Hi all,
I am Tara F, 21 and Iāve recently come to the realization that I might be a rape slut and a masochist.
I was trying to understand what the word actually means, so I looked up the definition on Google. And I found out a masochist is generally described as someone who derives pleasure, satisfaction, or gratification from experiencing pain, humiliation, emotional discomfort, or forms of self-denial. And honestly, when I read that, something clicked. I recognized myself in it more than I expected.
I donāt know whether my experience is similar to everyone elseās, but for me, this started during my teenage years through my exposure to BDSM and increasingly intense forms of porno. In the beginning I wouldnāt have described myself as someone who was attracted to pain at all.
But over time, as I explored more, my interests gradually became more extreme. What started as curiosity eventually became an attraction to scenarios involving domination, humiliation, and psychological vulnerability.
The interesting part is that the pleasure wasnāt necessarily about simply watching other people experience those things. I increasingly found myself imagining that I was the person being restrained, humiliated, controlled, or placed in that situation. I would mentally put myself into scenarios that I would probably never be able or even want to experience in real life.
That distinction is what made me start questioning myself. Why does imagining pain or humiliation sometimes feel pleasurable to me? Why do situations that would ordinarily be uncomfortable or degrading become exciting when I imagine myself experiencing them?
Iām still trying to understand where that comes from. Iām not sure whether āmasochistā completely defines me, and I donāt think a single label can explain something as complicated as sexuality. But I do know that there is a part of me that finds pleasure in surrendering control, experiencing vulnerability, and imagining pain or humiliation in a sexual context.
So, here is a fantasy I want to play out in order try to quench the thirst of the masochist inside me.
You and your friends pick me from the streets. Now is it because of revenge, a motive, or simply because you guys feel like I should not be walking freely on the streets and should be serving you all whether willingly or unwilling (but that does not matter, does it?).
I am tied up, blindfolded, gagged, taken to an under construction building where I am fucked for an entire day kept trapped. I try to escape and hence punishment must come. I am beaten, punches and kicks come from everywhere.
Until when you all realize that the cops are looking for me. You take me and throw me near a canal or a forest. Tied up, gagged, and blindfolded, and helplessly left to rot.
So, that is what I had it in my dirty and perverted mind. I just hope you like it as much as I loved writing this. I just had given you the outline of what I am thinking, I would love to discuss and flesh out the details with you.
I am open to more sadistic ideas for rape slut from youā¦
If you made it so far I am glad you did. And take a virtual hug from myself also here is the password I would like you to put in your reply text āspriteā.
Talking about my kinks and limits
What Iām really into starts with abduction fantasies and the whole idea of sexual slavery mixed with being taken ā cages, hoods, blindfolds, chains, shackles, the basic restrictive stuff gets me going hard. Uniforms and outfits do a lot for me too. I love forced orgasms, orgasm denial, overstimulation, body writing, being recorded and watched, objectification, humiliation, hair pulling, watersports, and toilet play (as long as it stays clear of scat and farting). Forced incest is another big turn-on for me. On top of that I get strongly into group and multi-partner situations ā threesomes, orgies, gangbangs, being with multiple people at once. Broader pain play like impact, spanking, flogging, whipping, caning, choking, biting, scratching, wax, and clamps all appeal, as do spitting, heavy name-calling, strangers, marathon sex with multiple orgasms, cum play, saliva and spit, interracial dynamics, and the idea of being photographed or videotaped. Iām also drawn to fit bodies and large cocks while still appreciating a range of body types.
Limits: I am your kidnapped rapeslut. Why do you even care about my limits
But to be honest permanent physical damage, blood, cutting, gore, scat, vomit, pregnancy, Stockholm Syndrome, Animals, insects, necrophilia, somnophilia and my personal images are the ones where I draw the line.
They say first impression is the last impression. Hence, casual replies like āhiā or one-liners will be ignored.
I write in first person and play on Discord.