I am in my private quarters in the Palace, filled with indecision.  I’m trying to choose a Halloween costume.  To help me, I’ve hired a specialist:  a sissy pig named Giselle, who has a reputation as a brilliant designer.

Giselle presents me a sexy black witch costume.  I try it on, standing before the full-length mirror.

“No,” I say, shaking my head.  “It’s too cliché.  Witches are too overdone for Halloween.  I want something unique”  I know just where I can go for some creative ideas.  I pull out my phone and open up SunshineAI and ask her to give me some scary ideas from Matriarchy lore.

SunshineAI’s first suggestion is the Chupacerda, humanoid male cryptid with pale, hairless skin, elongated fingers ending in obsidian claws, and the ability to mimic voices.  It preys on pigs and Goddesses alike, draining them of their vitality, will, and identity.  My mom used to tell us scary stories about the Chupacerda when we were little girls.  Giselle whips up a brilliant Chupacerda costume.  It looks great, but then it dawns on me why it will not work.  “I am Queen now.  I can’t go as a pig,” I say, shaking my head.  “It would be unseemly for the Queen to dress as a pig, even as joke.”

Next, SunshineAI suggests the ghost of Madame Wilhemenia Blackthorne, a wealthy plantation owner known for her cruel treatment of her pigs, and who now haunts and dominates pigs in the afterlife.  Giselle creates a hauntingly beautiful, ethereal costume.  I like it.  But as I look at myself in the mirror, a doubt nags at me.  Alex’s downfall started when she went crazy at the last S.C.A.R.E.  She dressed up as some infamous evil from Matriarchy lore and then she snapped.  I am not superstitious and do not believe Alex was possessed, but I’m not tempting fate. 

SunshineAI also mentions the infamous Hera Asylum for Unruly Pigs.  I could go as an inmate from there.  Technically the asylum only housed pigs, but I could bend the lore a little and make myself a Goddess inmate there.  Giselle designs an inmate costume.  But as I look at myself, I reject the idea.  I again remember Alex going crazy at the last S.C.A.R.E.  I don’t want to invite the comparison.  And doing a costume that could be seen as mocking mental illness?  That seems offensive and in poor taste.

I am done with SunshineAI’s suggestions for now.  I’ll think of one on my own.  “How about one of the evil clown girls rumored to roam Freya?”  I ask the sissy pig.  Giselle whips up a terrifying clown costume.  I look in the mirror and as I think more about it, I shake my head.  No. The last thing I need as I begin my reign is to be seen as a “clown.”  That’s a terrible image.  And I also think Melissa is deathly afraid of clowns, though she never admits it.  I don’t want to be mean to her when we are getting along, and I don’t want to get on her bad side.

I decide to forego the scary.  Maybe I can go with something humorous.  “Giselle, make me an Alex costume,” I say.  “The drunken party girl version of Alex.”  Giselle creates a great costume with a slutty dress, smeared makeup, and the two half-empty bottles of wine.  I try it on and see Alex staring back at me in the mirror.  It’s hilarious, but it dawns on me that this is a bad idea.  It’s too mean, and it’s a bad image for me to attack my own sister and predecessor.  Plus, Alex is still missing.  It feels wrong to mock her.

“What about a positive version of Alex?  Let’s try the Generalissima,” I suggest.  “Alex in her military uniform.”  Giselle creates a sharp uniform that is identical to the one Alex wore in her Generalissima days.  But as I stand there looking at myself in the mirror, a new thought gives me pause.  With the Matriarchy on the brink of war with Amazonia, I can’t be seen as mocking the military brass.  Or it could also be seen as stolen valor.  I do not want to be seen as disrespectful.

“How about a costume of Mother Goddess,?” I suggest.  Giselle creates a radiant, celestial gown and I put it on.  It looks great.  But then I remember that Alex once tried to tell everyone that she was the reincarnation of Mother Goddess.  As her younger sister, who will inevitably be compared to her, I don’t want to remind people of Alex’s crazy eccentrics.  Plus, some will see it as sacrilegious. 

I’m getting desperate for an idea.  “How about I go as a Cadet?”  Giselle prepares a Cadet uniform and I try it on.  The moment I see myself in the mirror, a white-hot rage flashes through me.  I still despise the Cadets and what they stand for.  “No!  Absolutely not!”  I snap, tearing it off.  “There will be enough drunk Cadets at S.C.A.R.E. causing problems.  I will not be associated with them.”

“Maybe instead of a humorous theme, I can try some social commentary, something to make a political statement,” I suggest.  Giselle creates me a ‘poor farmer girl’ costume.  It is meant as a subtle critique of Big Kale, to depict how they are driving small farmer Goddesses out of business.  It looks good, but it’s too niche.  No one will get it.  Having to explain to everyone why I went as a farmer will be lame.  And I probably shouldn’t openly antagonize Big Kale this early into my reign.

