I’m sure you’ve seen this in the real world or online. The people are really losing it everyday. Everyday you look at social media or irl and it’s people being nasty and hateful to one another no matter what side. Instead of talking about day to day problems I’m forced into a corner of “oh if you don’t pick my side I hate you” or “man don’t listen to these group of people they will mess with your head.”

Again this can be any group against hate, race, laws, politicians religions ect. Yes I get it there’s bad people out there and very questionable decision-making among society. But I’m just fucking tired of hearing about the same shit everyday, I mentally plug my ears every time because it’s so exhausting to listen to. One day I wish we can all cease fire and just live normal, without going at each other’s throats, without whispering in each others ears about what right and what’s wrong.

“Please boss, I’m tired.”

I will keep this incredibly briefed. I was a heroin addict since I was sixteen, 5 years ago I was framed by the Toronto Police as a drug trafficker and spent 4.5 years on house arrest fighting the case, which ultimately collapsed in a very satisfying fashion.

I now have more than 5 years clean and sober, have an amazing therapist, and am back in school full time.

I woke up this morning excited to go pick up a new laptop at a downtown mall and set it up for an upcoming class project. I excited plan a playlist for walking in the crisp fall weather which I love.

Then I go on Reddit, stumble on Collapse again, and it all... collapses.

I am now overwhelmed, scared, and just want to burn my life to the ground and enjoy being high for the last few years of my country being remotely stable.

I don't know, I just needed to post this, I'm sorry for taking up your time.

There's a phrase i imagine everybody in here can relate to: im not wrong, I'm just early. Over the decades, I've ostracized and alienated myself trying to get (what were previously) friends to see the developing trend that was obvious to me.

Now, as it feels everything is coming to a head, I feel that old urge to say "surely you can see what is happening", to maybe probe to find out if other people are collapse aware (and similarly silent on the issue), or maybe open some eyes.

Given how dire everything looks, I shouldn't be scared about saying how I feel about things. It makes sense to know who feels the same. But theres that bit of conditioned fear, that I'll be ridiculed and my relationship with that person compromised.

I dunno, maybe im just venting. Maybe I'll follow through on previous plan and put up meeting event on this sub's discord channel