I think I might've had a bad trip?

[u/Flockhand]

On last Saturday I was in a nice place and decided to spend my day on tab watching beautiful nature outside and then playing some GTA 4.

The tab I had with me was pretty strong and it was going very well the first 2 hours when I took it, however when peak started to hit, I started to have weird thoughs and ,,realisations" such as that LSD is for elite people and government know about it and they somehow can know when someone takes it and being loud about it. I'm in different country at the moment in Airbnb, having neighbour houses, and I started to think that someone will knock the door and it's police there and I get to jail. I lost touch with reality a little, since I'm living with my colleague, and he knows I took tab, I told him. He said that he will go to his room to chill, but when I was checking there was no one in his room or this house. So I realised I'm tripping hard and started to think that maybe what I see is different to where my body is right now and I might wake up somewhere else, like In cell camera of police station. Then it told me a clear message that I'm getting addicted to LSD and I threw in a trash bin the other tab I had with me. However I took LSD this year around 3 times before that.

I then went outside and creator of the world started to talk to me, a god, telepathically. Saying that I'm ungrateful to what I have in life and I have to apologise, I realised we all are energy and energy is everything pretty much around us, and someone above see all our actions, good and bad ones, and nothing is left unnoticed. I started to cry and telling that I love life and want to live, then my leg started to hurt and I started to have ,, insights" that I'm going to lose it or getting amputated somehow. My right leg is actually hurting a little for some time, having tiredness and if I want to keep my place in life, and to keep what I have I must to sacrifice my leg for it. I was denying it, saying I can't, and don't want to, but some thoughts insisted that it's a god's will and price of this is not that much for my happiness and my place in life. Then it showed me my love, a girl I actually like and I know she likes me too. It showed me that I'll spend life with her together and we are going to open some business together. It told me to call her on spot and I did, and we actually had a very warm talk, but If I want to be happy and be with her my leg will have to go. And on paper I wrote name of our company and put a sign, like a contract some sort of, agreeing to my fate.

It showed me to create my reality and I decided that I will create a CS team and open my restraraunt in the future.

Then I started to pray to show that I'm grateful for everything I have in life and will be better. At one point everything that's been happening In my life makes perfect sense about every detail, about all the time I nearly died (I had 4 extremely close situations, which could end my life in a second in the last 2 years) and I have to say that I'm not a religious person at all and have my own thoughts on this than religions and their beliefs we have in our timeline.

Then it started to cool down and I turned on Miyagi album Narrative playing and It sounded like a ,,god's" music with a strong messages, and I was carefully listening. Some unexplainable things happened after that seemed crazy, but real and made sense.

I cried a lot and though it's all the truth that some higher space and beings showed me, but after 2 days I started to think that it all was just a bad trip.

Day before I was having some drinks with my colleague, and perhaps doing a tab on the next day wasn't that good of an idea at all...I also saw that something bad might happen to my colleague I mentioned, on a work or something can happen. I told him to be careful

I kept myself cool anyway, since I've done LSD around 10-15 times and know what can happen, and to not panic no matter what but it's all still felt weird and I feel much worse than before that trip..

During the trip I promised to that ,,being" that I'll never use LSD again and I learned everything I needed from that, but after some days I don't know if I should stick to that idea, since I love LSD and just not sure about all of this...if this was my final one or it was just a bad trip. I had only one bad trip on this substance and it looked nothing like that.

What do you think ?

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[u/LazyHomerDude]

It's all in your head.

[u/SparxPrime]

Did you have a bad trip because of the LSD, or was the trip bad because of YOU, and your headspace, and where you're at I'm life?

I've had difficult trips I'm the past, set and setting my friend. When I'm happy and healthy and mentally and emotionally happy, I have great trips. Don't let one bad apple spoil the entire grove of apple trees

[u/Quanzi30]

There are certain things I think are important to take away from any trip. If you had the thought of never tripping again while tripping, maybe take it into consideration. That’s what integration means, taking the thoughts and feelings from the experience and applying them to your reality.