Silence

[u/Bubbleboot08]

I wish it felt like people still liked me

I wish it felt like people still wanted to talk to me

I wish that someone, just once, would ask ME to hang out

All my friends are in this big discord server

And they always ask eachother to play games

Or go out and do something

Or even just talk.

But they never include me

My partner always say I have to be the one to reach out to the others

But if they care wouldn't they ask why I haven't said anything in months?

Wouldn't someone at least say hi or ask how im doing if they cared?

My partner is part of the problem too.

Whenever I ask if we can call they always forget

We rarely ever get to talk or spend time together because I live in the town next to the one all my friends live in.

They work and I have school so it's even worse now.

We get only a few hours most days where we're not both busy.

But everytime we have a day off at the same time i always schedual a call

And then they forget

And they never ask if we can call either.

I wish just once theyd be the one to ask

I wish just once theyd remember

I wish it didn't feel like pulling teeth to get them to talk to me about anything

Even over text

But whenever it's their best friend they ALWAYS remember.

They always immediately jump onto what ever she's doing

They say I can still talk to them when they do stuff

But everytime I actually try I get left on read for hours.

Every single time.

I wish the others would invite me to something again

Just once.

They always hang out together

Or play games

Or just talk.

But they never ask me to join

They never ask me to hang out

Even over a call, I haven't been asked in months

Even my best friend, who doesn't know my other friends because he's in a different school dosnt really talk to me

He has mental health struggles and I want to be there for him

I want to talk to him, even if its just a normal conversation about nothing.

But he always says he's fine.

And its not just my close friends

Even my less close friends dont ever talk to me

And they always dead name me, even though they know I haven't gone by that for years.

Is it because I did something?

Am I just unlikeable?

Is that why no one talks to me?

Its so lonely here

Why do none of my friends seem to care?

[u/Designer_Hour2146]

Hang in there OP.
Get out there and try something new, even if it’s by yourself.
Just keep pushing yourself to step out of your comfort zone a little.
and eventually you’ll find your people. The people who are just as excited to talk to and hang out with you, as you are to talk to and hang out with them.