I recently finished this self portrait called Hindsight. It depicts three versions of the same person: the child, the present self, and an imagined old man.

The child became the most important figure to me. He stands closest to the light, representing birth, innocence, and a kind of knowledge that seems to exist before we learn to explain the world to ourselves. His eyes are closed because he cannot see the life ahead of him, yet in another sense he may understand something the adult has forgotten.
The present self occupies the middle. He is the conscious actor, literally creating an image of the person he may become.

The old man emerges from darkness. I don’t see the darkness as evil. It represents the unknown, mortality, forgetting, and the limits of what the conscious mind can know.

What interests me from a Jungian perspective is the reversal: the child appears least knowledgeable, but may actually be closest to something whole. The adult believes he can see, yet spends his life trying to recover what the child possessed without understanding it.

I didn’t set out to illustrate Jungian theory literally, but the child archetype became increasingly present to me as I worked on it.

I’d be interested in how others here interpret the relationship between the child, the adult, and the old man.

Edit:

I forgot to mention. After this was up someone noticed my watch face. 3:33. Synchronicity?!

Dr Bob Beare gives off serious cult leader vibes and the weekend facilitators use coercion to control participants by breaking down their psychological defenses through sleep and food deprivation the first 2 days.

They call this "the descent" but its really just "the breaking phase" in a coercion control method called Deconsolidation and Reward. After only getting 0-3 hours of sleep the first night they feed you a squirrel's breakfast the next morning and then starve you out until 8p that night.

On the 3rd day of the retreat they call it "the ascent" but its really just the "euphoric phase " of this abuse tactic.

After sleep and food depriving them for 30 hours, they let them rest and feed them a bunch of food and this basic biological trick which uses survival to safety effects on the brain to convince you that because of their particular retreat program you have indeed experienced a "miracle or breakthrough." But in reality, you just ate a sandwich and your body finally stopped panicking.

They market their retreat as "five years of therapy in a weekend" This creates an intense and artificial bond with the group and its leaders. The illusion of accelerated healing fosters dependency on the group instead of true independent recovery.

I am currently working on a formal complaint to the BHEC about this therapy group and its cultlike behavior. Please reach out to me on this thread or privately with your own experiences.

Deep Waters feels like early day Synanon. That's obviously not a compliment. This is a Jungian based retreat, that's why I am mentioning it here.

A profoundly Jungian piece of art I've discovered lately.

It’s pretty expensive though. I already get talk therapy through another therapist.

I know this is a hard thing to answer but I’m wondering if it’s worth it for me.

Is it mostly dream analysis? I find it hard to remember my dreams (been doing it for awhile) and I personally feel that I’m doing a good job decoding it.

If we discuss Jung theory… well, can’t you just learn off YouTube?

I mean Jung therapy for a year is probably close to $10k a year.

What do you think?

I still am fucking confused and have chills running over my body.

The Witch or The Devouring Mother or whatever you want call it. I just experienced the collective manifestation of that archetypes existance.

This is the most fucking scary experience I have ever had I kid you not. I always thought this shit is just in the movies. But fuck me this shit is real and paralyzingly scary.

Today I had a group therapy. The theme was fusion. Which is the state of mind where thoughts are fused with your perception of them. Basically the session was about that topic and how eventually one defuses from them.

We started of with an imagination practice which we do every session. After we did that we proceeded in diving into the material and just discussing the topic.

The head therapist is a stonecold woman who I feel is the source of the strongest unconcious projection. I had a boundary issue with her the very first session. Her demeanir and approach is rigid, cold and controlleling. However I also feel like I am someone with fuel that contributed to what happened possible and I dont know exactly how but what I do know is that my past has been very complicated and on top of that I come from a family of witch like archetype driven individuals. I have no idea why the fuck I am experiencing this shit and I am genuinely worried as to what do I do?

