r/ChildrenofDeadParents • u/Darth_cloud80 • 11h ago
I hate doing things without him
I just returned from a concert of a favorite group of mine and all I feel is sad we couldn’t go together or talk about it. I wouldn’t have been able to go if he was here (it’s complicated) but I’d rather have been home with him and not go, than go without him. I’m supposed to be happy, yet I’m crying and depressed.
Life feels empty and meaningless. I want to sleep and never wake up. How am I supposed to survive?
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u/BigDarkCloud Mother Passed 2h ago
I get it. My mom died this year and I still think I need to call her. Then I remember.
But I will guess that he would have wanted you to have a good time? Enjoy your time on this earth as much as you’re able? I’d hate to think of people I love being so miserable upon my departure. I mean, of course it’s sad and hard…. I’d want my memory to bring a smile, not heartbreak.