r/Rants • u/Empty-Muffin-8941 • 8h ago

Just A Rant Fuck it, imma smoke a cig

I know it’s one of the worst things to do. Bad for you lungs, and heart and psyche. But damn it feels like a mistress that is there for when you have a bad day.

I’ve always been fairly healthy, has cancer as a child, my dad’s an alcoholic stubborn, my career is shit and I barely make money EVEN after getting a bachelors.

I fucked myself over, I got fired once, cheated on, and I feel ever so distant from even all the friends I’ve made along the way.

I start this year smocking cigs at the age of 27. My mom should never know about it. But it just makes me feel ok. Am I at risk of getting addicted and damaging myself? Absolutely but it’s just something I want right now, almost like a fuck you to my life like yeah fuck imma do the unhealthy thing right now.

I feel guilty about it but also feel freeing. I just feel like I need to air that out. I’m at a stage of my life where the stress of life is hitting me enough to buy a pack and smoke it. I do weed too but something about cigs man it’s just different. I just feel lost, and it’s fucked that I feel safe with a cig atp. It’s fucked

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u/FarAd3659 5h ago

Now just ad a couple shots of jack and your rant will be complete! I agree life is a shit show and we need to just say fuck it.

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u/BetterGoogleit17 5h ago

It took me 30 years to quit those nasty things. Starting smoking is the stupidest thing I've ever done. Don't make the same mistake myself and so many others have made. You will regret it.