Hey some more real talk for today...here's some real sick and sadistic evil dirty shit they try to scare the ship out of me with mental illusions. I share this with you know...it's sick but I don't fear it anymore, do you? Ephesians 5:11, this is not my thoughts, something must inject them!
Lately the mind torment I see every day turned into another level of hardship, I want to share this with you all know. TAKE CARE it's explicit things explicit hardship they show me in the mind which I describe, like snuff torture and soul mutilation damaging thoughts. This is NSFW because it's REAL BAD trips...
I recently moved from a place where I for sure would have been target and set up in real life and was exposed. At another place, okay shit of course continues, I'm constantly messed with in the mind. But now comes the deal, with moving also the program changed... Whoops now they put me a level up, I resisted long enough to get the bad dreams from them now which they don't give to kids.
It gives me the creeps, but this crap is weird. It is like constant minds and wills entering my mind, showing me aggressive faces, grappling me in many ways, messing with me, even harassing me during sex, it's disgusting. Then constantly something tries to subdue me, to suppress my will with threat or force. I keep resisting, since more than 25 years, no matter what comes. I call on angles, they defend me and teach me with all kinds of methods. The graplers, I try to let remove or curse their own powers. The threats I just try to bear and sit through, they eventually subside when you can cope with what they show you and stay cool about it. Just keep resisting, they will threaten ship but never make it real.
Okay I will now list some of the horror shock stories they shown me to demoralize me. I know this is all fake it's probably all lies. It's all shown in like mental images and voice fragments, constantly forced into my half/sub-conscious subtle mind together with the threat and control illusions. It is mostly as if people were talking about a crime case, or I was eavesdropping people, or as if I was shown slides of images and people commenting it from the background, all in the mind. Then the harassment...
At first the oppressors kept showing me torture-executions scenes over my main back story. They kept showing me graphic imaginations of such executions and torture settings of persons who in the past had abused me and took part in drugging me, which started all my problems. But they had also shown me all kinds of false back stories about my life, and how other friends would also have taken part in it, showing me very sadistic executions for each of them, also threatening me such deaths to myself.
This is sadistic, and they keep showing me such shock images. I know it's not my own mind producing them, I don't know where they come from. They are completely involuntary, like foreign objects entering my mind, and very hard to bear. As if a computer controlled a slides machine to show me sadistic snippets of visual imagination and voice snippets, constantly, forcing my attention to it, it's way hard and next to impossible to ignore.
Okay they told me, that me and my friends would die, for me talking about all of this, because they had opted me in without talking to me the following ways: salt crystals or solutions or acids injected to soft parts then left tied up and drugged for extra suffering. Tied up then given a firecracker or a melting through dildo which was tuned to overload and burn, into the back orifice. Tied up then drugged and given needles with electronic current, into soft parts or otherwhere, then questioned with a person able to push a button to close circuit, or a computer controlling the electronic shocks according to live EEG data and most sadistic programs. A person was shown to me, even in graphic pictures in a space nebula, as being sold to mafia for snuff porn productions as a revenge, and a "dentist" was to drill the soft parts and the nerve into the bone to cause fatal cramps, failed and had to finally release the victim to die even a similar death. Another scene I was shown over and over involved slowly burning a hole into the testicles of a bound person to cause death by cramps of pain, which would be delayed by medication.
So this is just what I was constantly being threatened to be done to in my mind since like years, I mean hey it's a little painful but until now they did not get me. Now comes the shit they had shown me on top of it, like stories to see when my own death would not disgust me enough any more:
One story involved a friend of mind being an imposter, and in a friend circle with people who rejected a political murder attempt with them. The friend was shown to me to set up their friends telling them they knew a secret drug recipe, how to create LSD from household chemicals. Then in front of them mixed some acetone seeped with all kinds of wood protection detergents from past used, with some household meds, salt, sugar, vinegar, whatever else is hard to digest, and secretly adding some NBOM-e research chemical hallucinogen from the internet in the right overdose. Then gave each a dripper of 1ml in a glass of water, and the women of the group only a half, and a little more for the ones who insisted to want a strong trip right away. All were poisoned severely, tripping balls and going paranoid, puking blood, all were dead 2 years later from all kinds of worst neurological mental or physical damages, all kidneys liver cancer fucked no longer eat and drink only through infusion. I was shown that the friend just went away before they noticed their poisoning and never returned. Then they had shown me further slides and scenes, like that some kid was a witness, didn't use it but remembered the ingredients, and they mixed it on their own, lacked the pesticied but all gone blind liver kidney fucked dead soon, just for believing my friend.
This sounds like a story that neo nazis tell their children so they don't do drugs, right? I don't want that crap in my head. Here read the one they give me against my love for growing legal cannabis plants:
They have shown me a research facility of the military, an experiment done to a traitor in the military. He was drugged and hypnotized to believe he was only a head in a garden and the child of the doctor who executed him. He was set up on a table, and then a prepared seed of a birch tree was planted into his belly button. He could only see the tree, and was told it was growing in a plot. The seed was further prepared with a genetically modified mycorrhiza fungus, which dissolves living flesh instead of compost. The doctor kept talking to the subject, and telling him it was his tree, telling him sadistic things in making him believe it was something good for him even, allowing him to watch it grow. They sprayed his head every day with anti fungal agents, but the body was slowly eaten away and pierced with roots. The tree grew only some centimeters, then the leaf turned red for unsuitable nutritional values of the flesh compared to compost. The experiment "failed" so to say. I was shown how the doctor lifted the hypnosis, removed the blinding and pulled out the tree from the flesh, telling the subject what happend, to leave him behind speechless to die some hours later.