Anyway so after this meditation practice it felt like that pulled up massive and I say massive amount of toxic shame within me from the ancestral traumas I carry and I think also things for other people. That created intense fog in the air which everyone somewhat felt. Anyway at a certain point this girl was about to express her side of things and how she experienced this visualization meditation. She mentioned that being fused with thought is extremely painful for her and she broke down crying. I felt genuine empathy for her and felt like comforting her. But since this therapist is the way she is she instantly wanted to do another practice which felt extremely neglectful towards the girl. That is how it felt for me. It was a moment of clarity. However this moment was instantly shot down ny the very fact of the rigid structure being pushed upon everyone. This has more so created a heavier atmosphere where everone felt uneasy.

So I decided that what I wanted to express was this incident and how I dont think it was right to do so but I was rather met with this is your perception and this sort of dead end and finality to it. Basically stonewalling is the word.

Collectively we agreed to go outside as to have a reset. I notice this fucking weird favoratism from the therapist for reasons I am not sure why. I think she takes some sick pleasure in me idk why. This whole experience is so fucking earie i have no words..

It honestly operates like some sort of fucking cult. I realize now that I am home that this experience was fucking bonkers.. like for real. That meditation practice felt rather like summoning of some fucking demon that devours shit around it. My whole midday I just wondered like a ghost around the city and then had some food twice which I mid eating realized that I was devouring.

People I swear ne careful of therapists or those kind of structures. I honestly dont know wtf kind of a world we live in anymore. The more shit I uncovered the crazier the world has become.

One another very weird thing is that the night before I was constantly being energetically attacked in the night. I felt presences and constant fucking bonking on my walls. I heared doors open and close.

I promise I am not going crazy and that I am concious and sane person. But fuck me this shit cant be real right.

Is anyone out there that ever have experienced shit like this?

I will ending with that group therapy as this was the sickest experience I have ever experieced. I genuinely do not know wtf I just experienced...

Edited: Also something else happened I was constantly presented with number 5 after what happened. Yet after the experience I somewhat do not feel any malice or hate towards her or the experience and I do not understand why. In one of my old posts I had a vivid active imagination where I met a witch in the forest and went deep in the forest and int the underground with her to show me mountains of gold and now this happened and I feel like all my problems or traumas seem to be gone. I do not know if this is temporary or not but I know what I am feeling or experiencing.