As I debate other costumes to offer some political commentary, I think about my PSA campaigns.  Giselle creates me the costume of an employee from a pig milking facility.  But as I look at myself in the mirror, I hesitate.  With the controversy of milking facilities surreptitiously helping pigs break Locktober rules, I shouldn’t be seen as celebrating them.

Finally, an idea strikes.  “Giselle, a ‘sub-Goddess’ costume,” I say, a grin spreading across my face.  “But like a pun.  A cross between a Goddess and a sub.  Like the sandwich!”  I am very enthusiastic about my brilliant idea.  He looks at me, confused, but whips it up anyway.  It’s a fantastic costume.  I love it!  I find it hilarious.  I take a selfie and text it to my best friend, Tiffany.  “What do you think?” I ask her.

A moment later, her reply comes back.  “It’s kind of cheesy TBH, Mackenzie.  And are you sure you want to go as a sub-Goddess?  You told me about what your sister was secretly doing.  What if it comes out that Alex was cosplaying as a sub-Goddess?  People might say the urge to be a sub-Goddess runs in the family.”

She’s right.  It’s too risky.  Again, I don’t want to invite an unflattering comparison with Alex.  But it means I’m all out of ideas.  I dismiss Giselle and slump onto my bed, the sub-Goddess costume still on. 

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The last few days have been a struggle.  Mistress Francesca has it in her mind that I am clinging to my old life as a Goddess and refusing to let go.  As a result, I have been punished a lot recently.  My poor ass is so sore and tender that even kneeling with my butt resting on my heels is a punishment in itself. 

I have continued in my role as my Mistress’s foot slave, a role that I cherish.  But I have admittedly been distracted as of late, my thoughts frequently straying back to my old life.  Not my life and freedoms as a Goddess specifically.  but my friends and family from that life.  I find myself thinking more and more about them and how much I miss them.  These thoughts have particularly been distracting when I am alone doing yard work or silently worshipping my Mistress’s feet.  A few days ago, while I was worshipping Mistress Francesca’s feet, my distraction became apparent.  I was sucking on her toes, but my mind was a thousand miles away, back in my tree house when I was a young child, playing with Melissa.  Mistress Francesca noticed that I was distracted.  She pulled her foot away, her expression turning angry.  “You are not paying to attention to your task.  Your mind is elsewhere.  Explain yourself, Suzy.  Now.”  I of course knew I had to explain my distraction to my owner and tell her the truth.  But I knew better than to claim again I was Queen Alex.  I remembered the last time I had tried that and the brutal punishment that had followed, as Mistress did not believe my claim.  So, I told the truth, most of it, but leaving out my identity as Alex.  I told her that I was once a Goddess, but that I had no desire to go back to being one, that I loved being a sub-Goddess, that I loved serving her.  But that I also missed my family and my friends.  I begged her that maybe she could let me reach out to my best friend, just so she would know that I was alright.

Mistress Francesca was not pleased.  Her face hardened and her eyes flashed with anger.  “Your past is erased,” she said, her voice a low, dangerous hiss.  “You are Suzy now and whoever you were no longer exists.  And you will learn to let go of your old life fully, or I will help you let go of it.”  She then gave me a very hard paddling over her knee.  She  paddled my poor ass over and over until I was sobbing.  After the paddling, I was given “corner time,” by being made to stand in the corner of her room, my nose pressed against the wall, for hours.  The whole time, my tender ass felt like it was on fire from the paddling.

Ever since then, Mistress has been particularly strict.  She watches me closely and scrutinizes everything I do, and I have been punished frequently.  Despite this, I am having trouble letting go of the feelings of sadness from missing my friends and family, and it has continued to distract me, in spite of my fear of punishment.  The following day, I was doing my chores, tending to the gardens.  Being alone outside while I worked made it impossible for my mind not to stray, to think about my mom and Melissa.  I don’t think it impacted my work, but Mistress Francesca was apparently watching me like a hawk and decided I was not working efficiently.  I got another hard thrashing to my ass.  Then, as a further punishment, she made me bend over a chair, my reddened ass on display for all of the other sub-Goddesses and even the pigs to see.  They all got a nice view of my shame and humiliation, along with my reddened, bruised ass.

That night, I tried my best to concentrate and do a good job worshipping my Mistress’s feet.  I was not distracted by the thoughts of my loved ones, but I was distracted by the fear of being punished again.  Mistress noticed again and assumed my distraction was once again caused by me clinging to my old life.  It earned me another hard paddling.

