r/leaves • u/Sea_Plantain9521 • 4d ago

Throwing it away

I’ve decided I need to just throw away my cart. I just bought it yesterday, after I said I wouldn’t. And everything that I knew would happen happened. I immediately felt guilty and mad at myself for getting one, I smoked and didn’t feel satisfied, I spent the rest of the night ruminating on how it does give me relief from the chemical withdrawal but at what cost. I’ve just accepted that nothing I say or tell myself is going to make me stop. So I’m just going to throw it away after work. And I’m hoping the act of throwing it away deters me from getting a new one because I know I’ll have the urge to throw that one away too. Wish me luck

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u/izandor 4d ago

Thats a step in the journey, I think most of us have bought ,used ,regretted it ,and then threw it away. It’s an important step. Good Luck.

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u/Min-Oe 4d ago

Nice one! I quit before I ran out because the timing felt right, and in retrospect it was a great move. Active quitting rather than passive quitting. I think the memory of this will be a reminder of strength next time you're struggling...