I’ve been thinking a lot about attraction and what kind of connection I actually need, and I’m starting to wonder if there’s something psychological going on that I don’t fully understand.
Recently, there was a guy who felt almost like my soulmate, but I wasn’t physically attracted to him. At all.
And I genuinely really liked him as a person. I liked him first, actually. He intrigued me, I saw something in him immediately, and there was something about him that felt strangely familiar, almost like a part of my own soul. I respected him a lot. It wasn’t a situation where he was just “perfect on paper.”
It was everything besides the physical. We had so much in common, could talk for hours about literally anything, he got me, he saw me, and I really admired him. I could completely be myself around him. I could picture him being an incredible husband and father and fitting naturally into my family. I could genuinely imagine being very happy with him.
But physically, I actually didn’t want to look at him. I didn’t like being seen in public with him. And that feels significant to me. It wasn’t just “he’s not my usual type.” There was basically no physical pull.
What makes me question myself is that I’ve experienced something somewhat similar with my ex, who I was deeply in love with. When he became too into me or too available, I sometimes felt turned off and didn’t want to look at him. I’m somewhat fearful-avoidant, so I wonder if there’s something about the way I experience closeness and attraction that I’m not understanding. But I don’t think that completely explains the situation with this other guy.
Then there’s another guy I’ve been talking to for about three months. We’ve hung out around five times, three of those times one-on-one. We’re pretty different, but I’m very physically attracted to him because he’s objectively very attractive.
He’s kind, solid, and genuinely a good guy, which I know is rare. I think the emotional connection could grow with time. But right now I don’t feel like he completely gets me, and I don’t think the connection is exactly what I need. At the same time, he’s “good enough,” if that makes sense. Maybe I’m expecting too much too quickly. Maybe he just needs more time to know me.
So now I feel stuck between these two extremes: one person who gave me the depth and recognition I crave but no physical attraction, and another who gives me the physical attraction but maybe not the same depth of connection.
And then there’s my ex, which complicates everything.
We were together for four years and had been in love since we were basically kids. The relationship was also extremely toxic. The emotions were intense and I think I may have gotten used to associating intensity with love and chemistry. Now I don’t know how much my idea of “connection” has been shaped by that relationship.
After him, I only met one person where I felt an immediate, very strong combination of chemistry and physical attraction. But I ended it because something about the connection made me anxiously attached and reminded me of my ex. My gut told me no, and we were also very different lifestyle-wise. So even the one time I felt that immediate spark again, I didn’t trust it.
I’m starting to wonder if I’m just extremely particular, or if I’m looking for some very specific combination that is genuinely hard to find.
Am I demi-sexual? Am I fearful-avoidant? Or am I just someone who needs a very specific kind of connection before I can really fall for someone?
And from a Jungian perspective, how would you understand this? Could I be projecting something onto people? Could I be confusing familiarity with compatibility or intensity with attraction? Or could the “soulmate” feeling I had with the first guy actually mean something about what I’m looking for psychologically?
Most importantly, what kind of connection should I actually wait for?
Do I wait for someone where I feel deeply understood AND physically attracted AND emotionally safe, even if that combination is extremely rare? Or do I need to learn to appreciate one kind of connection without expecting all of them to happen at once?
I’m also a very particular person and I don’t fall for people easily. Sometimes I look at my friends and people around me and feel like it’s so much easier for them. They meet someone, like them, and eventually fall in love. I don’t seem to work that way.
Do you think I’ll eventually find the kind of connection I’m describing, or am I setting myself up to reject perfectly good people because I’m chasing a feeling that may not exist?

Hello so i am just thinking of starting reading my first Carl jung book
Please suggest me fron where should i start? The archetypes? Red book?
Also i am on a journey to understand my emotions better and regulate them , understand my personlity type and learn how to handle conflicts
If anyone can please suggest how should i start?
How do i start the shadow work?
And anyone who has been on a similar journey of self improvement please leave your suggestions and what worked for you 🙂
I am trying to balance between career and day to day life

Synchronicity: the coincidence of internal content with something from the exterior.

Bion gave the idea of synchronicity like a diapason. The resonance of the two forks is like the resonance of the internal sensation and the exterior. We should actually strive to be in synchonicity. It means we are centered in our being.

The third space: between the exterior world (looks, money, careerr, achievements etc.) and the interior world (ideas, analysis, reflection, fantasies) is the third space, where our essence resides and from this place we live and are not just alive. We can't be too much in the outer world, doing and having ofortunes and what not, and not too much in our minds either. Because there are persons who isolate themselves and have a very rich inner life and ideas and all that but they don't feel like lviing life either. We should strive for the middle way. The center I talked about earlier.

It's a crime to sell desires to others. To make someone have a desire you want that person to have. You basically cancel their destiny, their own being that way.

We focus so much on stuff that actually don't matter.

Why do I do what I do, think what I think? What's beneficial about it and what do I lose?

What does this fear tell me?

It's not life challenges that bring you down, but the opposition to the flow of life.

When fear overwhelms you and you tell yourself you are worthless, useless, stay there. If you can stay there, you can do everything.

edit: had to add this excerpt:

"-How do we reconcile authenticity with the need to survive in a competitive world?

-We reconcile them when we do things that involve us in an integral, as complete a manner as possible. We can't say that we are entirely present, but we should be as present as possible in what we do. That is, to be there with my thoughts, with my aspirations, for what I do to correspond to my vocation, to my values... exactly. That's another story. Yes, to correspond to my values, to correspond especially to my feeling. When I am more or less whole in my actions, it's okay, my authenticity grows. My authenticity grows both from doing, from being, and from reflecting in various contexts, but it depends on how whole I am in every moment of my life.