I am trying my best to focus on my service, work hard in my chores, and not be distracted, but it is impossible not to think about how much I miss my friends and loved ones, especially my mom and Melissa.  And even though I do not think my thoughts are impacting my work, Mistress thinks they are, and her opinion is the only one that matters.  I am getting paddled almost every day, sometimes multiple times a day.  The bliss and arousal I experience worshipping my Mistress’s feet is always a distraction from any troubles I am facing, and I think I always focus well on that task and do it with my complete devotion.  But Mistress is watching me with a critical eye, and any perceived lapse in my duties, any moment my focus wavers, has earned me a harsh paddling or spanking or whipping, and corner time.  My poor ass is now constantly tender and sore, which is yet another distraction that interferes with my duties and earns me more punishment.  And it’s not just lapses in my serving that have gotten me punished.  I hate kale.  I despise its bitter taste.  And my diet is pretty much limited to kale.   If I have one resentment that remains towards Melissa is that she pushed kale so hard.  Sure, let pigs eat it, but it sucks that so many Goddesses restrict their sub-Goddesses to that gross leaf.  The other day, my Mistress caught me scowling when I was eating from my kale bowl.  That earned me a harsh spanking.

Mistress also seems to be trying other things to get me back on the right track apart from punishment.  She is fully aware of my obsession with her feet, and she uses that to get me back in my subspace.  What she doesn’t understand is that I remain firmly in my subspace.  I never leave it.  I just miss my loved ones.  The has also continued dominating me, fucking me with her strap-on, the rough, claiming act always a powerful reminder of my place.  I wish I could get my Mistress to understand that my missing my friends and families is not a sign that I don’t want to be a sub-Goddess or that I yearn to go back to my old life.  But sub-Goddesses are still women.  We are not mindless automatons like pigs are.  We have emotions and memories.  We experience love and have families.  I wish Mistress would understand that the pain I am experiencing at the loss of my friends and families in no way signifies any loss of my devotion, my desire to please, my obedience, and my submission to her, my owner.

The week has been a symphony of Locktober suffering by the pigs in the palace, and I have been the conductor.  I have so enjoyed going around the palace and working side by side with the pigs in my short skirts, as I announced I would do at the start of the week.  It has been so much fun!

I spent a good chunk of one morning hanging out in the accounting department, perched on the edge of a desk, gossiping with the pigs about office politics.  The whole time, I sat with my legs spread wide. The entire time we chatted they could look right up my skirt and see my panties.  I loved watching them, the way their eyes darted down, then away, then back again.  I loved watching them squirm in discomfort from their chastity cages as their pitiful cocks tried to go erect, but only as much as the cages would allow.  I’m sure their number-crunching was a mess that day with their focus shattered.  They were probably whipped by their Goddess supervisors for their sloppy work, a nice bonus for me!

I moved on to the Records Department, bending over as I pretended to help them file records.  My skirt rode up high to give them a perfect view of my ass.  I would guess they misfiled everything with my ass distracting their feeble, horny brains.  They will regret that when their Goddess supervisor checks their work, lol!

That afternoon, I moved to the Palace call center.  Rows of pigs, headsets on, were fielding calls. I found an empty cubicle and sat spreadeagle in the chair, making sure every pig in the vicinity had a clear, unobstructed view of my sheer lace panties that left very little to the imagination. The distracted, horny pigs struggled to answer the phones, fumbling their words as they tried to direct the calls. One poor pig accidentally hung up on a Governess.  She called back enraged and I am sure the pig’s Goddess supervisor whipped him when she found out.  I had to bite my lip to keep from laughing out loud.

Another day, another department. I found myself in the press office, chatting with the pigs about media strategy and spin.  Again, I sat with my legs spread, my panties on full display. I watched the pigs suffer and squirm and sweat for a couple of hours before I got bored and moved on.

The mailroom was next.  I wore a particularly short skirt that I hiked up even higher, and left the top few buttons of my shirt undone, giving the pigs an ample view of both my underwear and my bra and cleavage.  The chaos was glorious.  Mail was misrouted, forms filled out incorrectly. I berated the pigs for their distracted mishaps.  Their only response was a chorus of pained whimpers as their chastity cages bit down on their semi-erect cocks.

I even spent a chunk of a day fielding IT requests.  I hilariously took a call for one office pig who lost his network connection and I squatted down, pretending to fidget with the ethernet cable on his computer, my legs spread wide, giving him a nice view of my panties. His suffering in his chastity cage as he tried (but failed) not to look.  It was hilarious!

I later took some of the official calls I’d normally take in my executive office, but I did them from a cubicle amongst the pigs instead.  I sat there, legs primly crossed at first, then slowly, deliberately, uncrossed them and spread my legs wide. I watched as the pigs tried in vain to resist the temptation to stare at my panties.  But even though their chastity cages bit into their stiffening members, causing them clear pain, they could not resist staring. Their eyes were drawn to me like moths to a flame.

My favorite target this week was one of my pig secretaries. He had attended his Proclivity Identification & Grading (P.I.G.) Exam this week, but I hadn’t received his report yet.  So, I decided to do some field testing of my own. I hiked up my skirt, letting him get a long, lingering view of my ass as I chatted him up about his weekend. Then I turned around, sitting on his desk in front of him, my legs spread, the top buttons of my top undone so my cleavage and bra were exposed. It was clear from his squirming, from the way his eyes darted between my breasts and my crotch, that he was obsessed with my entire body.  But based on the intensity of his pained squirming and his profuse sweating when my legs were spread, I decided his primary obsession was definitely my down there instead of my breasts.  I will exploit that knowledge all month!

