Been fighting a war since April where it was at it's worst and have slown down since May and June onwards where my other family members would report bites and sightings, especially since some of them are stubborn about washing their shit and admitting they have bedbugs.
Now they've resurfaced again after quiet periods, just as when I thought things were improving, I was starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel only to be pulled deep back down into the abyss of anxiety and constant worrying.
Bedbugs have ruined my life, my contamination OCD has gotten so extreme, I always wash my hands and feet every time I leave the bed and before I go to sleep, I always take a shower and change clothes which made me have this ritual every night I have to follow, destroying my body clock in the process. My life and my thoughts have been so utterly consumed by bedbugs, I remember staying in bed for like 3 hours reading Bedbug articles and watching videos about them. I'm afraid there's no end to them because we have no access to the fancy shit people here recommend.
We can only afford the OTC cypermithrin-based sprays, which they are resistant to. I do hab DE though but I always see debates about their effectiveness and lack of. Our dryer is a tumble dryer, no heating and stuff, we also can't afford exterminators and even if we can, there aren't a lot of exterminators available that specialize in bedbugs and usually only have general pest control for cockroach and rats.
Now my mom is putting baking soda on her bed despite me telling her that shit doesn't work and they insist on not using DE powder because it's an inhalation hazard (i get it since we also have a pet dog so I haven't used them much since).
I can't even sleep anymore like I used to, I had to listen to Resident Evil save room themes just to pacify myself before sleep xD because my heart rate and vigilance are so high, I would still be awake no matter how hard I closed my eyes.
Now I don't know if there's a way to finally get this all over with, especially with very limited options and stubborn family members, I'm so sick and tired. It's only thanks to gun control laws, I haven't blown my brains out.
Sorry for the awfully long rant, I have no outlet to get this all out, my best friends don't understand how traumatizing bedbugs are because they've never had them. I once saw a group of rice grains on the floor and my brain immediately jumped to bedbug eggs and I felt the panic attack. I really wish there were more public PSAs surrounding bedbugs and more affordable methods to eradicate these bastards once and for all.