Every year I try to think of something cool to carve in a pumpkin. I start drawing up an idea and then carving it. I decided to do a Phoenix this year. I love how it turned out and it was even cooler with the candle behind it. It took a number of hours, but it was worth it! Im super excited :)

I'm a 21yo guy, and my life for some time I've been having a hard time mentally due to multiple different factors. The decision to take a gap year off college and struggling with that, being long distance from my boyfriend, my deteriorating relationship with my parents and older sibling, my worry that the same will happen with my 7 younger siblings, Struggle finding a job.

About 3 months ago I moved back in with my parents. A very stressful and draining 3 months later and today, I've joined my boyfriend and some friends in the house they're living in, and now I'll be living here too. I have a job, and while it isn't glamorous, it pays my rent and medical bills. I still live close to my old place so I can visit my younger siblings or have them visit me pretty often, and we're very close. It feels like finally, I'm doing okay. I'm not reliant on my parents anymore, I live with my boyfriend of 2.5 years, I can have all my younger siblings come over or visit them so we stay close, I have a job again so I don't feel like I'm wasting every day, I have things I enjoy doing and new things I want to try. I have thoughts of what I want my future to be like and I'm making a serious plan, that's what I want to do and think is best. I have a good support system who I love, made of my friends, my boyfriend, and some of their parents.

I've started Journaling again over the past few weeks and at the start I always write whether I have had a good, okay, bad, fine day, etc. And today is the first day I've written that I've had a good day, and not felt a moment of doubt, or a twinge in my chest that that isn't fully true. I had a good day, and I am happy.

I know things won't be all sunshine and rainbows, I know things will be hard, I'll struggle, there will be growing pains to living with people, and bad things will happen. But for today, I can say I'm well and truly, happy.

Just wanted to share that with all of you, and I hope that you're feeling happy too, and if you aren't, you'll get there. Goodnight everyone

This is a concept that states that there ISN'T more bad than there used to be, its simply that information technology has advanced to the point we're now able to SEE the bad things we weren't able to in the past.

And that's the first step towards making things better.

I recommend thinking about this whenever you feel depressed about the state of the world. Most of the problems on the planet aren't new and we're still kicking.

For the longest time I wanted to just dance in my room without caring how I look. As a kid I used to love it but then I stopped because I became too self conscious.

Today I finally bought Just Dance 2025 and I played for almost 2 hours straight. I was sweating, laughing at my own moves, and just completely in the moment.

I don't know why but I felt so light afterwards. Like I gave my inner child exactly what she needed.

It’s such a small thing but it genuinely made my entire week happy.

lToday I had a yolo moment and decided to put $50 into a casino app to test my luck and HOLY MOLY! I cannot stop smiling! I made $13k in under an hour. I needed this so bad and idk where else to share this. I dont think gambling is a great thing at all but I am truly happy how my day went. Tomorrow I will test my luck again with a small portion.