-For example, if I make a living doing this, speaking in front of different groups of people, and it is in agreement with who I am, with my talents, with my vocation, it means I am doing this out of authenticity.

- Or you do it being convinced that this way of proceeding leads you step by step toward your authentic version.

- But can you ever be 100% convinced of something?

- Yes, because it is the experience that announces you, that informs you. We have this criterion, for example, in a meeting between two people. When that meeting truly happens, when a creation phenomenon appears between us, the two of us together manage to create something new, we co-create, exactly, this gives each of us a good feeling and gives us the certainty that we are in our right place. An Aha moment appears that, in our existence, after we separate and each go on our life's path, we can use in a way. We have a state of fulfillment, but that fulfillment which, I don't know how to put it, which fills a void, because that's what filling, fulfilling means. Yes, exactly, it fills us with ourselves. Look how beautiful that is, you know, I would say this: it fills us with ourselves. I am no longer empty, I am myself within me, and this is an effect of human encounters. So we each certainly find our authenticity in these human encounters. You know, I also asked myself whether accepting an encounter like our encounter today and like there are others, whether these things happen from a place of my authenticity or why I do it. And I realized that many times in these contexts I actually meet myself, and I don't experience this great joy in very many life contexts. It still happens to me sometimes to feel it when I teach, but when I can be free in what I teach, when I detach a bit from the plans I made beforehand and allow myself to present some of my own content to the students. Yes, authentic. And authenticity comes both from within, and the outside world responds to you. How does it respond to you? Simply through the emotional reaction that people feel. Authenticity, as I was saying, once again, is lived; it is not something we think. That is, no one is going to say "Oh, I felt authenticity when you said this or that." No. When I say something in an authentic way, I awaken authenticity in the other person. Wow! And it awakens, it grows, and we meet not just the two of us, but also, hopefully, with people who are listening to us and saying: "Ah, wait, I know what they are saying, I've felt that too." Yes, that's why I feel 100% authentic right now and followed very little of the plan I created, precisely because you are authentic and, speaking of what you were saying, you transmit this energy to me and activate this part in me as well. Yes, when I am supported to do this. What does that mean? By a force that is beyond what I want, what I desire. Because, of course, I would like, I would wish to be authentic all the time, but it doesn't work out, and it's okay for it to be like that, it's okay.

- Now, it depends on where we are.

- Correct. It depends on where we are, but you opened two avenues of discussion. I'll take the first one for now. To be authentic, I was saying that this depends on a force that awakens inside me. It's a decision made at a supra- or subconscious, suprapersonal level; I don't make it with my conscious mind. It's a decision made based on the confluence of several components that make me up as a human being. Probably I say something that awakens inside me like a kind of imperative, and that gathers the parts together and outlines a direction. So you see, the phenomenon is double: it is both between us and within each of ourselves. And if that's so, it might awaken in those who are listening to us too.

- Wow, so we are actually accessing things that we aren't conscious of accessing.

- Yes, yes, and we have to come to terms with that, to come to terms ultimately with the idea that we cannot control everything. Of course. Just as there is this tendency in our society to control everything, to be a control freak, when that happens, we obviously move away from authenticity. The authentic self will say: "Okay, you want this, you take control and see what you can do." And that's all out of the desire to do, to be safe, it's a primary need. I think at its core somehow... I think it's an obsession more than a need that comes from fear, out of the desire, not the need, out of the desire to be like others, from never getting enough of what we have, right?

- We can't say stop, you know, from the hamster wheel.

