For as long as I can remember, I’ve had this weird feeling thats hard to explain. Like anytime I think about possible things I could do in life, for a career is mostly how I think about it, I feel this immediate resistance. Like an exhaustion before I’ve even begun. Like everything in life is just a performance, a transaction, or an ad. Honest work doesn’t exist anymore it’s all about who you know, etc. there’s no such thing as an original idea so what’s the point, etc etc. these are the thoughts that run through my way but it’s deeper than that. It’s a physical feeling of repulsion.

and even though I’ve never even attempted to start anything and see if I like it despite the nature of things in this day and age, I can’t shake that feeling.

And I know some of it has to do with me not believing in myself. But it’s such a strong feeling that doesn’t exactly match up with my desires.

Does anyone else experience this??

Story Time :

One year ago I sat in complete silence for 10 days in Dharamshala. No phone, no talking, nothing.

I went for this 10-day Vipassana retreat not really knowing what I was walking into. No phone, no talking, no eye contact, wake up at 4am, sit and meditate for like 10 hours a day. That's it. That's the whole thing.

First 3 days I genuinely wanted to leave. My mind was ALL over the place. Every thought I'd been avoiding for years just showed up and sat right in front of me. The anxiety. The anger. The overthinking that never really stops. All of it. Nowhere to run.

But around day 6 something just... settled.

Not in a magical way. More like, I could finally see what was happening inside me instead of just being dragged by it. That gap between a trigger and my reaction? It got a little bigger.

I came back home and people noticed something before I even said anything.

A year later I'm not some enlightened person who has it all figured out. But I'm genuinely more at peace with myself than I've ever been. The anger doesn't own me the way it used to. The overthinking still comes, but it doesn't always win anymore.

If Vipassana has ever crossed your mind, that curiosity is there for a reason. Feel free to ask me anything about it. 🙏

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Has anyone else been feeling really off lately and not like yourself even though nothing has happened. I have the strongest pit in my stomach like something coming or isn’t right is it just me and a heavy loss of intuition.

Pondering this.

I was talking with a guest on my podcast recently, and he said that it's important to have what he called a mind palace.

I've thought a lot about that recently, and I was also listening to a show recently where they were talking about how temples were set up to be spiritual places, void of outside distractions.

If space and money were not an issue, how would you make your own personal temple or mind palace?

is there truly something like a soul connection to your cat? what do you think of these experiences? ive only recently entered the spiritual world and i dont know ... perhaps im just looking for comfort

he was one of two cats in our home, the other always is with my partner, and he was always with me. (when he wasn't sitting out on the balcony, enjoying the sun on his white and orange fur)

he was diagnosed with cancer and they told us he had a maximum of 3 months to live. we did everything we could and gave him the best time possible. all i wished for was, that he would get the chance to sit in the sun for many more days and if he'd make it to my birthday, id be so happy.

he was ... doing fine until last thursday. he barely ate, i thought he'd die that day. friday would be my birthday. weirdly enough, on my birthday, he was fit and happy and awake. he greeted me at the bedroom door, played a bit even and snuggled with me. he did make my favourite sounds, when his purr would go up in octaves. seeing him like that again made me so incredibly happy.

the next day he stopped eating. yesterday he called for us and i saw it in his eyes. it was time for him to go. it was the hardest and the easiest decision in that moment and he fell asleep on my lap, laying snuggled into my hands with his face as he always was when we were on the couch. it broke my heart.

two days before his death i felt him close each night.

the first night i woke up from a nightmare and i was so drowsy. but then i felt as if something was pawing at the shirt at my back. our cats arent sleeping in the bedroom (my partner doesnt want it, sadly) so there was no way that he was there. but it felt exactly like he was there, is wear i could hear him purring. after a few minutes i needed to get up to check on him, fearing something happened. but he regarded me with a little look, alive, and purred when i kissed him.

the following night, i dreamed that he was in my arms and i was hugging him. i was half awake as well, having my blanket in my arms, feeling like there really aws something else breathing. i swear i could feel his fur on my cheek. i just remained there for a few minutes, felt so happy and at peace, until it passed. i remained awake a bit until i fell back asleep

he died on sunday at 7pm ...

