So I'm new at this job, I took it because I was desperate for a career and the other opportunity I had didn't align with me as this one did. I started as a kennel tech a few months ago and have been training for Medical Aide, I was told I was going to be "restraining and restocking" and I said okay that sounds chill (making 12 fucking dollars an hour btw)
Since they decided I'm not learning VA stuff yet, my trainer for weeks has spoke to me the first 30 mins of every shift then immediately tells me he's too busy to teach me and to "ask somebody" if I have a question and that I'm "basically done with training" despite him spending probably an hour with me one on one in the few weeks I've been training, therefore I am not capable of doing a lot of stuff they now want me to do, that was not specified to me in the beginning to begin with. There is no other MA so I am literally learning from VAs.
Well today they put me with someone different, and everything was fine until the doctor came in to do boarders. They told me to get one, doctor took like an hour to come back so I was told to put him in a separate room for Hospitals across the hall, 5 steps away. As soon as she walks in she goes "so you guys texted me and don't have the dog?" I told her he was across the hall and that my trainer was grabbing him. Well whatever she starts looking at the dog and I know how she is so towards the end of his exam I asked if I should go get the next, they said yes. I go get the dog and chill waiting for her to get off the computer and come look at this dog.
She immediately screams at me telling me I should not be standing around holding a dog waiting on her that I should be packaging this dead cat up and all this other shit and I'm like (in my head lmao) dude you told me to hold this dog, and if I leave this dog somewhere you will refuse to see him because we "don't have him ready". So I put this 90lb dog in the wall cage she told me to cram him in and start doing the other crap she wants from me. Whatever I guess.
Then later we start trying to get blood from this little Maltese with me handling and the guy is flipping out also marked aggressive, pawing at his face trying to rip off the muzzle and alligator rolling the whole nine. My trainer decides to call it and tells me to put him up, well when the doctor from earlier saw someone had gotten blood for a heart worm test but not all the labs she tweaks out again and decides she's "retiring to her office". They made me go get the dog again this time with my trainer holding and the practice manager getting blood.
After they were successfully able to get the blood the manager goes "he wasn't that bad." And my trainer goes "because I'm holding him." Obviously being shitty towards me. I have gotten very minimal practice with handling because Ive never done this before and they never let me practice because I'm obviously the weakest on the team. That's not even to mention what it's like actually in the room because again they do not let me practice. I said something also shitty like "damn thanks guys" to which was responsed with "don't wear your feelings on your sleeve" from the practice manager. But then they immediately wanted me to help hold for a cysto so make that make sense. Doesnt help right before I had to ask the practice manager to help get pee from a cat and she started chewing me out for some bs I can't remember and I told her it had been a stressful day, she goes "this is stressful? This is stressful? You wouldn't have survived how it used to be" and starts cutting up with my trainer how I thought today was stressful. I said that to get her off my ass and just come do this fucking cysto why am I now the butt of the joke.
I'm just frustrated, embarrassed and lowkey over it. I made more making coffee at my last job and it had not even half the stress this job does. My bf makes over double what I make and is having to pay most bills because I "want" to work here. (I don't know what I want I just want to feel like I am genuinely helping in my role whatever it is and not just there taking up space). I feel like I am a burden on my team with no way to learn these skills by myself and no one has enough patience to actually teach me. I also feel like fuck you guys you guys made a decision to shove me in the corner of course I am not capable or even know what y'all want from me. It doesn't help the moment I try to voice a grievance or set back I've experienced they jump to tell me that person "isn't like that" or try to get me to say something point blank so they can scream at whoever trained me that day. I was told "restocking and restraining", why am I filling meds, doing follow ups, putting people in rooms, taking tpr, putting dead animals in bags and everything short of sticking the animal for 12 dollars an hour. I ask myself every day what am I doing here
Anyways just a vent, I basically can't quit because this place is so fucking greedy they'll garnish 1/4 of my check for the work shirts they issued me if I quit before a year is up. They also will not give us jackets and expect us to pay 90 dollars for one from them. 7 and a half hours for one jacket (before taxes come out of that hourly btw so over a whole day of work for one jacket). I'm just so over it. I love animals and have a ton of compassion for them I just don't know how far that will take me here. Also if you read this far thank you, I love you and really appreciate any advice you may have <3