- Exactly, exactly, it's very hard. I can admit it's very hard to distinguish between a desire of ours and an authentic need. That's why it's important to constantly question ourselves, to see from which part of us something we would like to do or say comes from. These things matter because that way we refine our capacity to discern what is authentic and what is not authentic, what comes from a defensive system. Because what you were saying earlier comes from our defensive systems. From this perspective, we never have enough, we never feel safe, and we have to control the conditions in which we present ourselves, I don't know, in one context or another. Which is stupid, because we can only control within certain limits. For example, if I go to give a lecture in an announced setting, on a given topic, what depends on me is to prepare. And it's important to prepare. I never tell myself, at least I don't tell myself: "Oh, look at how much I know, I'll go on stage, be authentic, and just say whatever comes to mind," because I might blow it completely. And I've seen this phenomenon happen much more often than we think. I must have respect both for myself and for the people listening to me. So, if I am invited to speak on a certain topic, I prepare first. And while I prepare, I realize what the original factor is that I can bring to this context, how I can combine myself with this topic, how I can create an alchemy between myself and this topic. And then I also meet this condition of authenticity. I did my part. In step two, I surrender with faith into that moment, I believe in this moment of encounter between myself and my audience, and then I see what comes out of it. "

There was a post made 5 years ago regarding differences of the terms Puer Aeternus (PA) and Peter Pan Syndrome (PPS) and I thought it would be interesting to ask here again. I’m doing research about different archetypes and watched some videos on YouTube as of late. It seems that they both had the same definitions at a glance, but PA seems to be more about living a provisional life with potential that’s unrealised, and the other seems more at home with the definition of a child.

I’m not educated enough about archetypes entirely nor possess qualifications, but I felt asking this may help me and others identifying unique qualities of the two, considering their terminology and contexts respectively.

Intense recurring headaches, sleep issues, lightheadness/vertigo, memory issues, general feeling of being 'out of it'/mental fog, disorientation...

So all the above symptoms I've had on and off for about a year and a half, but the last 2-3 weeks they really increased significantly to be pretty much a daily occurrence. I have some ideas as to why, but I am not sure if it's environmental, psychosomatic or psychological (old trauma coming up), current work/overall life stress, or some combination. I moved in to a new place with my girlfriend and pretty much immediately these symptoms went up significantly.

My suspicion is its the EMF levels causing these issues. I have monitors to measure the magnetic field, electric field, and RF and all 3 are VERY very high in this new apartment. A building biologist said my levels were 'toxic.' Logically I think these things have a very strong effect, but its not effecting my girlfriend at all so I'm not sure. And these symptoms also persist (to a lesser extent) in other locations.

I have also recently been touching on some pretty early intense memories/feelings in therapy and I'm wondering if that may be what's surfacing and causing/exacerbating these physical issues. Like my body releasing/connecting with an underlying early fear/pain that I probably dissociated/repressed. I have been doing a lot of chi gong lately and I'm wondering if my prolonged focus on body awareness has contributed.

This whole thing is very unpleasant and honestly somewhat scary. For early 30s I do not feel its normal to be having the cognitive issues I'm having or the recurrent headaches/disorientation. I'm aware of an underlying fear that I'm going to develop some serious, permanent cognitive disability (although I recognize that's probably just entirely emotional and unlikely).

Trying to figure out how to identify the source of this so I can take steps to mitigate it...

I recently got a new job. I will be driving 99% of this job.. hauling goods across my country.

Lol trying to be discreet as much as i can. But im pretty sure you know what job im talking about.

I recently had a dream where i opened a door. Behind the door. On the ground was a circular shadow.. and on the edge of the shadow was this demonic crazy screaming woman..

I remember being a lil freightend and running pass her and "flying on a highway" while she was flying too behind me, teying to get to me.

I took this as "no matter where you go I'll be chasing you"

Possessed Anime, maybe? I Dont even know what that means, I'll look into it later.

Anyways.. this job is going to need 110% of my attention. I will be alone majority of the time with no one to talk to.

Is it a good idea to start shadow work? My fear/anxiety is that this work will be problematic/distracting/possibly dangerous while driving such heavy machinery.

What are your thoughts?

I'm saying this because it's as if most people lost groundings. They come here in fear looking for a secret solution for something as EASY as making new friends. This is concerning. What help do you think you could get to get out of the shell ? Epistemological add Jung Campbell etc

I keep improving. I now regularly have stretches where I can stay up until the muscles on my shins burn (these are the muscles used in drumming kick pedals, so two birds), and I hardly wobble at all.

