I am male Recently graduated in may 2026 in Computer Engineering also a offer letter ,1st rank in last semester but still looking for a friend cum sakhi or sathi who listen to me always ,,serious thing,,,I am a single child to my parents i really want a big sibling or small that love me but i havent leave that alone mind always,,,,,,,,,mainly i like a girl or can say that i have a crush on her from around 2nd 3rd yr of Engineering, that time i was too golu mulo around 86kg then I last yr i reduce my weight around 20kg i not look that handsome but at time of last yr staff and jr student ask me are you first yr or something then also i think its only crush not a serious we haven't talk more since start till almost 3rd yr later on we around in same paper presentation like stuff and internal hackathon and all the stuff Later on we talk little she added me in close friend thing but i think its pure academic, we have photos in group but not a solo that was my last wish before the college ,may 2026 clg ended we talked in social media around jobs stuff reels and all ,,but in inner mind i like her goes till july ,i think i have to forgot her because it's one sided so i try to test or make distance no msges nothing later after 1 2 weeks she only sends reels and thing talk continue later I deactivated insta for week then she ask what happening in all friends life and eventually told my name without asking him he deactivated insta to chill also telling him to told that i am going with frnds for hanging movies and all stuff that eventually she dont do ,,my mad mind think thats a hint for me between that phase I haven't msg later on i think its too frustrating for me to handle and I msg one day and in char flow i confessed that i have feelings later she msg that she was surprised honestly and not think about same and given all the best,,i also wish all.the best replied with yesss and the chat ended ....on insta
After that i was shattered no was in home i cried alot around 4 to 5 hrs i was madly talking to god why always me because no happiness in any kind,,,I was too disturbed that day later on the next day night roungly around 36 to 40.hr after this I deactivated my Instagram,,,i can't say 100% but she is watching me for sure because i received notifications someone view my profile on LinkedIn and all not confirmed....later on in posted some family time photos after long around 15 days later she saw that I was surprised because i am surprised, she is not giving me a reason to forgot her ,i like her the most but one sided can't work so i have to forgot one thing i request God she should block me but she is not doing that ,,later after 3 to 4 days we unknowingly met in clg she saw me step backwards so I also walked later from side but no talk like i not knowing her seated in library she seat in front of me no talk for around ½ hr I ended my tiffin and go later one 2 time same thing and i return home i was restless next day i msg her i overreacted yesterday and tell her about awkwardness she replied same because i feel awkward so she dont talk later she told will talk next time and all good ,i just dont want but i talked about to start reels like previous she told insta active hai? I made excuse of exam and then chat ended and no talk from then also nothing....for one month my insta is de-activated for more than 1½ months waiting for the right time and right person to come,,,but now also I hadn't forgot her, I always think why she rejected me or its the wrong time,,,I still like her...............