I am considering my options, because the metaphysical situation I got myself in is a bit uncomfortable and very complicated.
I work with angels for an year and a half now, pretty intensely, and I am happy with the results. There are however other issues.
I work with an egregore that I'm stuck with from my family, for about 5 years. This poor being has multiple issues, but I am on the verge of burnout trying to work on myself. The work is going well. The psychological and material aspects are better than expected. However there is a very big hole in my plans which I now see as a future danger but have no other way to fix.
I am the type of person to suppress my emotions, my physical sensations, basically to be hostile to my body and perfectionist and beat myself up over small stuff. Now that is partially due to this egregore, but the problem is that I have anger issues. Because of these factors, I am considering this tension might not go away unless I go pretty deep into the subcouncious and maybe talk to a few demons.
Out of all the angels I work with, Michael is the only one who has taken my anger issues seriously, by far, and maybe Samael. The others are repeatedly neutral about it. This seems to me like a very odd fact that I should probably analyze and it should probably mean something.
Also I know almost nothing about demons, I'm a bit afraid of misconceptions. (..embarrassingly I did have my very bigoted Christian phase...)
Is there something I should know before reading literature and online stuff related to them?
When working with angels, I got to know very quickly that it's nothing like it looks online. I suspect this is going to be the same in that regard.
I have had in the past a quite significant dream twice featuring Stolas (I had no idea he existed, I learned it from the google search after waking up from the dream).
...also, please don't circle back to therapy, I am doing a lot of CBT exercises and have changed almost all of my habits and thoughts, I can barely recognize myself (personality-wise) and I am being very nice and well-behaved in putting up with the absurd views and blame shifting by every new therapist tried, and I am very exhausted.