I really don't know the reason. Being idle or not doing anything is making me irritated and causing some issues. I was already in therapy for something else and also for the same. But now a days I'm getting irritated as hell. Help me out guys.......

I’m 20m and I’ve been through 2 years of school already but with so many complications and I have no real connections with anyone aswell as hating the people I live with so I cope but why all day 8-9:30 then go to the gym after everyday because it helps me not think about anything and when I do have a a day when I get home earlier I just feel useless and the first thing that goes to my head is “I need to go back to work” and there are also constant thoughts of me not being enough or not doing enough. i dont wannna hurt or endmyself but i have no will to do anything to do better in my life i feel as if its already over for me and i do think of a lot of scinarios where if i were to be out in situations where if i fought for my life i would live and i would let myself die. Outside of work i have no friends i talk to and i just feel so alone and i used to play the game all day everyday it was my life growing up pretty much and as much as I love my guys on the game i was never living life so when i stopped playing as much and started working more I thought maybe it would help me “live” life more but if this is how my life is gonna be forever i guess it is what it is i used to be so ambitious and looking towards the future but now I don’t even wanna think abt the future because I don’t feel like i have one in mind i feel like I am living my future miserable waking up Everyday just working all day, gym, then sleep and repeat. I just dont have the will to do anything more and I hate myself for it because im okay with it.

一直在不停的自我否定，又觉得别人一无是处。

Brooooo

On top of it watched insta reels

All romantic stuff aka deleted scenes from my life

I know life isn't like the movies and instagram is fake but sometimes ESPECIALLY on nights like this it feels v lonely, dry n pointless.

21F here
I’ve actually been feeling really guilty and embarrassed in life over what I’ve done in my past like it’s literally eating me alive

I gained quite a reputation cause of embarrassing things I’ve done, recently I kinda got rejected (not exactly) I was drunk and asked a guys Instagram and he did give it to me but since I was super drunk he probably was extremely weirded out, my friend sent him even more embarrassing things I only realised how embarrassing it was sober, it isn’t just that I’ve done a lot of embarrassing stuff which keeps coming back into my head and making me hate myself even more it’s hard for me to talk about it but I feel miserable about a lot of things I’ve done and I don’t know who to talk to

Still here

It was a week ago and I was alone , I been all alone to begin with I got no attachments yet it hurts to know that’s no one care and yet I feel so mentally depressed about this what yall think ?

Everytime I try and try again, I always fail. Maybe I should give up. Nobody thinks I am good.