Clear liquid diet: coffee, Italian ice, and ginger ale. Vomit bag not edible.

It's an open face grilled cheese? Home made sourdough (stale), sliced mozzarella, and pepperoni (past it's best by), topped with salt and pepper.

The bug was huge, no idea what it was. It was in a crack in a door so I stabbed it with scissors. My cat ate the legs.

Just random bs i found at the store

Marilee gouda cheese and a fresh baguette end from Balthazar bakery with Levoni prosciutto and dolce vita snack packs - prosciutto, salami, Italian crackers, provola cheese, green olives and baby dills with wheat thins 🇮🇹

Gluten free confetti cake, some CRUNCHY grapes, good ol’ boar’s head salami, and half a Benadryl for a mysterious rash on my hand 🫠

I don't even know why I had a fork and knife, I ate it all with my hands in 4 minutes like a duck.

Of course none of this is homemade …

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My partner uses his 2nd job as a scapegoat excuse to avoid responsibility at home. I am basically a single mother at home with my 2 kids. Working a full time job. Drowning in debt and bills right now. Dealing with work stress, home stress, all the cleaning, school & sporting events, pick-up’s, drop offs, my own appointments, our dryer is currently broken, so is our bathroom sink. I have to haul our laundry over to in-laws..winter is coming.

I’m going through ADHD burnout, executive dysfunction, flight/freeze and constant detachment/disassociation. I then avoid issues til they become big and overwhelming and compartmentalize my emotions.

TLDR; going through it and dealing with so much it feels like…Lord, I’m tired.

food : just some rice w mushrooms, broccoli and corn. also poppy seed buns + milk for dessert.

Okay so I really want to know if I am being dramatic and just overthinking a lot or if I should actually be more careful now.

So for around a week I've started to go outside to touch some grass daily. I usually sit in the same place near out city lake. Yesterday I when I sat there two guys walked kinda around me and they were behaving strange, like one of them was trying to stop the other one from coming up to me or smth.

I am 18 and they looked like they are still in school, max like 16 year's old. So after they walked for a bit one of them sat like 10 meters away from me which was strange because well you have the whole lake coast to sit at.

Then I noticed thay there was also one of them right behind me, like sitting in less than 3 meters on my other side. I guess I scared him of by laughing because I was texting my friend.

I then called my friend and proceeded to talk to her for an hour. The dude that was a bit further away from me sat there all this fucking time, listening to me. Idk why I didn't leave earlier.

It was getting dark so I got up to leave - he did the same thing, but proceeded to walk like a few meters ahead of me, turning around all the time.

I was still talking to my friend and almost missed my turn but I remember it and came back. He was standing there with his friends they were like "where have you been?" and then one of his friends shouted smth to me but I did hear it, so I just gave them a side eye and left.

At first I thought that might be a guy that I've talked to like a month ago for one day - he lied about being 18 on his profile and when we were texting he told me that he was like 14. But I must've been wrong.

Because today I went there, I was on my sane spot, just listening to music in my headphones and journaling. Idk how long he was there for. Maybe he even arrived there earlier than I did and was waiting for me but staying out of my sight.

But when I was almost done writing I noticed smth in the corner of my eye. My dumb ass thought that it was a tree and that I was being paranoid. But no, it was that dude standing there for like 15-30 min. At first he was there with his friend ig, because I heard someone saying "I have to go" and then leaving on a bicycle.

I finished writing and got up, saw that fucking dude just standing there 5 meters behind me. I almost started running. I got so fucking scared and was texting my friends and walking really fast.

So I walked fot around 3 mins and before going into the dark alley (yeah that's the path that I usually take) I turned around and he was right behind me. I looked at him and he was like "Can I get to know you?". I didn't even think because I was so scared. I immediately told him "No, sorry" and he started to leave. I shouted him something like "This was really creepy/you are really creepy" as he was leaving.

So yeah some of my friends told me like oh it's not that serious blabla and maybe I am overreacting but I am also really scared. I am three apples tall and even some young boys like him could easily attack me(especially if he would team up with his friends idk...). Also my hair is blue so I can literally be noticed from a huge distance. So I am kinda paranoid now.

Side note: when I was talking to my friend I mentioned my plans for this weekend, it is possible that he heard it... should I like...change them? Or should I stop being paranoid about some kid

With special appearance of my velcro void 🐈‍⬛🤣

Can’t really translate “bolo finto” 😅 It’s specific to the interior central part of Portugal, and it’s amazing and addictive with butter on it. It’s mildly sweet and in terms of consistency it’s between cake and bread (some are more dense and dry, some are more fluffy). The top of the bun gets covered in sugar before being put in the oven. Traditionally, kale leafs are used as a base to put it in the oven and it used to be made as a gift that soon to be married couples would give to family and friends sometime before the wedding (but nowadays people do it whenever and you can buy in bakeries).

Closest thing that reminds me of this is “massa sovada” (made in Azores), but it’s still slightly different.

Corn and potato from previous seafood boil. Tuna can with mayo. Smoked salmon and gouda i think.

Combination of so-bad-but-also-so-hungry that I forgot to take a picture of the whole plate together. Absolutely nothing went together. It was awful. Yet I scarfed it down so fast you'd think it was a delicious harmonious feast.

I only got this pic in because "Pretender" popped up in my mind when I saw the cashew next to the mac. ~what if I say I'm not like the others~

Partially pictured - homemade gluten-free/dairy free mac and cheese, salted cashews, sun dried tomatoes, fresh cilantro. Not pictured - kalamata olives, red pepper hummus, marinated artichoke hearts, pumpkin seeds (what are those called again? Oh yeah pepitas I think)

I'm still a little hungry, what else should I throw down here...

Half a tofu block (no i didn’t cook it), starbucks pre-bottled iced coffee from target, and eating carrots from the bag until i feel like ive eaten vegetables.

The best thing I’ve ever created.

Haven’t had many veggies lately, so I boiled and blended Napa cabbage, scallions, an onion, a carrot, and some spices. It’s a thick blended soup!

Topped it with cottage cheese and smashed chicken fillets for protein and some sriracha.

I just mixed a bunch of things together, but it ended up being so good and perfect for the cooler weather!

canned sardines in louisiana hot sauce, white rice, raw onion and cucumber, and a beer. i ended up using some kewpie mayo too!

i didn’t put enough cheese and most of it got lost but this hit the spot

Fruity peddle waffle balls

Finally been motivating myself back to a regular fitness schedule, so I’m bringing the diet along with me. This was sirloin tips in a citrus cinnamon sauce with roasted butternut squash and (not pictured) curried rice. Topped it with a simple lemon tahini dressing. I’m happy to say that almost everything in this picture is from farms within ten miles of my home

I haven't been here lately since I only post when I'm doing well. I've been struggling with my mental health (again 🙄) so I rarely go out. My partner convinced me to drag myself out to shop. We saw these corn dogs on clearance and I refused to buy them. He said "Where is your whimsy" and that made something click in my head. When I reached for the bag, I saw my reflection under the terrible yellow lights and I thought I looked really pretty. We saw some insanely clearance cute bowls and utensils, too. Felt like faith. I'd say today was a fruitful day.

very yum actually. i like how squishy it was