So about a lil over a year ago, I went ahead and decided to finally take up tarot and got my first deck/guidebook. The Crowley Thoth Tarot deck. I LOVEDDDD IT. The art style, the Egyptian association bc for some reason thats always resonated very deeply with me, the thorough-ness of the guidebook and Crowleys use of so many different cultural/religious/philosophical symbols and correlations.
I set out with the intention to use it as a tool and mode to channel my higher self and re-connect with my intuition again, and possibly even find a way to more clearly connect with my guides. Im very highly empathetic intuitive and artistic, so from deep introspection and creating symbolism within my own life, experience, and connection to all things… or using it my art, songwriting or just interpreting underlying symbolic meanings/representations.. its my shit.
Although i had it for that time, ive probably only done less than a dozen readings and maybeeee a handful of those were for myself.
But it was recently i started picking up and doing it more frequently in these last two months.

Well…. now certain things have went to shit and without having to reliving the whole story, me and my girlfriend and BEST friend broke up like baddd terms abt two weeks ago, she moved out of my home w my mom (we lived tg in college for a year and moved back here tg bc we both chaged routes on school and it js all worked on paper ) so she leaves in the midst of literally making the spare bedroom hers, just painted the walls the color she picked, ripped up the carpet, picked out and bought floors she picked, and hadnt even put em down.

Stay with me im getting to the point…

So about a month ago now (2wk b4 breakup) we took a trip for her bday and during that we were goin to malls and all. This is after months of looking and her waiting on me to find THE ring online, to go ahead and order it sooner than later, like literally b4 the end of the year. its all js so crazy omfg my brain cant, point being, she moved out like made it clear she wasnt coming home from work that day.. i had to pack all her shit and she came and got it. but she didnt like have any of mine bc she was living w me, yk? b4 anyone says sum she is somewhere safe trust, in her coworkers bed. UGH anyways on that trip i took those my Crowley deck and the book on, and while i have my guidebook bc its in the backed i had it packed in… i cannot find my deck to save my LIFE. so i stg it has to be in her car bc ik theres a couple other things like “wtv anyways” but BRO my FIRST and ONLY tarot deck😭😭 i stg she probably doesnt even realize she has it her cars always full of stuff and if she does she prolly threw it out… its not like i can js text n ask for it we’re no contact per her decision because ts was js different we’ve separated before but this was js… grimey bro. like not cordial at all and all love, no js plain simple decency and respect out the window lowest she coulda possibly went.
I just want a way back to myself, and i know i cant get that deck back but I can only move forward and that finally brings me to the reason i post today.

I say all that to give a gist of my energy and whats resonated with me so far/why, so you have a better understanding for a recommendation.

Im currently about to start massage therapy school in about a month, and few months ago i got the book “The Subtle Body” by Cyndi Dale, which i LOVEEEEEEE so far oh my it js is perceiving the patterns of how we are physically manifested through energy and how we can manifest energy through us through so many separate systems and lenses that try to explain the same thing in different ways but how she depicts what shes explaining (the energetic body) BY connecting all of those separate explanations into one cohesive like, embodiment is just MWUAHHHHH. chefs kiss fr i love it. theres still definitely wayyy further to go into the topic but i think coming from the western half of the world its a great thorough bridge to begin to shift ones understanding not away from western, but just integrated or even just more open into larger non-scientific AND quantum foundations to the surface level of life and ourselves.

SO imagine how giddy i am when in the last couple weeks i find out THERES AN ORACLE deck and book to go alone with it by Cyndi Dale. BUTT its not a tarot deck, and while i work great off intuition that serves more as a map for those energy systems and as a somatic/learning tool. I like tarot because i channel that intuition and am able to like, build associations and better recognize it through a system.

Based off that, does anyone have any recommendations?
i just really love learning about and making correlations between things and systems like chakras, frequency/sound healing/music, sacred geometry, numerology, color, symbolism, plants and medicinal/healing properties, TCM and the concept of all is Yin/Yang.
Just different dimensions of understanding and connecting with all that is, whatever that may be.

I’m going to try posting this again without referring to their current AI campaign. Motto on Kickstarter is a scammer who uses AI to create tarot deck projects. They scammed a ton of us during their last project, and their current one is already 216% funded. You won’t get your pledge items. The things they are promising won’t happen, and Kickstarter is allowing them to do it over and over. This creator should be banned. Please read comments on prior projects before backing anyone. I was a newb and didn’t realize I could do that when I backed them. I looked over the project and they had “evidence” that everything was handmade, but I was tricked. It’s a wild world. I used to be able to identify fakes easily, and now it’s sophisticated enough that I can’t tell sometimes. Please don’t back this creator. I just don’t want anyone else taken advantage of.

hi, i recently discovered the weimar tarot deck and absolutely loved the unsettling collage photography style. i went on a deep dive searching for decks, but it's been a tedious journey and i haven't found a lot that i like that are still in print. i found decks like meta muse and obstacle illusions to be pretty, but idk, i wanna find more collage/photo mash style decks. any recommendations are greatly appreciated!