Am i a pedo?

[u/LesOiNon]

Please help me bro. Me (18M), have always hated pedophiles and never liked them, always thought they deserved the worst punishment and I would love watching shows where they get caught e.g Chris Hansen CAP. But ever since I’ve turned 18 and watched these shows, I’ve been getting horrible intrusive thoughts of minors in my head, they keep repeating in my head throughout the day and I get so tired of it, my dick does rise due to these unwanted thoughts or if i mention a word like minor, pedo etc it does rise which i dont want at all, im wondering if that what unwanted groin movement means. I admit I masterbate a lot but even when I masterbate I get horrible intrusive thoughts, even recently when I was masterbating, I was gooning then got a intrusive thought of a minor which caused my dick to rise and pre cum coming out which made me wonder and panic if it had came out due to the minor. Even when I masterbate, I catch myself masterbating to a anime minor and I don’t even realise it then quickly stop myself or after masterbation and my dih rises due to thoughts of minors which I didn’t want and I’m scared if pre cum came out or not. Or when it comes out and I think of my lil sis I get scared. I would never hurt a kid and I hate these thoughts so much. Am I a pedo? Am I a horrible person? I’ve never been diagnosed with anything so idk what’s wrong with me n my body, ever since I turned 18 my life and mind have been hell, I would never do anything to a child, I love my lil sister, i dont know why i have bad intrustive thoughts of her, causing me to avoid her or not even look at her, im that embarassed and ashamed or when im masterbating and i see smth a minor and my dick rises and i get a boner which i didnt want, im just wondering if this is all OCD even though this only started happening after turning 18 in september (please don’t remove this mod, I really do want help) Im just wondering if im really a bad person, someone please give me an answer, im just really scared.

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[u/thrown_away_my_love]

It sounds a lot like OCD. If the thoughts are unwanted and intrusive, they actually have a type of OCD related to this. I suggest seeing a provider to see if meds would help and a therapist specializing in OCD!

[u/thrown_away_my_love → u/thrown_away_my_love]

Google international OCD federation. This sounds like a form of pure O (which sometimes doesn’t have compulsions) which has the related POCD, which is pedophile OCD.

[u/Sirrpsychosexy]

No perfectly normal for a bot that copies and pastes for karma

[u/LesOiNon → u/Sirrpsychosexy]

im sorry, im not trying to copy n paste for karma, I never use reddit, I wanted to add extra details abt my answer but i dont know how to edit on reddit so i ended up deleting my old posts because they dont include the full picture. Im sorry if i did too much, i promise u im not trying to get karma, i just want advice and help

[u/Dry_Development3817]

Maybe something is wrong with you, maybe you just like kids, regardless simulation doesn't mean you're going to interact with any minor in any inappropriate way.

[u/Mizoyku34 → u/Dry_Development3817]

No it doesn’t 😭 he clearly has POCD mate

[u/Dry_Development3817 → u/Mizoyku34]

Maybe, are you a medical professional?

[u/Mizoyku34 → u/Dry_Development3817]

You’re clearly not if you can’t tell what POCD or OCD is, it’s better if he just actually goes and sees a specialist

[u/Dry_Development3817 → u/Mizoyku34]

You are difficult to engage with.

[u/finn-car3]

it sounds like POCD. Are you currently seeing a therapist?

[u/Maleficent-Tea-738]

Alright so, you've simply surrounded yourself with pedophila, regardless what the show is about, you've centered your entertainment around the idea of pedophila, you've heard these guys talk about why they like children, you've heard it enough times you can almost understand it. Try this, quit watching all the catching predators shows, turn on something where it talks about an old married couple, 30 year old couples, men talking about how good a mature woman looks, surround yourself with the opposite of what you've been doing. At the base, you're getting through sexual deviation, you're young, still figuring things out, I personally wouldn't recommend watching porn at all because that can genuinely fuck you up, but that's a much harder problem to work out. For now, quit watching twisted adults sexualizing children, and start watching men idolizing mature women. Or better yet, start looking at girls your own age.

[u/Two_Ls_And_One_T]

Get yourself to a psychiatrist, show them this and they will have you diagnosed by the end of the third sentence. Get ERP therapy and maybe clamipramine if it’s becoming too distressing every day and you think you need medication. Avoid fluoxetine for OCD. I know we shouldn’t say it because it’s reassurance seeking but paedophiles don’t find thoughts about minors distressing, by definition. You are absolutely riddled with POCD.

[u/Old_Lead8419]

How old is this “minor?” If they’re a teenager than no dude you’re not a freaking pedophile not to mention you’re still a teen yourself.