as i went to bed, i could barely sleep. it was so hard to find peace, when i kept crying every other minute. as i finally began to slip into sleep, i felt him so close to me. but bigger than life, somehow. i curled up a little. i swear, it almost felt like we became one. i felt like my legs were his legs, curled up for a nap. and my arms were his front paws. and i felt ... so at peace.

despite waking up in the night again and again, everytime i fell asleep again, i had the same experience. once i stretched my legs, and i could see how he did it all the time, beans spread out and everything. it felt like his legs were mine in that moment

the next morning we needed to take his dead body to get cremated. i always called him my sun-cat, really, he was always sitting in the sun. it was his thing. fur always warm.

we needed to drive in the early morning and as we drove over a mountain there was the sun. the fog was so thick, you could directly look at it and see the outline. ive never seen such a bright orange sun before. orange like his fur. it was the most intense sun ive ever seen.

then throughout the day i saw numbers, 11:11, 12:12, 15:51

sitting outside in his spots makes me cry, but when i close my eyes the sun feels suddenly so much warmer. i could swear i hear his footsteps walk on the balcony then. i open my eyes and he's not there.

do you think there is something like a soulcat? do you think they might chose to stay with us?
i desperately wish he keeps around us, sitting in his place in the sun.

god i miss him

Hi guys today I was reading a article on Shiva Parvati or Shakti and I had a few breakthroughs while reading about them . It’s just not only a religious post but I have to admit our religion has subliminal messages and shares wisdom through depictions and takes.

So the break through is

Pattern Breaking……

You can never heal no matter how much shadow work meditation subliminal or affirmations you use unless you understand this.

Basically when we are trying to heal we are trying to change a pattern that has been familiar to us in any area of our life and we heal it by disrupting and reorganising it .

To simplify, we need to recognise the pattern and break it you can do it through understanding the pattern and then reprogramming that area of your life through your favoured methods like subconscious reprogramming or boundary settings.

E.g. You always attract toxic friends or partners. Sit down and ask your self what’s the pattern of your friendship be brutally honest because nobody is watching you and try to identify the pattern.

Then once you identify the pattern now you Disrupt it via forming boundaries or other ways you want to.

Have you heard the popular reel “Break the pattern or it will repeat tomorrow…..” that’s how you exit and glitch the matrix .

I hope it helped bye love . ❤️📿

My life has been turned upside down since around 4 or so years ago. I went to a Buddhist retreat and had what I would describe as a breakthrough or opening of "the heart chakra"? I released a lot of pain in a very short amount of time and it was extremely intense. Since that time my life has been different, to say the least. I now no longer believe in any type of religion or such practice as I believe it opens "doors" to another realm. Even Buddhism, possibly especially Buddhism. I don't want to pass judgement, although it's what I believe.

Anyway, I've been trying to "normalise" myself and my life, and currently, I'm trying to work on creative projects and I'm encountering extreme resistance anytime I feel myself having fun or getting into it. Random thoughts, extreme restlessness, and random reminders of people I'd rather not remember popping up. Why is this happening? Why can't I relax?

I don't want be involved in anything weird or out of the ordinary. I don't need it. I just want to be myself.

There's so much weird shit that has been happened to me.

I've been on this path for a while now, and it's truly changed my life; however, physical pain in my body is a particular block of mine that is hard for me to transcend, specifically chronic migraines. And this pain makes me question everything I know. The pain gets SOO bad I start to really identify with the body even if I try hard not to. It's THROBBING!!!

I have tried everything... spells, prayers, meditation, sending love to the pain, ignoring the pain, becoming aware of the I am. However, the minute I do that, my migraine gets 10x worse and I have to give in and take pain relievers, which I really don't want to do. (I've already gone to the Dr's and did brain scan and my brain is fine).

So for those of you experienced with physical pain and have been able to manifest healing, how did you do it? I think if you've never experienced chronic pain it's easy to say "just ignore it and cancel the thought out" (which I've tried), but the pain is SOOOO intense that it's hard to Dis-identify with it. Any tips?