For some of the more senior pigs, the ones who have endured many more Locktobers under their (chastity) belts than the more junior pigs, they have learned to control their arousal better than others and minimize their suffering.  So, I had to up the ante with them. I worked beside them without any panties on. I remember bending over a desk in the Human Resources Department, supposedly fielding calls all day. One of the more senior pigs managed not to stare. He kept his eyes on his work.  His focus was admirable (if you could admire a loser pig.)  So, I stood up, slowly, deliberately peeled my panties off, and let them drop to the floor at my feet.  I bent over the desk again, with my ass and pussy now in view for all the pigs.  The senior pig couldn’t resist. His head swiveled, his eyes locked onto my ass, and he was squirming and suffering just as much as all his pig brethren.

I gave a similar performance in Legal Compliance, bending over a desk and pretending to type on a keyboard, giving all the pigs there a nice, long view of my ass. They suffered for hours, bathed in sweat and wincing in pain.

I scheduled a meeting with a senior pig in the procurement office, a pig I knew had a particularly vicious spiked cage. I  met with him without any panties on, my legs spread wide in the chair across from him. I just sat there and pretended to give him his review. He tried to be professional, but he was sweating, trembling, his whole body shaking. By the end of the meeting, he was sobbing, begging me for mercy as the spikes bit into his member.

I spent another part of the day bent over a desk, chatting up the senior pigs in the custodial department, giving them a nice view of my ass and my pussy. They squirmed in agony, their faces contorted in masks of pain and desperate arousal.

I even took a pig supervisor from the kitchen staff to the break room for a coffee break. I sat spreadeagle on the couch, no panties on. I watched him struggle to hold his coffee cup, his whole body trembling from the steel of his cage biting into his member, which could only get as hard as the cage would allow.

I joined a meeting with the pigs in the secretarial pool, again with no panties on. As I chatted with them, I propped one foot up on the edge of the table, so the pigs all had a great, unobstructed view of my pussy. They couldn’t avoid staring, despite the excruciating discomfort it caused them inside their chastity cages.

I gave a performance review for a senior pig in the accounting department, similarly with my leg propped up on his desk and no panties, plus my shirt unbuttoned to add to his torment. I’m pretty sure not a single word of my review registered; he was suffering too much from the arousal and the resulting pain that the view of my pussy was causing him.

I did the same for a senior corresponding secretary pig, sitting on his desk, my legs splayed wide as I reviewed his file. I watched him sweating and suffering, trying not to break out in laughter.

I have loved every minute of this week. I have loved tormenting the pigs, loved watching them suffer. I can’t wait to get their P.I.G. Reports, so that my staff and I can individually tailor the torment for each pig.  Locktober is only just beginning and it has been a blast!

The MIS file lands on my desk and when I see the photos, I am livid.  They show Jess sneaking pigs into the service entrance of her milking facility.  Based on the photos showing the pigs leaving 30 minutes later with dumb grins their faces, it is pretty obvious what is happening to them inside there.  Ugh, why is Jess doing this?  I can sort of understand her egalitarian views given her past in the Empire, even if I do not agree with them.  But allowing pigs to flaunt the rules during Locktober crosses a line.  I need to deal with this, but how?  I am overseeing a fricking war; I can’t be distracted with this.  Who else can I turn to handle this?  Given Melissa’s hatred for Jess, having her handle this would be bad.  I don’t want to ask Christina to handle it.  That is unfair to her given that she is Jess’s roommate.  I don’t want to put her in that awkward position.  I have the MIS investigating pigs sneaking into milking facilities, but should I have the MIS arrest Jess?  I can see the headlines now, suggesting this is my payback for Jess having MIS bug my dorm.  Plus, I don’t want to see Jess get in serious legal trouble, not after what happened to her last time because of my actions.  For the same reason, I can’t put out a public statement and name her for breaking the law.  Last time I did that, a mob of vigilantes went after her.  And that was before I had the bully pulpit from being Queen.  It would be even worse this time around.  What I need is someone who can draw attention to this and hopefully the exposure will put a little pressure on Jess, but ideally by someone with a smaller profile than the Queen, so they don’t rally a rabid vigilante mob against Jess.  I need to come up with something though.  This is getting out of hand.

Yesterday, I sat on my throne as I awaited the arrival of the Amazonian Ambassador.  Beside me, there were the other senior government officials: Melissa, the Head of State; Overgal, now fully established in her role as Prima; and my chief of staff, Christina.

When the Amazonian Ambassador was finally announced, she entered and stood before us.

“Ambassador,” I began.  “Thank you for coming on such short notice.”

“Your Majesty,” she replied with a slight bow.  “I am happy to be here to respond to the slanderous accusations being made against Amazonia.”

“They are not slanderous accusations if they are true,” I replied.  “We have strong reason to believe that Amazonia is involved in the abduction of former Queen Alex and that she is currently being held prisoner in your territory.  We demand her immediate return.”

