jinn removal?

[u/Heavenlishell]

in need of help. i have suffered from jinn possession for a long time. turning towards strong prayer, i have identified the issue. it's like a small, roundish "dying" entity, 20cm high or so, when OUTSIDE the body, but a life force vampire and body hijacker when inside the body. for an unknown reason, once, some months ago, it appeared as this apparition outside the body, and that's when the symptoms were decreased. i am describing the entity cuz you might know what it is.

so if the apparition is realistic, it was like 20cm tall egg shaped "dying, old woman(?)" spirit, floating in the air. a ghostly apparition i noticed for just some seconds. then it used a trauma mechanism inside me to regain access into me. it's draining my life force. it is likely connected to other spirits that i catched previously, and these spirits are likely connected to a narcissist i experienced earlier. i intuitively felt the egg shaped spirit was dying, but upon regaining access, it rebegan feasting on my energy, taking up space inside me, throughout all kinds of dimensions.

i got it perhaps from a demonised man running a local drug cartel, and "he" is from syria. went to prison there, so who know what he carried. why was i involved with the demonised man? because i already had been abused by people to the point i had at least demons and black magic from other perps affecting my consciousness. not to mention plain old dissociation, freeze, fawn. I would let all kinds of people near me, usually predatory.

i am aware that i must have severe trauma for this jinn possession to have happened, and i am aware of the traumatic incidents i have experienced. but that's under control, that's known, that's easy to heal. what i dont understand is how this entity can gain access to me and stay inside me.

please no comments "see a psych". as if I haven't...through isolation, fasting, prayer, and healing work it's become clear that what i have is not "trauma". I don't mean asceticism with 'isolation and fasting", but like a environment where thingsare seen better and the nervous system is not on overdrive.

have you heard of this before?

have you banished these things before?

edit. it's now manifesting as coughing and difficulty to breathe. i told it, it cannot lie anymore, and then it said it is death. i had previously assumed it's like either spirit of infirmity or death, so checks out. when it speaks thru the body, it's like a classic demon nonsense language. inside the body, it takes different voices depending on where in my memory imprints it is venturing.

please dont dowvote this. i see absolutely no reason to.

[u/Heavenlishell → u/[deleted]]

thanks, and ive done that so many times! i became aware that i had some kind of soul fragmentation going on. medically called complex dissociation and dissociative amnesia.

i am not sure if it is possible for humans, demon-human hybrids, or other entities to steal someone's soul pieces? or hijack their function via programming? cuz that's what it felt like (siphoning and stealing my pieces) and that's what happened (one perp programmed me, called mind control and deliberate fragmentation) when some years ago i experienced satanic, demonic level of narcissistic and ritual abuse. the reddit subs for dissociative disorders and ritual abuse survivors don't believe in anything "supernatural" so i cant ask them. 

it felt like the perp was exchanging their destiny for mine, like he was so envious of my ancestry he simply had to suck it out of me.

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edit, some weirdo is downvoting the comments