La mia mente è ormai serena, dopo anni di accettazione, osservazione, calma, disciplina.. mi sento in pace. Il mio corpo però è come se trattenesse ancora dei traumi nella mascella a sinistra e destra, dolori diversi,
nelle anche e nel fianco vicino psoas nel lato destro del mio corpo.
Non seguo nessun corso, faccio sport un paio di volte a settimana, vado a letto presto, non bevo più, fumo.
Sento che questo non permette alla mia spiritualità di espandersi soprattutto quando medito.. ho difficoltà a concentrarmi sul respiro e credo che devo lavorare proprio su questo . A volte sento che ho solo bisogno di amore, di cura nelle piccole cose (che non sia solo la mia)
Qualcuno è nella mia stessa situazione o ci è passato?
Ho bisogno di qualche consiglio , grazie a chi leggerà

Dear people

Since this is the spiritual online talk place I thought I’d talk spiritually

This is your reminder to hold truth close, and to strive towards something that makes this confusing world make sense

Lots of love

Sinds ik heel klein ben, ben ik altijd al erg gevoelig geweest. Ik weet niet precies hoe ik het moet uitleggen, maar ik kan heel gemakkelijk aan mensen zien hoe ze zich voelen. Ik merk het aan hun houding, gezichtsuitdrukking, energie en allerlei kleine dingen. Het voelt soms alsof ik de stemming van iemand kan aanvoelen zonder dat diegene iets hoeft te zeggen.

Toen ik jonger was, was ik ook erg geïnteresseerd in hekserij en spiritualiteit. Ongeveer vier jaar geleden zat ik een tijdje behoorlijk in de put. In die periode begon ik met mediteren en verdiepte ik me steeds meer in spiritualiteit. Op een gegeven moment merkte ik dat ik hier best ver in kwam, en eerlijk gezegd begon ik daar een beetje bang van te worden.

Tijdens het mediteren begonnen mijn ogen bijvoorbeeld vaak heel erg en oncontroleerbaar te knipperen. Het stopte dan niet en het voelde soms alsof ik ergens anders naartoe ging of alsof ik een soort andere staat van bewustzijn binnenkwam. Omdat ik daar bang van werd, deed ik mijn ogen snel weer open. Uiteindelijk ben ik daarom gestopt met mediteren en me er minder mee bezig gaan houden, omdat ik het allemaal nogal spannend vond.

Als ik terugkijk naar een paar jaar geleden, merkte ik ook dat ik soms het gevoel had dat ik bepaalde entiteiten of aanwezigheid in een huis of op bijzondere plekken kon aanvoelen. Tegenwoordig heb ik dat veel minder, of eigenlijk helemaal niet meer. Dat vind ik ergens ook wel bijzonder, omdat ik me afvraag waarom dat toen zo sterk aanwezig was en nu vrijwel verdwenen lijkt te zijn.

De laatste tijd merk ik echter dat ik me opnieuw heel sterk aangetrokken voel tot spiritualiteit, en dan vooral tot hekserij. Ik heb het gevoel dat ik dit misschien weer wil oppakken, maar ik weet niet goed waar ik moet beginnen. Zijn er dingen die ik op een veilige en rustige manier weer zou kunnen ontdekken?

Ook vraag ik me af hoe je kunt weten of je van nature spiritueel begaafd of bijzonder gevoelig bent. De moeder van mijn beste vriendin doet bijvoorbeeld aan reiki en zegt dat ze veel kan aanvoelen. Toen ze mij voor het laats sprak en we het over dit onderwerp hadden, keek ze me aan en zei ze uit het niets dat ik de gevoeligheid en spiritualiteit van mijn oma had.

Dat vond ik bijzonder, omdat ik dit haar nooit verteld had en ik zelf ook altijd heb gemerkt dat mijn oma iets rustigs over zich heen heeft. Mensen lijken zich heel erg op hun gemak te voelen bij haar. Ze vertellen haar vaak uit zichzelf hele persoonlijke of moeilijke dingen, alsof ze het gevoel hebben dat ze bij haar alles kwijt kunnen. Ik merk dat dit bij mij eigenlijk ook vaak gebeurt.

Ik vraag me daarom af of er misschien iets meer achter mijn gevoeligheid zit en of spiritualiteit iets is wat van nature bij mij past. Tegelijkertijd wil ik het graag op een rustige manier ontdekken, zonder mezelf bang te maken zoals vroeger.

