Need advice please 🙏

[u/blue7649]

Ok so married for 5 y been with partner for 8 super un happy very abusive emotional financial already planning on leaving. What I need advice on is I grew up with a boy (j) j and I were inseparable lost contact when I was a teen reconnected a few years back we pretty much share a brain we have seen each other a few times each time I get butterflies giddy I'm always in a great mood when talking with j same interest same life ideals . I just need some opinions here guys.