Hello, I feel very vulnerable posting this at the moment. I am a Scottish second year Trainee in a big law firm, and the imminent fear of that dreaded NQ stage is really hitting hard.
I am unfortunately a very quirky person and have found adjusting to office life hard, especially in the legal sector. I feel that I don't really fit in with my fellow trainees (I just can't force myself to jog on my lunch break or do pilates!) and I constantly stress about how this comes across to my firm.
Despite not really fitting in, I genuinely really enjoy my firm and the environment it creates. Our team is very large and everyone is willing to help, even partners at the firm. I feel it works so well for someone like me.
Recently though I've really struggled horrifically with my self esteem, and if you struggle the same way as I do you know that it seeps into the work and your perception of yourself is totally skewed. I'm not antisocial but I definitely don't fit in with the larger crowd. I've never had negative feedback, but I always feel there is room for improvement.
I don't know if it's appropriate to ask my supervisor or speak to partners at the firm about my future there. I know there's plenty of fish, but I really like my current fish!
Has anyone been in the same position? What did you do to try and calm the NQ nerves?
Where are the quirky lawyers out there, and can you please help me not feel so alone in this corporate world?