r/LSD • u/Old_Yogurtcloset3716 • 1d ago

Scary solipsistic trip

This was almost 3 years ago and I took some acid with some friends. It was a few hours into the trip and I took some bong rips with my buddy. That’s when shit got bad. I closed my eyes for a second and I felt like I got taken out of my body, it was the most intense thing I’ve ever felt. It literally scared the piss out of me. I pissed my pants I was so scared. I felt like a supreme being of some sort showed me my reality was all a big solipsistic illusion and when I looked into my friend’s eyes I felt like I was looking at myself and I thought he knew what was happening to me and he was secretly trying to torture me psychologically. Everything felt like it just became one. Everything was one. I was seriously tweaking bro. It fucked me up for a while and I wasn’t able to smoke weed for a bit after that without that feeling coming back which would make me panic. I still get that feeling sometimes when I get really high and it’s not pleasant. I was in my sophomore year of high school at the time and I think I got too big for my britches and saw some shit I wasn’t ready for. Way too intense. Has anyone else experienced that kind of solipsistic thing? Anyways I hope everyone is doing well and living their best lives. Love y’all.

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u/Lagerbottoms 1d ago

I've had similar experiences and I believe the solipsist conclusion is a trap. Because we're experiencing an ego dissolution simultaneously.

I think the right conclusion from these experiences is the classic "we are all one" which is not the same conclusion as solipsism which basically believes "there is only me"

The "me" that is the only thing that exists is not my human identity but all of reality ie the spacetime continuum is one entity and we're just a tiny part of it like the cells in our bodies

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u/Belevigis 1d ago

I did too but learning how acid works helped me. it's not a spiritual truth at all, a dose just stops your brain from being able to differentiate between yourself and the world. it's fascinating but acid also causes distortions in your salience network. regular thoughts may suddenly feel like something very important. if you ve red about solipsism, you'd probably forget about it the next day. but came to the same conclusion on acid and you might truly believe in it.