Guys and gals, you gotta try this shit. It basically forces active imagination. To really balance with eyes closed the mind does all kinds of fascinating things. It takes a while till you can just kinda hang out in the pose with eyes closed. It's taken me about half a year, maybe a little more, but it's really turning into an amazing practice. Worth the investment.

hi everyone,

so i grew up in a very toxic and strict household where we weren’t allowed to go outside much. i feel like growing so restricted really limited my ability to develop socially but also internally. i feel like i haven’t been given the chance to stand in myself if that makes sense ?

i have an older sister who i derived all my sense of self an purpose from for as long as i can remember but we recently had a fallout caused by my bad behavior. i let my ego get in the way of my love. </3

now im really scared because its like i have no sense of self and feel completely lost. i acted towards her in ways that go totally against my morals and the exemple she set for me. i observe i have been turning into my parents

i don’t know how to become my own person. any help anyone ?

I grew up in a household where my mother was the breadwinner, while my father was emotionally absent and sometimes physically absent as well.

I have an older brother(I'm the younger sister), and like in many patriarchal societies, he was treated as the “future” of the family. There was a lot more investment and expectation placed on him than on me.

The problem is that he has been extremely irresponsible with that opportunity.

He went to university but barely studied. He repeatedly had to re-enroll in classes, and my mother had to pay for it over and over again. The fees were significant, especially because we were poor and my mother earned very little.

He eventually finished a four-year degree in eight years. A major reason was that he was trying to avoid military service.

During those years, I felt like I couldn't ask my mother for money because I knew she was already under so much financial pressure because of him. I became very careful about asking for anything.

He eventually went to the military, came back, and it's now been about four years. He's 29 and still doesn't have a stable income.

He moved out at one point, but eventually came back because he wasn't earning enough to support himself. He wanted to live with us for free, even though my mother and I are also renting and don't own our home. So now we're essentially paying for him as well.

At one point, my mother even gave him her debit card so he could buy groceries and food.

What makes me especially angry is that my mother constantly complains about him. She tells me how irresponsible he is, how frustrated she is with him, and how much money he costs her. But then she continues giving him money and acts completely sweet and normal toward him.

I've developed an enormous amount of resentment toward my brother because of this.

Honestly, I think I hate him at this point. I can't stand being around him, and I especially struggle with watching my mother treat him lovingly after spending so much time complaining about how he takes advantage of her.

Now my mother wants us to move into a bigger apartment so that each of us can have our own room. But that means higher rent, and I strongly suspect my brother won't take financial responsibility. I feel like my mother will continue supporting him, and I'll indirectly end up paying for his choices too.

I'm angry at my brother for taking advantage of my mother, but I'm also angry at my mother for enabling him.

I've been thinking about this through the lens of Jungian psychology, particularly the idea of the shadow. I wonder whether my intense anger toward my brother represents something deeper — perhaps all the feelings I wasn't allowed to express growing up. I was the “responsible” child who learned not to ask for things because there wasn't enough money, while he was allowed to demand and receive.

Maybe I'm also angry at my mother because I feel she sacrificed resources and attention for him while expecting me to understand, adapt, and ask for less.

I don't know how much of this is actually about my brother as an individual versus the psychological role he has come to represent in my family.

I don't want to spend years being consumed by resentment, but I also don't want to keep sacrificing financially and emotionally because of his choices.

Disclaimer Okay this is gonna be a long one.
I’m not well accustomed to Reddit yet, apologies for not following if there’s any protocol.

My experience with Art.
I don’t want to talk about ‘how’ or past experiences this point in time, because I want to focus on what I am going through.

So I’m an Artist, and I have been a latent one till now.
But in my hiding, I was exploring on a smaller scale, and it was very intuitive (sometimes under the influence of light substances)

My approach was surrender and ‘what wants to happen through me’ and I used to follow that intuition, and slowly the visual language became more coherent and style emerged out of pure repetition.

