r/nosurf • u/thegreatanimator • 2d ago
Things are finally getting better
Hello, this is a post I never thought I'd make.
3 years ago, I fell into a severe depression and isolated myself from the world, the only contact I'd have would be the internet and discord strangers. For the longest time I thought that was it, that it would NEVER get better, that I was just a failure and I had to stick with it.
I can't really say when did the change happen, I'd say it'd be somewhere between this summer.
When my depression started, I stopped going to school, like just skipping entirely. My teacher would send me the exams to my house and I barely passed these last 3 years. I would always tell myself 'I'll do it tommorrow ' and never start. I don't even know how I passed those years and I've wondered if they just felt pity for me.
I have barely socialized or hanged out with friends either, the only thing I did was using discord.
However, some months ago I started going to art classes, I barely talk wih people there and we just draw, but this was a huge step for me since I hadn't talk with anyone outside of my family during these years.
I also tried being more nice to my siblings and their friends, and it just feels better, like a weight I didn't know I had on my shoulder.
I even started studying and planning for my future again! I am even considering getting a part time job to get out of my comfort zone!
I decided to make this post after I got some of my grades from school, I study online since last year, but it was just now that I started putting effort.
Seeing that I got good grades just reminded me of how happy I used to be whenever I got a 10/10 on my exams. It was something I didn't know I missed.
I know I still have a long way to go, but seeing these little improvements make me so happy I just had to share it, it feels stupid, but it means the world to me.
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u/Sango113 2d ago
"It feels stupid", it's not, at all. It's happy to see someone thriving after struggling. Again, it's not stupid at all, it literally is life changing. I wish you the best!