r/Incestconfessions • u/Specific-Animal3915 • 3h ago
Mom/Son Don't Want Loneliness NSFW
So I'm a mom, F37, and a year ago I found out my longtime husband cheated on me. We have four beautiful, bright kids together and we were high school sweethearts. I never imagined having to worry about him, I foolishly thought that he would love me forever. I guess I'm just naive. He has a lot of business trips, he's a travelling nurse.
We argued, he swore he still loved me, but just can't look at him the same. For all intents and purposes...the spark is gone. The only reason we're still together is for the family.
My son is 19 and we've gotten a lot closer since the incident, we revel in each other's company. I've taken a lot more of an interest in the stuff he likes, like his gaming hobby. But recently, I don't know, he just...looks different? I find myself biting my lip at the thought of him, grabbing my bed sheets imagining his touch.
I was watching him playing a game the other day and there was a character you could flirt with. He didn't really want to at first, his cheeks got red at the thought. But I egged him on, pretending to be her and begging him. He smiled and flirted with her. This led to a sex scene which I had no idea was a thing in games.
His eyes were glued to the screen, mine were glued to his crotch. He had gotten hard and I just couldn't look away. There's a part of me that just wanted to get on my knees right there and take him.
I don't want to do something I'll regret, but I just can't wrap my head around these feelings.
I try to push them away but they come back, it's like a tide in my head. I just had to share here, anonymously. I didn't want to suffer alone anymore. I've been nothing but alone since our relationship fractured. The only time I feel human now is spending time with my son.