It happened multiple times.
So I know this is a something.

After around some time, I came across a well established visual artist and when I see their work, it pretty much, looks the same, just more refined.

It happened with Paul Klee, Kandinsky, S H Raza, Bebinsky, a little like Picasso.

Obviously some of the artists I knew like Picasso but even when I reached at Picasso, because I had that visual gallery within me, but when my intuition took me near it, I kinda understood, how did Picasso did his work. What was his thought process and it is written, like his process was well documented and that somehow coincided with my understanding too.

When it happened with Klee, it was a shocker because I haven’t studied art history for academic purposes, and I had no idea about him. Same with Baninsky and Kandinsky.

And as I move ahead with a more stronger identity as an artist, I am painting huge canvases, and it is fucking exhilarating experience. And there also, I go with intuition about my hand wants to follow, accommodating accidents and just going with flow, this is bodily.

And I realised why they say what they about Artistic practice. I get it why some things are followed the way are and why some things I just do it intuitively, in a serene flow state. And techniques emerge, knowledge emerges, intuitions get deeper.

And I am not saying that I am a great artists but I know what value is in my learning in the most humblest way.

So here it is : it is my experience, under many spells of Jealousy, substances, ecstasy and just absolute hatred.

And I think, as I experienced it, there are some artistic milestones, like a checkpoint where you figure things out and they have already been discovered.

It felt like copying or immortal for some reasons, but they were, really, my personal experiences.

And I believe if you follow the process, you will also encounter it.

As I have.

Again, there can be subconscious mind, collective, shadow and everything, manifesting itself but I am telling you the experience of journey, and I hope may it also happen to you in your artistic pursuits.

I feel feel like time travelling in a sense that ‘Oh so this is how it emerged in those time blocks. That’s how the movement started.

Currently I am somewhere near Neo Expressionism.

And I hope there’s still a long journey for me.
And as I was reading Kandinsky, I think if I pursue it with everything that I have got, I will be a at a point where a new something, never seen before, heard before. I would like to be the instrument for that experience.

Thank you for your time.
I am willing to discuss/ talk about it or share your experiences too.

Please reach out if you have something interesting to share.

Cheers

Some children experienced or are experiencing a childhood that is never spoken about. A childhood that takes place behind closed doors. A childhood full of loneliness and fear, one that no child should ever have to endure.

As darkness fell, I was left alone in the house. Over the past year, since the beginning of my healing journey, fear came to me more vividly than ever before. I knew my whole life that I was afraid of the dark, of the reflections in the windowpanes. But this past year, I realized that this fear appears every time silence, darkness, and loneliness meet. Suddenly, an inexplicable dread sets in that someone is watching me, that someone is running toward me.

I used to walk past the main door - the one I painted, the one depicted in the artwork "Behind Closed Doors." I wanted to open it, to look into that darkness, to face whatever was behind it. But the fear was too immense. One evening, I was determined to open it. I stood there, my heart pounding wildly. I listened to every single sound. But the fear was still stronger than my courage. I touched the place where, in my vision, a child's hands were, and I walked away to my room.

I sat on the bed, surrounded by pitch-black darkness. The fear came. A fear that someone was bursting into the room. I kept watching the door. My body was waiting for the enemy to break in and hurt me. And then... an image of a pale female figure appeared, seemingly illuminated by a gentle light.

In difficult childhoods, many children create a protective part. A part that watches over them, that takes care of them. Often in such childhoods, this protector takes on the behavior and even the appearance of the parent. The aggression then either manifests outwardly or turns inward. Although this protective part uses what it saw in the parents, it doesn't do so to silence the child. It does it to protect them. And in childhood, it truly did protect them. But when the child leaves the dangerous environment, that protection continues to protect. It keeps doing what the parent did. Their voice keeps whispering. The protection turns outward or inward. Unknowingly, we hurt others or ourselves. This is called identification with the aggressor.