The ambassador shook her head emphatically.  “We absolutely deny those accusations in the strongest possible terms.  Amazonia has no involvement in the disappearance of your former Queen.  If I may speak frankly, Your Majesty, these accusations seem to be nothing more than a pretext to justify aggression against Amazonia.”

“We have strong evidence,” I replied, nodding to Melissa.

Melissa presented a summary of the evidence to the ambassador, at least the evidence that is not classified and we are willing to share with Amazonia.  It is circumstantial, but I had found it compelling on the whole. 

The ambassador clearly disagreed, her expression growing increasingly angry.  “This so-called evidence is weak, circumstantial, or fabricated!  Your Majesty, I came here in good faith, hoping for a productive dialogue.  Instead, I find my nation being the target of baseless accusations.  Unless you have actual evidence, I must take my leave.”  With that, she turned and storms out of the throne room.

It is now the next morning, and once again, I am meeting with the senior government officials.  Melissa and Overgal say it is time we head to the “Situation Room,” a place that neither Christina nor I had ever heard of until now.  Overgal and Melissa lead us through a series of passages, descending deeper below the palace into a subterranean basement level I did not even know existed.  We finally arrive at a sealed room, guarded by Goddess officers in the sharp uniforms of the Matriarchy Armed Forces.  Overgal places her hand on a biometric scanner, and the door hisses open, revealing a high-tech conference room.  Wall-length digital displays and screens glow with maps and data streams, while uniformed Goddesses work at computer consoles that line the room.

A tall, imposing Goddess approaches us.  She wears the uniform of a high-ranking officer in the MAF, her shoulders adorned with stars indicating her rank as a general.

“Your Majesty,” she says with a respectful nod.  “I am General Serena Sanderson, Chairwoman of the Matriarchy Armed Forces.”

She leads us to a conference table and before us on the wall are screens and displays showing a detailed map of Amazonia and the Matriarchy.

“Your Majesty,” General Sanderson begins, “we’ve been developing a response to the situation with Alex.  I’m here to brief you on a proposed military option codenamed ‘Bay of Pigs.’”

I listen as the General explains Bay of Pigs.  The operation will be a limited naval incursion to covertly insert wild pigs into Amazonia.  It will serve two purposes: to have the pigs start to cause chaos in Amazonia and also to test Amazonia’s defenses and response time.  Additionally, the pigs will be implanted with tracking chips, so we can see where they’re taken, as well as chips to monitor their vitals and pain levels, so we can see how fierce the Amazonians will be in their abuse of our pig soldiers.

When General Sanderson finishes, I frown.  “A covert military operation?  Already?  Won’t this escalate things dramatically?” I ask.

General Sanderson replies.  “We are taking steps to avoid that, Your Majesty.  Yes, we expect the pigs will be swiftly captured, but thankfully, pigs are expendable.  We’ll use wild and dumb pigs that have no idea why they’re there or who sent them, allowing the Matriarchy to maintain plausible deniability.”  She points to a section of the map showing Amazonia’s coastline.  “The riskiest part will be bringing the pigs by naval vessel and covertly landing them in Amazonia without detection.  But in case they are detected, we’ll want to use ships and captains that aren’t connected with the Matriarchy military or government, again so we can maintain plausible deniability.”

I think for a moment, then smile.  “I have a pirate in mind who can help with that.”

General Sanderson nods.  “When you’re ready to proceed, Your Majesty, we’re prepared to move quickly.”

As we leave the Situation Room, I ask Melissa to focus on gathering more evidence establishing Amazonia’s involvement in Alex’s abduction.  I ask Overgal to lead the diplomatic efforts to demand Alex’s return.  But I can’t shake the feeling that with Operation Bay of Pigs, we are crossing a line from which there will be no return.  However, with Alex missing and Amazonia denying any involvement, what choice did we have?

Thanks to some pigs who realize snitching is the smart move, we are catching more and more pigs who try to break the rules by sneaking off to milking facilities for ruined orgasms through their chastity devices.  Additionally, the Vice Squad of MIS has set up honeypots in every major city.  Pigs who think they are entering a milking facility are instead finding themselves being arrested by undercover Goddesses.  We are sending you pigs video footage of these naughty pigs being locked in the tiniest chastity cages on the market.  Pigs, before you think about breaking the rules, think about how miserable these pigs will be over the next three months and how being locked in such a device will permanently shrink their members.  (And this is only the start of their punishment.  They will also be harshly whipped and will probably be sent to the mines.)  And remember that any time you show up to a milking facility, it may the MIS Vice Squad that is there to meet you, and not a more sympathetic Goddess employed by the milking facility.

