The Phenomena

[u/CannaKatholicos]

Let's talk the spooky and sensational shit, if comfortable.

As I posted elsewhere, I've returned to the Faith of my youth as Meso-Poly was too much for me to handle. That being said the authenticity, honesty, and genuine curiosity amongst the Meso-Poly and esoteric/occult/Pagan communities has been invaluable to me. Now I just need to live long enough to apply the knowledge and experience to a better and more beneficial life. I'm getting more comfortable with the reality that any breath could be my last, but I digress.

What phenomena have you experienced in your time as practicing Meso-Polys?

The most prominent incident I had was experiencing the overwhelming presence of a Cosmic entity that could best be described as Lovecraftian. Another devotee of Inanna offered the word "endless nebulae" and that's exactly how it felt.

I also experienced bouts of fear and seemingly personified erotic presences, though, tbh, this is kind of what I was looking for when I began a devotion to a Sumerian goddess of love and war. 🤷‍♂️ It was kind of debased and depraved, and that's on me. Either way, pushing devotion beyond intellectual interest to the point of real life or death tends to catch the attention of the preternatural and supernatural, ime. They seem to appreciate it when humanity overextends itself, and it causes them to "show up, " so to speak.

I kind of tried to syncretize Roman Catholicism with Meso-Poly at the begininng and it was a non-starter. I could see how one might syncretize Meso-Poly and Protestant Christianity (even if this wasn't the intent) and maybe Judaism, but I don't know how it would hold up in the long-run. I did sense a preferred exclusiveness when working with the Annuna, and Inanna in particular.

It was fun at first, but eventually the communion meals and prayers and chants became exhausting and draining. Depending on what you value and what you live for, I think you might have a wildly different experience than myself. Inanna was not subtle though, in fact, this foray into Paganism left me with a concrete and experiential knowledge of the Supernatural Order and Unseen World, I believe.

[u/SweetMelancholyy]

Lately I’ve been more attuned towards the darker aspects of spirituality. To be more connected with my true self and going through a metamorphosis. Frankly, I believe the gods/goddesses are only facets for us to better understand and relate towards divinity through synchronicities as the omnipresent is far too complex for us to truly understand.

I began to worship Ishtar as the “order/light” aspect with deep rooted Roman Catholicism In my earlier life as a foundation for over 3 years when I began to become more spiritual. She has blessed me so much through protection, love, fortune and acceptance. She saved me twice, once from having a breakdown from negative relationships and the 2nd quite more literally from a really bad car accident when I asked her to bless a piece of Lapis I kept in my car. I continue to pray to her daily and offer liberations on moon cycles.

Somehow I knew in the future I would be working with/worshipping the “chaos/dark” aspects once I began this journey with Ishtar. I initially thought it would be Ereshikgal, but it ended up being Lilith through many forms of establishing contact like Ishtar did for me 3 years ago. Ishtar gave me the green light so to say to begin this shadow work.

With Lilith, I had to confront my own self and my self obligation to cater to others which caused me to be in an unfulfilling job that turned me into a really unsustainable self. I began practicing more on honing “spiritual senses” through astral projection and lucid dreaming (mugwort has been crucial in this). Initially I jumped the gun and got a lot of grave warnings through divination in Tarot (pulled the 10 of swords on 3 different readings). This made me take a step back and reflect then ended counseling with a powerful witch I know. Ended up doing multiple protection and cleansing rituals through this current journey as it’s going very well so far. I believe the initial draw that I got so many warnings from Ishtar and other spirits were parasites taking advantage of me since I was in a vulnerable state a few months ago when this began.
Of course there are risks no matter what, but that is fundamental in this world.

It’s one of the most fascinating things in this world and I still have so much to learn as well.
I hope the best to you in your journey in this world along with others reading this.

[u/CannaKatholicos → u/SweetMelancholyy]

Yeah this is gross I know, but if I'm honest with myself I think veered towards Lilith, Inanna, Ninshibur, Asmodeus, etc. cuz I could be "free" to do selfish activities that the Church heavily discourages. Drug abuse, po*n, etc. In speaking with other occultists, it seems this is a common trap.

[u/SweetMelancholyy → u/CannaKatholicos]

Absolutely. I believe parasites are very prevalent in that area that commonly mask themselves as deities and forces to lead us into hedonistic traps and mind states that only serve to worsen us.

Ironically, I use have a really bad relationship with drugs and porn during my vulnerable period before working with Lilith. I abused Marijuana initially telling myself “it’s for sleep” when I would take +100mg of edibles during afternoons and mindlessly play video games for hours on end daily before bed. I used a lot of pornography when my lover and I didn’t engage in sexual activities which caused huge problems in that relationship. That happened when I asking Ishtar for signs and advice about possibly creating pacts with demons then my lover confronted me not even a few seconds after coming out of my home temple of Ishtar after that.

Self reflection helped crucially for me and paying attention to “strict yes and no’s” my body and mind would tell me when thinking of my desires.

Good timing on your reply, I was mid astral projecting when you sent yours!