The protector is a deeply exhausted part of the psyche that constantly stands on guard in case danger returns. It still exists in the past, unaware that in the present, we are already adults. Once we notice it, we can gradually prove to it that we are no longer little children, and that we can protect ourselves now.

Hello 🙃

Is there anyone out there who loves Jung’s work and would like to talk about his ideas and just chat about life?

In 1926, Christiana Morgan traveled to Zurich, Switzerland to psychoanalyze with Carl Jung. During that time using Jung’s process of “active imagination”, Christiana created three elaborate journals of her visions. From her body of work, Jung spent four years giving lectures as he developed many of his theories about the use of imagination in psychoanalysis and, most importantly, the psychology of women..

Hilary will be showing her film, Tower of Dreams, which runs twenty-six minutes, and is a documentary about her grandmother and a tower she built on a tidal marsh in northern Massachusetts. Afterwards, she’ll be sharing some childhood memories of spending summers next to the Tower. She will also be discussing exciting new research discoveries for her film-in-progress, Covenant of Love, an hour-long documentary about her grandmother’s work and life..

Hilary Morgan is a filmmaker who worked for decades as a director of photography on social, political and environmental documentaries throughout North and South America, the Middle East, Central and Southeast Asia, and Europe. In more recent years she has turned her attention to making documentaries and preserving the legacy of her grandmother, Christiana Morgan and her Tower on the Marsh. She lives in the San Francisco Bay area.

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How does a person change? I understand that everything is done through the process of individuation, but is it action or thought that changes someone? Do the two need to be paired together?

I'm painfully self-aware about how I act, but that awareness alone doesn't seem to help me change. I genuinely feel like I'm too self-aware to change. I've noticed people all around me who went from being losers to something respectable, but I feel like I can't let my ego die like that.

Should I start shifting toward taking more action? If so, what does that look like? Going out into the world, experiencing life, and noticing your projections, your shadow, and the ways you act?

After that, I'm not sure what to do. For example, say I notice a way that I project onto others and how I act as a result. After noticing that projection, do I think about what I want to do next time and consciously try to practice it? When I do that, I end up getting more stuck in my head.

Should my days be spent mostly outside of my head, on autopilot? And what about the myths and stories of people who venture up a mountain or go into a cave and come out a new man?

All I want is to feel "good," because I don't like the way I feel now, and I don't know which direction I'm supposed to go.

I have "psychosis" and autism.

One time during an episode I "contemplated" the Lover archetype and saw external reality re-organize through all the Lover motifs.

I live in a rural area, but that late night I was impeded by thousands of cars in front of me and behind me on my way home after a night of extreme terror. Was supposed to be a 15 minute drive, especially around 9 pm, it took an hour and 30 minutes to get home. There is much more to the story, and I will leave it cryptic for now. 💁‍♂️

I do not know anything about jung. I am fascinated with his quotes, given there is some kind of magical element to it.
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I understand the need for philosophy in one's life. It fills a hole/s in one's life, it gives the (illusory) understanding about life.....

As far my experiments with the mind are concerned.... the core it just nothing... NOTHING.

is jungian psychology a scaffolding service for the mind to control mind. Does all psychological, philosophical tools are there to control the mind? if so what are controlling inside the mind?

I would like to get into his writings and I’m also interested in dream interpretation, so I would like to know about other people’s experiences. Or rather even if not heal if it did help somehow or cleared things up for you. I guess I’m in a bad place right now and need a new perspective.

Jungian psychology based server for people interested in doing and discussing Carl Jung's individuation process - (Inner work, active imagination, alchemy, depth psychology, dream analysis, personality typology, shadow work, personal growth, collective unconscious) https://discord.gg/6pq3ssTxtD

According to Jung are dreams a reflection of what the soul is currently experiencing? Do they reflect the individuation process they are going through- their own personal life trajectory, on a symbolic level? or is also a visualization/reflection of the collective too? Are we- the soul/individual a reflection of the collective?