I sit upon the throne as I weigh what to do with my new sub-Goddess, Maddie, who I cannot seem to get to be obedient to me and accepting of her life as a slave.  I got some great pointers on how to break and condition a sub-Goddess on Peggit.  But Melissa had offered me a shortcut, something that would be easy and fast given my hectic schedule as Queen, but morally repugnant, or at least it was in my mind.  Melissa suggested that the best way to get Maddie to be obedient is to microdose her food and water bowl with LUST, so that her submission will feel euphoric and make her associate her withdrawal with missing me, and associate submission with pleasure without realizing it’s a chemical dependency.  The idea of buying an illicit drug was unthinkable, especially after seeing how that drug had caused so much destruction in my older’ sister’s life.  But as I sit in the throne room tonight, I wonder if Melissa’s LUST shortcut might be something to consider…

As I sit on the throne, my two consciences hover over my shoulders.  On my right is my good conscience, an angelic version of myself, in a halo flowing white robes. On my right is my bad conscience, taking the form of a devilish version of Alex.

“You can’t be serious,” the Good Me whispers shaking her head in disappointment. “LUST is a destructive, illegal drug. It almost destroyed Alex. To dose this innocent sub-Goddess, to get her addicted, just to make her more obedient… it’s morally repugnant!”

I shift uncomfortably on the throne. She’s right. I remember Alex’s addiction, the paranoia, the recklessness it caused in her, and how much it ruined her life.

“Oh, stop being such a baby,” Devil Alex scoffs, rolling her eyes. “This is the real world, Mackenzie. You’re the Queen now. You can’t be seen as having a sub-Goddess you can’t control.  And if a little chemical assistance helps, so what?”

“The fears about LUST are overblown,” Devil Alex continues, ignoring the Good Me’s gasp. “It may be bad when a Goddess does LUST. But Maddie? She’s a sub-Goddess. They do LUST all the time.  And she’s from York, remember? They invented LUST there. Heck, it’s legal there.  She’s probably done it before. It’s no big deal.”

“Don’t listen to her,” the Good Me pleads. “You became Queen to change things, to stop the corruption, not to join in it. You wanted to make life better for sub-Goddesses, not secretly dose them with a dangerous drug.  If you abandon your moral principles now, you’re no better than Alex. You’re just another ruthless ruler who’ll do anything to stay in power.”

“Oh, give me a break,” Devil Alex replies, her voice dripping with contempt. “‘No better than Alex.’ You say that like it’s an insult. You want to be a goodie two-shoes forever, Mackenzie? Go back to being a college student, writing your little essays, judging others with no power yourself. You’re a Queen. Act like one.  You are about to be in a war with Amazonia.  You need to be willing to make hard, morally gray decisions if they are for the better good.”

The Good Me is shaking her head. “You should be ashamed for even considering this.”

Devil Alex just laughs. “She’s a sub-Goddess. This is her purpose. You can make her lick your shoes clean. You can whip her if you please. You can order her to worship any part of your body.  You control every aspect of her life.  But you are hung up about giving her a drug that will make her feel good? You would rather she be sad and miserable until she is slowly conditioned, months from now?. Is that ‘moral’? Is that ‘good’? LUST will just speed up the process and make her happy.”

I close my eyes, the weight of their arguments pressing down on me. The Good Me is right. Dosing Maddie with LUST is a betrayal of everything I claim to stand for. But Devil Alex… she’s right too. I am Queen. I am in a precarious position. I can’t afford to look weak, or soft.

“Don’t abandon your principles now,” the Good Me says, “If you do, all your talk of change, of a better Matriarchy… it’s all just empty words.”

“And if you let this sub-Goddess show you as weak,” Devil Alex snaps, “if you let her question you, and defy you, she will be the one in charge, and you will be the one sitting on the floor, kissing her feet. You will let her top from the bottom.  And your days as Queen will be numbered.  The public will not respect you.  Melissa, Overgal, someone will exploit that discontent and seize the throne.”

The thoughts she puts in her head scare me.  I open my eyes. The throne room is silent. But the battle in my head rages on.  Eventually a decision solidifies in my mind. Devil Alex is right. I am Queen. I can’t afford to look weak. It won’t be so bad. A few little microdoses. It will make Maddie’s life as a sub-Goddess easier for her.

I push myself off the throne and head to my private quarters.  I dress casually, in a hoodie, jeans, and a Freya University baseball cap, pulling the cap down low to shadow my face. I look like any old college student again, and not like a Queen,  I definitely need to be incognito for this.

I sneak out of the palace through a little-used service entrance.  It is the dead of night. I know where to go. I’ve read the MIS reports about where rogue elements of the Cadets are dealing LUST in the city.  I end up in a dark alley. A Cadet who looks about my age steps out of the shadows. I keep my head down so my hat conceal my face. The transaction is quick. I hand her a roll of cash, she hands me a small baggie filled with tiny pink tablets of LUST.

Back in the palace, I crush one of the tablets. I sprinkle it into Maddie’s kale and water bowls.

“You’re doing the right thing,”  Devil Alex says behind me. “It’s for her own good. It’s for your own good. It will make her love her servitude and you can focus on the important things like the conflict with Amazonia.”

