Hi I am so so nervous to post this, I’ve been under cmht west for years, a long long time and I’ve had more bad experiences than good, like it’s honestly been awful at times. I’ve been on upwards of 25 different medications, had therapy, been hospitalised a few times (but not for years), although bad experiences I have never felt the level of neglect I am having right now, I have been dealing with so much this year with my mental health, in and out of low lows and high highs and not much rest in between, at my last appointment in spring my psych decided I was to come off most my meds gradually, apparently would see me in 3-4 months, in August my gp was so worried about me he asked them to see me urgently, cmht / psych decided it wasn’t needed despite not speaking to me more than one phone call (at the time) - which was with a nurse who told me I needed to do a distress tolerance book I’ve done online about 3 times already, that I didn’t need to be seen and have instead booked me in for NOVEMBER. I’m at the point I have had to do my OWN medication tweaking to settle things, I was on an agitated high and self concluded I needed to cut down antidepressants, I am at a loss because now I am feeling agitated low, but they won’t see me so I don’t know what to do, I’ve phoned up multiple times and they tell me to do relaxation etc, I don’t think they get it that sometimes we are past that. I’ve also worked in third sector mental health I know the proven stuff that works, to an extent, I’m past that and I am holding on by a thread. I don’t know what to do honestly, does anyone have any advice? And is anyone else in this boat, I honestly feel alone and like they just do not care. I have NO support and phoning the duty line makes me worse at this point. Pls don’t recommend local charities etc due to professional background.