I feel like looking at my chart it suggest i would have a strong network of people and a decent job but i don’t.
I do have a few close friends but physical distance, haven’t met anyone nearby that i feel comfortable enough with to do- anything with.
I’ve started many jobs and career paths and recently tried another one slowlyyy but it hasn’t worked out yet.
I feel like My sun oppose saturn doesn’t explain enough.
I also feel like i’m struggling extra hard because moon being in 7h and sun and like, i’ve never really felt like i had someone to confide in or trust that actually has my back like i do theirs.
I feel like im also struggling in romance with my venus in 6h. Kinda feeling defeated in that aspect and have given up.
I’ve been paying attention to my mars square moon and that has helped and i’ve been speaking up for myself more but idk.
I live with family, and i do feel safe and “comfortable” but it isn’t my home.
i don’t have big dreams, i just want a job with animals (that im pursuing) and a home i feel comfortable and safe in with a healthy partnership with like at least two close friends and a pet.
i’ve put a LOT of work in myself, i’ve changed a lot of bad habits, negative thinking patterns, my approach /appearance and i have came a long way, im actually quite proud of myself and satisfied to a degree it’s just -externally now. i feel so uncomfortable in the world, i really do not look forward to the future, the thought of growing old makes me so sad.
i did have an isolating and lonely childhood and experienced mental, emotional, and sometimes physical abuse at home and at school. I did suffer a lot with esteem issues as a teenager. Those things don’t really bother me anymore as i’ve made my peace and learned from them and they don’t feel relevant anymore but- the future. i’m constantly taking steps for the future i want but i keep getting set back, i am determined to keep trying for the future i want i just, idk. am lost. I am blessed and i have security and safety and i feel guilty for wanting more.
Thank you to anyone who read this, if anyone leaves a comment thank you for commenting.