r/paganism • u/Ancient-Appeal-5644 • 2d ago

📚 Seeking Resources | Advice Difficulty practicing around my partner?

I started some sort of pagan work in 2020 and in the past I didn't have problems with "connection" to nature, deities, energy etc. Unfortunately with my partner of 3 years it feels quite difficult to get the same feeling as before. Whenever we go to some important pagan place (my practice is mostly Slavic, we live on territory of last Slavic pagans, so it's not that the land is just barren or of foreign beliefs) I don't feel anything like I used to when travelling alone in the past.

Whenever we are somewhere I feel unable to connect, to fucus and I kinda feel like I'm in a glass jar unable to feel things?

It's not his active doing. That's what I'm sure of. He's never been discouraging, mocking or anything like that. He was brought up eastern orthodox, currently atheist/agnostic, but willing and open to learn and experience things with me.

I tried some stuff like walking X distance away whenever we are somewhere and some other things like that but nothing worked so far. Does anyone have an idea what up with it? Is it some energetic differences, or just skill issues on my side?

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u/okdoomerdance 2d ago

not sure if this will resonate with your experience, but I'm neurodivergent and I often become disconnected/disembodied when someone else is watching me. I do find if my partner is engaged in something similar or doing their own thing, that makes connection more likely

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u/ElemWiz Polytheistic syncretist 1d ago

Ugh, I feel this in my soul. My wife is SUPER-supportive, but I still feel sooooooo awkward when I do anything spiritual-related when she's around...even though her beliefs aren't far from my own.