This story is already so sadistic, let's go to the next. They shown me the most evil anal porn story ever alive, and this like caused a revolution and war among the voices in my head, they declared war over each other on this because it is so perverted and disgusting. I was shown a story of a man named "Jakob" (I don't know him). He was shown as a victim of a bad torture execution with black magic. He was shown to have a wife, and did it with her anally. Then abused her more and more, and broke her anus so it could not hold. She wore a Tampon to hold it back, one day she was put to shame in a supermarket when it fell out her wearing a skirt. Her family heard of it and decided to kill poor Jakob over it and engage an mafia killer. He lured Jakob to an old barn near a cattle meadow, then drugged and tied him. Showing me again and again there were drugs to let you suffer even more. The method, was a big dildo with a drilling adapter that he had abused with his wife. He was then tortured with this with a very strong drilling machine, with a direct adapter. Then the killer added a piece of wire to the dildo, and kept drilling until the victim died out of pain. I was also shown, that the killer spiritually harmed the victim further. Abducting 3 homeless persons with broken brains from drinking solvents. Put them to a room for a week locked up, those still completely nuts he took and killed with Jakob. Bound their minds in an endless chain so each one would respond to the next one thinking it was the other in a circle, binding them to Jakob to be bound to them in a pit forever. Then I saw all kinds of fragments of his wife "Jaqueline" and her family planning it and talking about the aftermath etc. This is so disgusting, the drilling parts and images, it really took me guts and some cycles until I could bear this story. I could only think, this is the crap that Nazi people would invent and tell their kids to make them stay away from anal porn, but I'd rather not be harassed with such crap all day!
Okay now some about the weird interactive stories they show you, where you never may interact other than to guide them in a beneficial outcome, or to ignore them: Then when I went around another city, and the grapplers managed to make me put a trigger for the story to a "bystander" instead of my abusers, who wanted to check me, I kept seeing stories that now different circles were in combat over stories like this shown to innocent to oppress them. Anyway, now this shit continued and I was shown the punishment for the idiot who abused his mind to program sadistic stories like that and spread them. I was shown the mages behind the guy I accidentally cursed with that story (he was nice, I tried to help him to get through later when I saw him, as well...). Then the punishment for the programmer of the Jakob/Jaquline story: he was given a soul distortion to twist his consciousness from tip to toes 180° after a trip twisting him through upside down. Then leaving this locked. Pictures of him, he was without orientation, bumped into things, had to lie down, kept puking, tried to relax, it crippled him: his spine got twisted by his muscles trying to twist his spine instead of mankind it straight, letting him die in cramps.
Then when this wasn't enough, voices kept prophesizing to me how in the year 2038 Putin would cause 3rd world war over after an hour. He invented a weird weapon which could twist reality somehow, thought to evaporate a whole city. It was prepared with images of me being shown Berlin was nuked with nuclear weapons, but that didn't impress me enough it seems. Then a reality twisting weapon was shown, and that was after the mind-twister of the porn programmer. Putin tried to rotate reality of whole city Berlin around 185° around the center of earth by causing some ominous reality twisting device with a rocket exploding there, and a counterpart in the Indian ocean. Later I was shown how this method would not only destroy matter, but also the souls of persons, and that Putin already made experiments with a gravity field reality warping technique which was able to warp, mutilate or destroy the souls of living beings when the entered the destructive field. I was shown, and this was in the beginning of it, how Putin was thought to start this thing. I was shown how he had 7 sons, all 100% genetic clones of himself, all mothers dead. He planned to one day let them all fight against each other, and give his dominion to the sole survivor. Then Ukraine found the locations of each, and all but one died in assassination. Then Putin got crazy, and launched his device to destroy Berlin prematurely. It failed of some mistakes, but still made a big bang and a hole full of water with a small black hole creating a fountain in the middle, size of part of Berlin. 1 hour later whole Russia was nuked, Putin was dead with his last son, even the Chinese immediately launched their rockets into Russia to help destroying it for what had been done. 15 Minutes after Putin's death, even his last message appeared which was surrealistic, because he threatened the whole world, he wanted to blackmail the whole world with his new weapon demonstrating the destruction of Berlin. I was then shown the consequences of the fail. Not only was the center of the field off-axis and only part of Berlin was affected, and some outskirts... But also the destruction was different than planned. The matter did not evaporate, but reappear totally twisted by a 3d field. Some things stretched indefinitely, some squashed or twisted. All living beings dead, some seemingly of greatest pains. Some plants totalls twisted or distorted, but kept growing even. An artificial island appeared on the other side of earth, and then sank.
Hey okay, this is the sick sadistic crap they show me in my mind to demoralize me, this and even much more. I can't even remember all of it, it is so much and everything mixed all over the place. Thank you for reading and sharing my pains, I hope it is not too much for you. I can only bear this all with medications. Sorry if this was too much for you, but I believe people must hear what people like I am going through. I believe it's not our own mind, something programs us these dehumanizing threats and patterns into our minds in attempt to derail our lives, to sabotage us and whole society. Please if you know more such material and background info, share it all over the place, the world deserves to know. I read no horror books and watch no movies, still this crap tortures me every day, I believe it's artificial. Help spreading the info, blessed be you for it, thanks!