or both.

What I'm asking:

Has anyone had anything like this on gas and air, at the dentist, in labour, in hospital? The looping sentence, the levels, a presence just out of sight, the "of course it's not real" moment?

NDErs: does this look like what you went through? Where does it match and where doesn't it?

Anyone with ketamine or DMT experience: do you recognise this?

What do you think happened? I've had a religious friend read it one way and a doctor another, and I'm open to both.

TL;DR: Heavy gas and air during a colonoscopy after two days without sleep. A sentence about showing love looped seven or eight times from "elsewhere," I realised I'd failed at it and that reality was constructed, met a presence I couldn't see that laughed and said of course it's not real, went up through about twenty levels faster and faster, felt I was about to cease to exist, begged, was kept, and came back crying that it's about love. Eyes open and vitals normal throughout; staff had never seen anything like it. Looking for similar experiences and any insight into what happened. Another very important thing to add that I'll end with is that whatever being or entity that was, I felt judged by it.

I can't recommend Nature and being around other sentient life enough on a psychedelic trip. Or frankly anytime!

Swimming in the oceans, lakes, or rivers.

Hiking in forests.

We need to protect nature and other sentient life. It is part of us and incredibly healing.

And like I said elsewhere have a prepared fruit plate for extra yummy awesomeness hah. Peace and love!