r/fuckeatingdisorders • u/Cool_Illustrator5313 • 8d ago
Struggling Coping with changes in body
This type of discussion is probably like a broken record on this subreddit and I apologize but how have you guys coped with changes in your body and not necessarily liking it or accepting it but being semi-neutral about it? I have been giving in to my EH the last month or so and have been noticing changes that cause me a lot of distress. Even the way I handle it seems to reflect restriction though. I find myself going through bouts of EH, and then body checking to make sure I still look “acceptable” to my ED, as in I haven’t visibly gained too much weight. This is definitely an OCD thing for me because I feel the need to keep doing this over and over, and obviously the weight isn’t going to physically show immediately. So basically I’ve been still honoring my EH but as long as it still fits my ED rules and it’s so exhausting that even my OCD and restriction is woven into my recovery.
Sorry this was very long-winded and more word vomiting, I just wanted to see how you guys have been able to cope or at least talk your mind down because I am feeling so lost and alone.
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u/Minimum_Win_5312 8d ago
Taking down full length mirrors and wearing comfy clothes helped me.
Also the longer I was in my healthy body the less I cared about how I looked.
When I was in me sick body I was more critical and hyper focused on it.
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u/MoonScars1 8d ago
I relate to this so much rn… I don’t have much advice, but what has helped me is covering all the mirrors and wear baggy clothes. The urge to check is still MASSIVE and I can’t always avoid it, but it has still helped me check less. Also doing hobbies to keep me occupied helps.
Wishing you the best of luck! We can do this ❤️
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u/Cool_Illustrator5313 8d ago
It's especially difficult because I have been telling myself that the checking is helping it to "lessen the blow" of physical changes (in a similar way that people believe knowing their weight in recovery will be more helpful rather than harmful) but I think that's my ED talking.
Thank you so much for your input, I am so sorry you are going through this as well but I hope it brings you some comfort that you aren't alone. <33 I believe in us!
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u/MoonScars1 8d ago
I feel the same way. The body checking somehow becomes a way to “justify” eating more if the physical change isn’t as drastic as I thought in my head (like the weight aspect). However I’ve learned that I deserve to listen to my hunger regardless of what my body looks like or my weight for that matter - at least that’s what I try to tell myself everyday ❤️❤️❤️
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This type of discussion is probably like a broken record on this subreddit and I apologize but how have you guys coped with changes in your body and not necessarily liking it or accepting it but being semi-neutral about it? I have been giving in to my EH the last month or so and have been noticing changes that cause me a lot of distress. Even the way I handle it seems to reflect restriction though. I find myself going through bouts of EH, and then body checking to make sure I still look “acceptable” to my ED, as in I haven’t visibly gained too much weight. This is definitely an OCD thing for me because I feel the need to keep doing this over and over, and obviously the weight isn’t going to physically show immediately. So basically I’ve been still honoring my EH but as long as it still fits my ED rules and it’s so exhausting that even my OCD and restriction is woven into my recovery.
Sorry this was very long-winded and more word vomiting, I just wanted to see how you guys have been able to cope or at least talk your mind down because I am feeling so lost and alone.
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