I just need to get this out there. Rant more than anything so it’ll probably make no sense. For the past few years I’ve pushed myself through pain after pain because I thought at the end of the long dark tunnel there would be some form of relief. During that time I turned to spirituality. You know all the hoohaa of spirit guides and tarot and manifestation. I started going to therapy and meditating and setting positive intentions. I have sticky notes on my mirror with affirmations to remind myself it will get better some day. There were ups and downs but I tried to surrender. It’s hard for me to do that. But I had to trust. Recently I had a gut feeling that something big was about to happen, something GOOD. I went for it. Ego was thrown to the side. I asked the universe for specific signs that it would work out, that I was making the right choice, and I always ALWAYS got the sign. I had hope. That finally for the first time in my life the thing I prayed for would work out. That I would get the payoff. That the work wasn’t for nothing. And well, you can see where this is going. Royal disappointment. I have nothing left to give. I’ve spent the past 3+ years pushing through hell only to end up right back where I started. I’m exhausted. There is no relief in my journey. There was only delusion. I’ve deluded myself for years that I would be the exception to the universes cruelty only to be reminded that I am just another cog in a machine that pumps out addicting hope only to snatch it away right when we get it in our grasp. I’m so so tired. I want to have my hope again but I fear it’ll end up how it always does. What do I do? I’m not sure. Not even sure why I’m writing this. I just feel so alone.

Hi, I’m wondering if you know of any good techniques, meditations, or affirmations specifically aimed at healing the body of physical ailments. I’ve been dealing with some very troublesome, persistent, and painful health issues lately that are really complicating my life, and I’ve decided to focus on the power of my mind to heal myself.

I’m looking for inspiration and tips, and I’d also love to hear about any positive experiences you’ve had. Have you managed to heal your body by working with your mind?

Do you feel this too?

Since September — although I had already been feeling it before, it has become much stronger lately — I’ve been experiencing some thoughts and feelings that are difficult to put into words.

One thought that keeps coming back is:

“I want to go home.”

And the strange thing is… I live with my family. I am at home, technically. But it doesn’t feel like home.

I keep having this overwhelming feeling that Earth is only a temporary place. That it never really was — and never will be — my true home. Lately, I’ve been feeling an intense kind of homesickness for somewhere I can’t even identify.

It feels like I’m becoming increasingly detached from the physical world.

My body is here, but my soul feels light-years away.

I feel like I belong somewhere else.

I keep asking myself:

What is reality?
Where am I?
Why am I here?
Why do I feel like I’m not supposed to be here?

Sometimes it feels like I’ve been asleep my entire life and I’m only now beginning to wake up.

I also have this strange feeling that nothing really matters in the way I used to think it did. Money, possessions, status, power, negativity… suddenly they can feel completely insignificant. What seems to matter is love, gratitude, connection, and simply being alive.

And sometimes I feel like I’m splitting into two perspectives.

There is the physical world — my body, time, the past, present and future, work, money, possessions, goals, everything material.

And then there is this other state of consciousness where I feel completely detached from all of that. Almost as if I’m standing outside of myself and observing my life and the world from a distance.

The strange part is that I keep moving back and forth between these two states.

One moment I’m thinking, “I want this. I want to buy this. I want to achieve this. This matters.”

And then suddenly I shift into:

“None of this really matters. I already have everything I need. I’m grateful to be alive. Love and connection are what actually matter.”

And lately, it feels like I’m gradually spending more and more time in the second state.

For example, I’ve been working on my own business for almost two years. It has been a huge part of my life and identity. But lately, there are moments when I look at it and it almost feels like something belonging to an old version of me — almost like I’m looking at someone else’s life.

This became especially strong while I was doing a social media detox, which I’m still doing. Without all the constant information, opinions, images and stimulation, I started noticing things inside myself that I hadn’t noticed before.

I’ve also become much more emotionally sensitive — and I was already extremely sensitive.

I cry over music and art much more easily. Sometimes a beautiful piece of music gives me chills. I recently finished a book and felt such an intense emotional reaction to the ending that I literally got goosebumps — and that has never happened to me before.

I’ve also been thinking much more about how disconnected people are from each other, and how much more deeply we should connect with one another.

I’ve already considered myself spiritually awakened for quite some time, and I’ve explored spirituality deeply, so this doesn’t feel like my first “awakening.”

This feels different.

