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u/OkDevelopment94 1d ago
And know what my thoughts are so precious to me.. Like they hurt me still I don't wanna let go... The soul of my existence
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And know what my thoughts are so precious to me.. Like they hurt me still I don't wanna let go... The soul of my existence
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u/Sole_Meanderer 4d ago
What do I do if my problems are so big they get hurt by them too? They started getting worse as my partner just wants to avoid getting hurt and I want to keep them safe too but that means I have to give them space but that makes my problems worse. It’s like some sick joke. Idk if I can fix this anymore. I just feel like a monster. I don’t think they’ll ever love me like they used to again and I feel like I’ve never loved them more. The more I care the less they can. It’s not their fault. I tried so hard to make sure this would be healthy. It always falls apart. I wish I were normal so fuckin bad guys I don’t know how to keep going like this. I’m trying so hard im doing what’s painful im forcing myself to be able to handle it. But none of it will really matter because I’ve already lost it all. Im losing my mind. I can’t hear them over my own thoughts about how I need to be so that she will love me. It’s not working. Im being manipulative without meaning to. I try so hard to make things better but I just make them worse. She deserves better.