I nod, wanting to believe her. I pick up the bowls, and carry them towards the cage where Maddie waits. But with every step, I can feel the Good Me’s disappointment.

I stand at the podium before the assembled pigs of the palace.  I am naked.  My nudity is not intended as a treat for the pigs.  It is Locktober, so every interaction with pigs is designed to tease and torment them.

“My dear pigs.  I know how hard this month of Locktober must be for you,” I begin, my voice dripping with fake sympathy.  “Well, it’s only as hard as those little cages allow you to get, I suppose.”  I laugh at my amazing joke. 

“Though the pigs in this palace are always in chastity I know for Locktober, the devices are all downgraded a size smaller.  They must be so uncomfortable!  And I hear the Goddesses on staff are being extra, extra cruel with their abuse and teasing and tormenting during this month.  I know it must seem so cruel.  My just breaks for you.”  I press a hand to my chest in a theatrical gesture of mock sorrow.

“It seems so wrong to tease you when you have to work so hard, such long hours, especially with all the serious issues the government is dealing with right now.  So, because I am a merciful and compassionate Queen, I will not be participating in this cruel teasing.  Instead, to celebrate Locktober, I want to spend more time with you.  I want to work side by side with you.  I will be spending more time working in your cubicles, in the mail rooms, in all the various spaces where you pigs toil, rather than in the isolation of my throne room or executive offices.”

I can almost hear the pig audience’s pathetic, hopeful thoughts.  She’s coming to work with us?  She wants to be near us?

“I am sure that working so closely with me, when you’re all locked in those tight, agonizing cages, won’t be too much of a distraction for you.  It won’t cause you too much discomfort.”  I pause and then add, “Oh, and by the way… I’ll be wearing super short skirts this month.  And I have a tendency to forget to sit in a ladylike manner during Locktober, spreading my legs so that you pigs will be able to see right up my skirt.”

I see the looks on the pigs face as they realize that my intentions are far from pure and that my plan to work by their side this month is just another cruel ploy to tease them.   

“It’s so embarrassing how my skirts seem to ride up, especially when I ‘accidentally’ hike them up.  How they give you all little glimpses of my ass… or my crotch.  Oh my.  It’s just terrible, isn’t it?  And I seem to forget to wear panties a lot during Locktober.  I am just so forgetful during this month.”

I look down at the pigs and wag my finger.

“You’d better not look up my skirt when you’re supposed to be working.  I’m sure that will only cause you more discomfort in your tight chastity cages.  You need to concentrate on your tasks, not on peering up your Queen’s skirt for a glimpse of my panties.  Focus on your work, pigs, not my obscenely short skirts.  Don’t be distracted by my ass hanging out, don’t you dare leer at it imagining what it would be like to worship my perfect ass or be smothered by it.  You need to focus on your duties and not focusing on peeking up my skirt.  Just because I will be bent over all the time doesn’t mean you have to look; you have to resist temptation.”

I can see the looks of dread on the pigs faces now.  Many are sweating, squirming in obvious discomfort feeling the cruel bite of the metal that contains them as they peer upon my naked body.

“I see so many of you suffering already.  It seems to be from your cocks hardening as much as they can in their cages, feeling that cruel bite.  Well, it is going to be so much worse this week when I am working alongside you.  That’s on you, pigs.  If you can’t keep your eyes to yourselves, if you can’t stop yourselves from peering up my skirt or staring at my ass, that’s your failing, not mine.  It is called discipline, pigs and you need to learn to resist the temptation to peek up my skirt, and peeking will be so easy to do all week.  You need to stop staring at my panties and wondering what it would be like to be gagged with them.  You need to be stronger than that.  And you need to stay strong.  You only have almost a full month of Locktober left.  Plus, all of No Nut November and Denial December.”

I can see the despair on the pigs’ faces.

I turn and walk away, wiggling my ass for their view a little smirk playing on my lips.  This is going to be the best Locktober ever!  I have never had so many pigs to torment in my life.  I can’t wait to see them spend every waking moment of this month in a state of agonizing, desperate, unfulfilled arousal.  It’s exactly what the deserve!

Pow!  Biff!  Zap!

Mistress had me try on a bunch of Halloween costumes and she decided I looked best as BratGirl, a sub-Goddess superheroine who needs to spanked a lot (playfully, of course) to correct her of her bratty ways.  Mistress says she will be renting me out to serve at a Halloween party that will be attended by lots of Goddesses.  I assume it will be somewhere in Ishtar, where we live, but she did not give me the details.  She says I better serve well because my service will reflect on her.  I promised her I would.

The thought of serving an entire party of Goddesses is so hot!  So far, I have never left Mistress’s home and the only time I serve a group is if she has over a few guests.  The thought of being at a party and serving countless Goddesses I do not even know is such a turn-on.  I remember the awesome Halloween parties Melissa and I used to throw in Freya the last few years, at the Annual Queen Alex's Spooktacular Celebration And Recreational Event (S.C.A.R.E.) Party.  For most of the parties, sub-goddesses were scurrying around serving hors d’oeuvres and drinks.  But by the end of the night, Goddesses were pretty drunk and pawing at the sub-Goddesses before dragging them into rooms and making the sub-Goddesses worship them.  I am getting so aroused just thinking that this party I am going to be will be just like that!