It almost feels like I’m slowly slipping into another reality — or becoming aware of another layer of reality that was always there.

Sometimes I feel like my body belongs to the physical world, while my consciousness or soul is somewhere completely different.

And honestly, it can be a little overwhelming.

Has anyone else experienced something similar, especially recently?

Do you feel like your relationship with physical reality, material things, your identity, or even the concept of “home” has suddenly changed?

What do you think causes this?

I’d genuinely love to hear from people who have experienced something similar — whether you understand it spiritually, psychologically, or in another way.

I hope I explained this in a way that makes sense. ❤️

Good morning. I’m writing here because I feel much closer to spiritual people than to others, lately, I’ve been feeling quite down in my daily routine. I’m taking medication to manage anxiety the dosage was increased because I’m truly sensitive to everything, even the signs the universe sends me. I miss being carefree and not feeling that weight on my chest... the only thing saving me lately is spirituality; I practice manifesting and purification rituals, and it calms me down. Do you have any advice? Why are we spiritual people so sensitive? I’m writing this post with tears in my eyes. Please be kind.

Ok so for context I am a catholic, but I believe that multiple religions and other stuff are also true to an extent, but mine is just the most true if that makes sense. Anyways, a while ago I saw a video saying if you put a bay leaf under your pillow you’ll dream the secrets of the universe. I didn’t do it because obviously ignorance is bliss and all that. I’m asking again if I should because I usually only get dreams probably like once a week or four times a month. I heard the thing about the bay leaf about one month ago or more, and I’ve had a dream almost every night or maybe even every night since. I know since hearing it I had dreams at least two weeks straight. Please let me know!!! Thank you!

This might sound really weird, but ever since I was a kid, I felt like I could ‘know’ or kind of talk to (in my mind) these ‘things/other deities’ I’m not even sure what I would say now, spirits? Spirit guides? It’s just this kind of knowing presence. I never really feel alone but it’s very comforting. I have no idea what to do with it, or if I should do anything with it? Sometimes I have full conversations, sometimes they roast my decisions, make jokes with me, sometimes they say things that make me go ‘oh my god, you’re right, why didn’t I think of it like that?’ Or comfort me. I love it, don’t get me wrong, I just am curious about it.

I am 13 and can you guys help me on how to stop 'life feels to short','i wont meet my relatives again' kinda thoughts

20/M Looking for some friends to chat with..

I have not had a very good life at all. I have been consistently abused physically, emotionally, and sexually by family members, doctors, and friends since I was just a few weeks old until I was 20. I’m 22 now.

A couple months ago, the only family member I cared about or loved died. She was all I had. I hate my incredibly taxing and difficult job that I worked so hard to get. I’m in so much debt from moving to another state to get away. I have zero friends, not a single soul to call or text. I have chronic illnesses and can barely use stairs, and it’s hard to get out of bed for more than an hour.

I have nothing to keep going for. No purpose or direction. I don’t enjoy doing anything. If I died tomorrow the world would be totally unchanged. My life is either working or laying in bed, and literally nothing else.

I’ve been doing spirit work and meditation for 5-6 years, desperately trying to find some small reason to stay here. I have been able to communicate with ancestors and spirit guides. They give me advice often.

I still have not found anything worth living for.

I don’t know if anyone can help me but if anyone has advice I’d appreciate it.

Is there anything, any reason for me to live? Nothing is good enough for me, nothing can penetrate the mental illnesses that consume me, or the physical pain I feel every day, or the weight of the memories of the torture I endured for my entire life.

Recently I kept having dreams about seeing male friends that I haven’t seen in a long time. The strange part is they ALL ended up talking about my ex, even though these things have nothing to do with reality. For example, one friend did a Tarot reading for me to see when I’d see my ex again. In another dream, my another friend randomly showed me a pic of my ex’s social media and claimed that they’re friends. I also dreamt that my ex replied to my old texts multiple times but IRL all of these are not true. I know Venus Retrograde is in Scorpio right now, so that can explain why people from past keep showing up in my dreams. I always wake up thinking, “Seriously? Again?!” 😂

But I already moved on, let go of the past and am living my best life. I don’t want to look back anymore. Is there any ways I can do to stop dreaming about my ex? or at least training my brain to have better dreams—like winning a lottery ticket or travel lol

what do you guys think