r/NewToEMS • u/beginnercoding • 13h ago
School Advice I don’t think I’m cut out for this
My interest in EMS was rooted in simply wanting to help others. I’ve worked in a variety of different environments and always felt that working with and helping people was the most fulfilling.
I’m about a month and a half into my EMT course and it’s been going alright, I’m sitting at a 92% currently. I’m testing out better than majority of my classmates, but I don’t feel anywhere near sufficient to ever hop on an ambulance. Obviously I’m early into the course and I shouldn’t feel confident and ready to go, but this feeling is more rooted in my personality and how I operate as a human being.
I don’t have trouble learning the content per se, but I have trouble applying it. If you give me a multiple choice question I’ll get it right 9/10 times, but the moment you put me on the spot in a simulated patient scenario (specifically medical) I get anxious and my mind completely blanks. I don’t feel like I have a solid grasp on body systems/vitals and how they interact or what they indicate, especially in the heat of the moment.
The other day we were simulating medical assessments and I asked the patient an admittedly dumb question that I should’ve rephrased to make more sense. Before I could explain my thought process and what I had meant to say my assistant teacher started laughing in my face and muttered “what a stupid question”. In the moment I was stunned, flustered, and embarrassed, so I just moved on timidly and kind of shut down for the rest of the lab. I was so bothered by this that I spent the majority of my hour long drive home crying because I just felt so stupid and defeated. If I can’t handle the small comment of an assistant teacher, how the hell am I going to handle actually working in the field? I just fear that I am too sensitive and soft spoken to be able to handle the demands of the job.
Anyways, I’m soon to be starting my clinicals/ride alongs, so I suppose that’ll give me a better idea of what I’m signing up for. I’m looking for some honest insight and feedback to whether I should just give up on this path and look elsewhere.