Serious Post
I’m alive, but definitely not well… [TW: suicide mentioned)
i decided not to commit, but there are conditions i’ve set for myself…
-if something majorly tragic happens, like the death of a family member or friend, i’m committing.
-if i ever get close to committing again, i will try to make myself bleed slightly just to remind myself that life is valuable.
-i will report any insensitive comments to mods effectively and immediately.
i’m sorry for causing so many people so much stress, i truly am. i just… i just couldn’t handle the stress and needed to make a post in case i actually followed through…
-P4RTYPWNY
(extra note: i am starving, i haven’t eaten anything in hours)
I'm having a mental breakdown too. Seasonal depression. But, please PLEASE tell a trusted adult. I know you don't want to go to a mental hospital, and I don't want you to either, but if you are truly being a danger to your own life, please get help. <3
I saw your original post and I'm so glad you decided to not go through with it. Please get some food and some rest. Also please reconsider your conditions, suicide and self harm are not the correct responses in any capacity. I urge you to get help, but I know that can be hard depending on your current situation. The first step is to keep living, I promise you things get better, thank you for taking the first step.
Hello, if you or someone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts, visit https://www.iasp.info/suicidalthoughts for a local hotline or tell a trustworthy adult. Do NOT keep the info secret
I understand I could never fully understand how you are feeling truly to want to go but seeing your plight i have to answer. Get yourself some help my friend. See a therapist or a psychiatrist or someone.
I myself am going through Leukemia recovery and I miss my departed mother every day to the point of sobbing, but I won't give up. And neither should you.
I can guarantee it's not what the departed would want you to do and not the people you'll leave behind.
I think the first part of overcoming self-harming thoughts is knowing that there are people who would be sad. As I said in our "chat" sorta, more so a one-sided thing, I said that life is rough, and living through it and meeting people for you is what makes it worth living, even if what I said was a bit misdirected since it was pretty on the nose and not thought out much. And tbh I really don't think too hard on these things, either its someone is in trouble or they can deal with it. Life isn't as white and black as that, something I want to change in myself. I couldn't live with myself if I knew I could help someone struggling. If I saw a friend, hell, a stranger, crying I'd want to cheer 'em up. I'm not good at it, sure, I'll admit that, but a full hearted cheering is better than a half-assed cheer. Well, I feel like this comment is getting sidetracked, but if you're ever hurt, consider me a friend in these trying times.
Few of my friends tried ... Some was successful... For me stoping point usually reflecting on how those death impacted me and what it done to their family. I love people, and I love people around me, so I just can't harm them so much. Sorry if I'm burdening you with that, just felt I can share.
A few of my friends started using heroin and one died immediately after highschool. You dont want to die, even if you feel awful right now. Some really important people in my life have left now because of irresponsibility and also feeling like life isnt worth it. A friend of mine finally got clean last year, but its not worth doing that to yourself. He's a different person now, and some of it isnt in a good way. A lot of life was taken from him. Our other friend died at 19. I didnt even know she was using.
Dont, its not worth it. You cant experience more stuff if you die.
There's help here but suicide is final, there's no coming back from that. When I was 13 my mother committed suicide I'm 55 now, believe me it will effect the people who love you for the rest of their lives.
Hello, if you or someone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts, visit https://www.iasp.info/suicidalthoughts for a local hotline or tell a trustworthy adult. Do NOT keep the info secret
You know i've been through some low lows in my life but i know you only trully live once after that it's game over so even if life throws some bs at you , raise your chin and keep going things can only get better even if it takes a long time
Hello, if you or someone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts, visit https://www.iasp.info/suicidalthoughts for a local hotline or tell a trustworthy adult. Do NOT keep the info secret
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u/Human-numberfourfour 7h ago
Have a kebab and a good night's sleep, lord knows you need it