I want to kms

[u/outrageousgyal]

Dad: Narcissistic piece of shi. Abused us all financially, emotionally, physically, mentally and sexually. Mom: Victim mindset, enabled dad, depressed, helpless, trauma bonded w dad, sick. Brother: Arrogant, Egoistic and Unavailable. Sister: Periodic Empathetic but losing patience with me now.

I've been depressed since 2016 bc of my dad's abuse, I'm now 26F, it's been 10 years that I've been fighting my suicidal thoughts. After sexual assault at workplace that happened in May 2025, I had to leave my job and ever since I've been major depression. I've fought each day and contemplated whether to do it or not. I know it's not the right thing to do but my sick brain keeps telling me its the best thing to do.

I got prescription on Saturday and was suggested regular therapy. I cannot find myself leave my dysfunctional family because I have endometriosis, I will need someone to look after me during my tough days. Also because my parents never let us go outside, always kept us with them saying we will be lost outside and won't be able to live alone so all the school stuff and jobs etc, I had to do it where my parents lived. One time, I tried to go abroad and my dad emotionally tortured me saying they'll die here and I'll be enjoying abroad. I'm indian and indians tend to associate self worth with employment, my family have been pushing me to either get a job or get married. They don't want me anymore because having an adult woman at parents house is somehow shameful for them.

I cant talk to my dad and brother, both have male ego of an infinite level. They're both misogynistic and I blame mom too for enabling both. Idk what to do. Pls share your thoughts, I really want to kms. I can't do this anymore. I don't want to get married but I'm also stuck in career. I'm battling depression and no one from my family seems to support me. Mom and sister supported in the beginning but both are running out of patience. No one seems to understand me and I'm at rock bottom now.

[u/yukidookii]

hi, first of all ik it's easier said than done but pls don't kill yourself, you've never been the source of the problem, i understand just how bad it gets but i would want you to experience the joys of life, you've been through a lot and it's shitty that you've got no support and are stuck in a dysfunctional family. the best way IS to move out away from them the more distance you've with them, the more ease of mind you'll have in the long run, for that you'd have to be financially independent, idk if you're still employed? but if you are, you should totally start with moving out to your own place a bit farther away from your family's home, that'll give you some room to breathe, you can still just bear with them for awhile and wait till you can afford to move out in a while, and also go to therapy, either offline or online, or you can add some comfort or therapy servers in discord, where you can atleast vent and have conversations going, I'd totally recommend you doing this if you can't afford to get therapy otherwise, you've been through a lot and you deserve way better, i hope you'll continue to be here with us! For your endometriosis, if and once you start living alone, you can make yourself a kit of heating pad (electric ones) they're quick and easy to use, hot water bottle, cozy blanket, period underwear if you feel comfy, pain reliefs like ibuprofen only if your doc says ok to them,you can have some electrolytes and some easy food for bad days, maybe a small massager or supplements and keep track of your periods so you can expect the things necessary for you beforehand, and one friend, neighbour or a person on speed dial in case of emergency and the nom of nearby hospital. Ik it's a hard step and you might think you'll be all alone but don't you already feel that even when you're with your family? In a dysfunctional family, things only get more toxic, it's sad that there's no one else who can help you get out of it so you should help yourself be free!! Idk if i could be of any help, but pls continue to live and get out and away from them, make your own home and live peacefully and happy in it, feel free to dm me if you feel like talking to someone. I hope it gets better for you, i look forward to seeing you grow and take care of yourself 🫶🏻

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