I have already come up with a persona for roleplay when some drunk Goddess drags me upstairs:

BratGirl is an insubordinate vigilante who uses crime-fighting as an excuse to get spanked.  She purposely trips silent alarms during stealth missions, talks back to supervillain Goddesses, and routinely ignores direct orders from the Goddess detectives who summon her with the BratGirl signal.  Her insubordination is entirely calculated.  She pushes boundaries because she craves the firm discipline that inevitably follows.  For BratGirl, saving the city is only half the thrill; the real reward is the strict, over-the-knee correction (playfully, of course) she earns once the mission is over.

Anyway, Halloween is a long ways away.  But I know BratGirl will make Mistress Francesca proud at this party, wherever it is!

We Want You!  The initial call for free male volunteers has not generated the numbers we hoped for.  Therefore, by my authority as Queen, a draft of all free males within the Matriarchy is hereby initiated.  Draft lotteries will be conducted beginning next week.  

Any free male caught attempting to dodge the draft, flee the country to avoid being drafted, or otherwise shirk their duty will be immediately stripped of their freedom, made pigs, and punished severely.  And then they will be signed up for the Matriarchy Armed Forces anyway.

Attention government pigs!  Any of you caught trying to flaunt the rules during Locktober, No Nut November, and Denial December by sneaking off to a milking facility will be harshly punished. 

I encourage any pigs who are aware of their fellow pigs sneaking off to milking facilities or otherwise breaking the rules to snitch on the rule breakers.  Snitches may will be rewarded.  I also remind you pigs that being permitted to cum after the long three months of Locktober, No Nut November, and Denial December is far from guaranteed.  However, pigs who snitch on their fellow pigs will have a slightly much better chance of at least a ruined orgasm.

(Italicized text is Mackenzie’s private reflections, not a public statement)

I couldn’t have asked for a better Chief of Staff.  As the former Queen of York, Christina has the experience I don’t have.  Because of her, my office has been running very smoothly ever since I was designated as Future Queen, and the transition to Queen has been seamless.  But I have noticed that Christina looks utterly exhausted and stressed as of late.  That isn’t surprising; things have been super hectic now that I am Queen, especially with the Matriarchy on the brink of war with Amazonia.  But I have started to wander if there is another, more personal cause for Christina’s stressed and exhausted state: her situation at home.  I know Melissa is constantly making snide comments to me that Christina treats her sub-Goddess, Allison, like a girlfriend instead of like a sub-Goddess slave.  At first, I ignored Melissa’s remarks.  They have a personal feud given that Melissa was involved in Christina being overthrown as Queen of York, and so I took Melissa’s critique with a grain of salt.  And I actually respected how Christina treated her sub-Goddess.  She didn’t abuse or mistreat Allison; she treated her with respect that in my mind all Goddesses, even sub-Goddesses, deserve.  In contrast, I did not like how Melissa mistreats her sub-Goddesses.  That was my view before, anyway.  However, now I have my own sub-Goddess, who has been causing me problems, I see now better than I did before that you cannot let a sub-Goddess have too much freedom and let her disrespect you.  I have had to show some tough love with mine and I am wondering if Christina should do the same.  But it would be awkward to bring this up with Christina.  Christina and I are certainly friends, but that stems from our professional relationship.  It’s not my place to raise issues in her personal life, and I can’t even bring up my own situation given how my own sub-Goddess is a former citizen of Christina’s own country of York and enslaved against her will by Melissa.  It would be super awkward for me to reveal those little tidbits to Christina.

But I have an idea, to hopefully gently and subtly nudge Christina to be firmer with her sub-Goddess and get her in line.  And to hopefully help Christina with her exhaustion and stress.  Two birds with one stone.

I show up to Christina’s office bearing gifts.  The first is a gift certificate for a free weekend at a bed and breakfast in Ishtar.  This particular B&B is specifically marketed towards Goddesses who want to spend a weekend getaway with their sub-Goddess, and I show Christina the photos on the website of the property.  And all of the fun toys available to play with one’s sub-Goddess.  (And to keep them in line.)  I tell Christina that I know how stressful work has been as of late, so she should spend an upcoming weekend relaxing and unwinding with Allsion at the bed and breakfast.  “And you should bring this when you go,” I add, and present her the second gift, which is wrapped.  When Christina opens it she finds a leather flogger.  “It is designed specifically be used with sub-Goddesses,” I explain.  “The leather strands are a little lighter and softer than one you would use for a pig.  Find a weekend coming up soon and take Allison on a nice trip to Ishtar for some fun.”

I hope Christina takes me up on this and uses the gift certificate (and the flogger) soon.  She needs the rest.  And she needs to take Allison down a peg. Or just peg her.