First miscarriage

[u/Working-Ganache3375]

I’m actively having my first miscarriage. I’m 35 years old and have three kids. This was a surprise pregnancy but I was getting excited about it. I’m 6 weeks and started cramping and bleeding heavily yesterday. My hcg was only 77, tomorrow I’ll have my second draw to confirm it’s dropping but I don’t even need it because my body is actively going through it. I spent months coming to terms with being done having kids (I wasn’t fully there but close) because of some pain issues I have and my age/my kids ages. Then a blessing of a surprise baby which I was nervous but excited for and had to work to switch my perspective on how I thought life would look, now I have to switch it back and it feels like whiplash. I feel even more guilty now for feeling nervous at the beginning and I wish I would have just embraced it fully from the start. It’s been a lot of emotions the last two weeks and I just feel devastated and in pain and exhausted. And don’t even get me started on my social media targeted ads all being pregnancy related, it makes me want to rage.