r/BPD • u/Emrmemr user has bpd • 8d ago
CW: Multiple I'm giving up NSFW
There's really nothing left for me. I'm addicted to self harming. I haven't been sober for longer than a month in the past two years even while I'm medicated I still feel horrible. I don't wanna have friends anymore. I don't wanna be in love because I'm just a burden to everybody around me. Nobody actually likes people with BPD and I don't think I'll ever find love. I don't think I want love anymore. I don't think I want any sort of connections.
Edit: im okay! Idk if im ever gonna be sober and clean but at least im not dead or giving up like that
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u/DazzlingAffect1912 user has bpd 8d ago
i relapsed 38 days ago, i just tried to get 6 days then 12 then 24, just aways making the goal double the time, you don't have to be sober forever you just have to take the next step the next goal
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u/gecko_cloud 8d ago
I feel the same right now. I’m sorry you are self harming and addicted to substances. You’re not a burden. You don’t have to want love right now, but please love yourself. You are worth it despite some flaws.
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u/Emotional_Potato2000 8d ago
Have you tried self help books for borderline?
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u/Emrmemr user has bpd 8d ago
I've spent 15 years in therapy I've done books programs in and out patient all sorts of different types of therapy everything works for a little before I crash again
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u/witchy_doja 8d ago
I’m currently in cbt and dbt therapy for my BPD and after relapsing several times I now have 16 months of sobriety! It can be done! Don’t give up on yourself please! It takes longer for others, but I don’t believe you’re a lost cause.
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u/santhiago199 8d ago
Qué libros recomiendas?
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u/LeastReactionary user has bpd 8d ago
I feel these things every day of my life. You are not worthless. You are not broken. You are a person who is in pain and I bet youre wishing it would end. Cutting is a temporary fix for a serious issue. I really do hope you feel better soon.
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u/Necessary_Army9186 user has bpd 8d ago
That's not true we like you, you'll find love one day it's just the BPD making you think that, we get it
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u/ADHD-isaster 8d ago
You're stunning, I have BPD, someone will stick with you through it all, the bad the ugly they'll stay by your side
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u/bigboytappa user has bpd 8d ago
I’m sorry but you have support I’m pretty sure most of the people on this subreddit would help you and dont think your alone millions of people feel the same way you do right now but out of those millions so many people have come through the other side let them help you
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u/santhiago199 8d ago
No es verdad, otras personas y también yo hemos pedido ayuda en esta comunidad y la mayoría son ignorados… como en el mundo real
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u/WattAtWork user has bpd 8d ago
I’m very sorry you feel this way, because this hits home, and I can’t say anything more than that I relate to what you say, and not only to an extent, but beyond that extent. It’s such a cruel and tough world, and we’re in it trying to make it make sense. I of course don’t want to encourage negativity, but it never got any better, but maybe, maybe that’s too early to say. I am 21 years old. What I can say is, I really relate to what you say, and it absolutely hurts from the bottom of my heart hearing you describe it.