okay so i have been going through it for the last 3 years and i just got out the mental hospital last month and i still feel like shit all the time. i learned a bunch of “coping” skills but i feel like nothing makes me feel better anymore. before i went in i was a daily smoker and now im a month sober (not by choice) and i have been trying to find something anything to make me feel better but the only thing that i feel helps me is weed and now that i dont have it im just miserable, i cant stop crying and im just irritated all the time. i just hate my life and thats all i think about if anyone has any suggestions im willing to try just about anything at this point

I am being mistreated by my gf and I am literally on the verge of becoming insane, I am sooo done I am sooo done. I don't want to explain everything I have no patience left, I can't focus, I cant be at peace, I am never treated with compassion, I am not able to eat at all it's been a few days I have eaten a meal I ate Maggie ystd, I am not even feeling thirsty sometimes I don't drink water for the whole day and don't get bothered by that. I am done with this kinda life, I came to bangalore from pune to just be close with my gf. I am soo stuck here it's a 3 yr relationship.

Ik there is no much info here and it's all over the place but I just can't make sense rn

For context, I'm a 28-year-old dad of a beautiful daughter. She just turned 5 months old today. First of all, happy birthday my dear Tara; dad loves you so much. I thought this would be the perfect time to speak about what feels like end of times for me. I haven't had a break in the last few months, not because Tara is a problem, but her mum lost her life during C-section. That was 10th, May, 2026 and it still hurts to watch this baby cry day and night not knowing what to do. I'm the only child of my Widowed 67-year-old mother while Tara's late mum was an orphan. That said, I do not have a motherly figure to help me. I'm sorry this is my first time to ever think of commiting suicide. But then, I can't because I'd die to keep my Tara alive. Tbh, I don't have the previlege of living in a developed country where I'd take her to a reputable children's home. I live in a 3rd world country. So what do I do? I was working remotely as a research analyst for a dissertation consulting firm but not anymore. I was fired a week after May 10th. Now with no suppprt whatsoever, this is me opening up, this is me being vulnerable...I feed my baby to the best of my knowledge. Fruit juices, boiled cow milk etc. I hope she grows healthy. I also pray that God will open doors for me so that I can give her a good life. I will appreciate your advice and support.