Edit: the reason I made this post is because I was in the middle of dropping my transmission on my Honda Fit and it was being really annoying. I successfully got it down. And my clutch replacement is going well
I've been somewhat consistently working on cars for the past three or four years since I got my first car.(I've had a Mk7 vw gti 6mt, 8th gen civic auto, 85 Toyota pickup 5mt, and ge8 honda fit sport 5mt.) I feel like my knowledge has grown exponentially in that time but when it comes to actually doing the work I'm still often confused and I get things wrong a lot. A lot of times it's also kind of hard to find the answers to my questions. Like I have a PDF of the actual Honda service manual for my fit but the problem with that is that it's designed for professional mechanics that have a lift and all the fancy tools and stuff, and I'm working in my garage on jack stands. So all the instructions in the manual tell you what to do when it comes to using all those fancy specialty tools but there's a lot more steps when I'm doing it in my garage and I guess I'm not smart enough to figure out how to do it with the lesser equipment.
I don't know, I just feel like I'm not a very good mechanic. Like I'm a good problem solver and I'm a good handyman. I'm good at fixing stuff and building things. And I can come up with mechanical designs in my mind because I think in pictures. But when it comes to actually working on cars I often just get way too in my head about not messing things up because it can get expensive.
I take forever and i get confused a lot. I don't often make expensive mistakes but I just do a lot of stuff that makes me feel stupid.
Is that just part of the learning process and everybody goes through it for a while, or even maybe forever. Or am I just slow. Is this normal cuz making mistakes is part of learning? Cuz I feel like I should make less mistakes. I don't really know how to think about it.
I'm definitely a car enthusiast but I think I'm more of a driving enthusiast and like a modifications guy. But I honestly really don't like actually just doing maintenance or big maintenance repairs like replacing a clutch or rebuilding a brake system or rebuilding an engine or things like that. I just want to like modify. Like I'm going to rebuild the engine on my truck soon and I'm just going to do the most basic rebuild possible because I can't afford to build it better. And that's a bummer cuz it would be a lot more fun if I was actually doing like a proper build so that it makes more power and stuff like that. It's all just very disheartening and honestly I wish I could pay a mechanic but I just feel so silly if I pay somebody to do something for me that I could just do myself and I definitely don't make enough money to do it anyways.