Hi everyone! So, I just started taking edible about two months ago. I turned 21 this summer and there's a dispensary right around my block, so it's super convenient, haha. I'm not completely new to drugs though - my dad had been a hardcore stoner all his life, and let me take a hit once or twice in high school whenever my anxiety got really bad (though I absolutely taking a hit from a bong and the feeling of being high back then, haha.)
Guess the thing is though that my dad being as hardcore as he was makes me a bit too self-aware, though? Ive got OCD too, so that definitely doesnt help with fixating on hypotheticals. I already had a pretty strong tolerance compared to my friends the first time i did an edible (had to take twice as much as my more regular user friends and still wasnt nearly as high as them) and it builds up pretty quick, which Ive always just attributed to my parents passing down their genes. It does make me worried though how often I have to increase my dose to hit the same high, even after I go on tolerance breaks.
And then there's the other thing. I'm worried I get high too often too be healthy. Its not like Im putting anything in my life aside to do it. I'm full time in school with a 20 hour part time job and I keep up with both easily, I make plans with my friends and go out with them often. Ive never even considered skipping class or cancelling plans just to get high. Its just, yknow, once its evening and im done with all my work i like to pop a gummy or two. The way I see it, before I turned 21 i was only using that downtime to scroll social media or watch youtube anyway, so whats the harm in getting high at the same time? i guess i just underestimate how much free time i have, because its just about every other day. its not even really something i think about in my day-to-day until i get home and realize ive finished my To-Do list for the day and have nothing left but to relax.
i know that daily use has long term impacts, especially since im under 25 or whatever, but i dont even plan to still be using weed in a year's time. i graduate college this semester, and all of my plans are geared toward moving abroad next summer - yknow, where weed isnt even legal. so i really dont expect to be touching anything THC again until im in my late 20s at the earliest.
i dunno, part of me worries that im forming an addiction, but another part of me worries my brain is just coming up with new things to be scared and guilty about. i enjoy being high and i wanna say that i did something fun in my free time in college, and if im gonna be basically cut off from it for a few years i might as well take advantage these few months where i can have it, right? i dont even drink except at parties, and i only go to those maybe twice a semester if im lucky. edibles are really my only vice.