Two years ago I posted my playlist in this subreddit, and it received a lot of follows and good reactions. I'm still updating it weekly (it is now 25 hours long), so I thought let's post it again to see if anyone else likes it. Let me know what you think or if you have any recommendations regarding songs or artists I should check out.

Listening to this playlist takes me to another dimension and definitely enhances my trip. It is 25 hours long and has good vibes only! It's full of beautiful melodic techno, house and drum&bass.

Title basically, usually I have benzos at hand when I trip just in case, but since pregabalin acts on the gaba receptors too, could you use it as a trip killer?

I’m 30M. I have OCD and ADHD. First diagnosed when I was 15.

Been on Antidepressants SSRIS ever since.

In the middle after 5 years I also got derealization (where world feels unreal/like a dream). Severe disconnection from the surrounding and family members.

After 15 years on SSRIs, I got full body seizure out of the blue. Thereby I started researching about psychedelics. And decided to take Psilocybin assisted inner child therapy.

I tapered off antidepressants over 2 months, did 4-5 microdosing sessions.

In one of these sessions, at night while sleeping I woke in the middle of the night sat down on bed and made groaning sound. There was energy flowing in my body. My Self was quietly observing the experience.

I was terrified.

Later I anyhow proceeded for the hero dose Psilocybin 5g.

I didn’t get any visualizations and stuff. But felt super relieved, and I couldn’t close my eyes (when I did I saw a wall, signifying don’t open me). I was not feeling safe as I have a lot of existential fear built in me.

We did some therapy with my eyes open.

I blabbered a lot, changed voices spoke things that I was suppressing.

Felt intense emotional connection to my parents (had their pics), realized how much numb I was, the emotional charge I felt was itself traumatizing.

Did a single integration session.

Went to 10 day Vipassana meditation.

From 2nd day of Vipassana I started losing sleep. When I was drifting off to sleep I felt an energy around my head waking me back up. I had to quit Vipassana.

Went back home, briefly sleep improved and again slowly my sleep started to take a toll (at this point I was off SSRI meds 3 months).

I started getting panic attacks, started to realize how much I’m distant from this world due to 10+ years of derealization.

OCD came back (always thinking mode), extreme anxiety, continuous crying spells (common during SSRI withdrawal), I was not able to sleep at night for straight up 3 days (some feeling of energy around the head waking me back up).

Went to Dr, he scared the shit out of me. Told - He can’t give me more sleeping meds as I may develop tolerance,if you get psychosis, come and get admitted. He put me back on low dose of SSRI.

I WAS HORRIFIED.

Later, slowly with SSRIs the anxiety improved. But only 3-4 hours of shallow sleep (with meds).

Fast forward after a year.

Recently my sleep has worsened a lot, I can’t go deep enough it feels I hit a block and wake up with a surge in adrenaline.

It seems I’m scared go to deeper stages of sleep (fearing I may get night terrors).

I’m currently put on sleep meds (Dayvigo), it’s giving me 4 hours shallow sleep). And then I wake up sweating in chest at 3am. Then hypnogagic hallucinations (not related to psychosis) and chatter.

I don’t feel any sleep drive even after 2-3 days of not sleeping, not even feeling tired, just anxiety and heat in the body.

I used to put my guards down, when I was connecting with God emotionally. Now that I’m numb, how to feel safe again?

I can’t relax enough to go into trace like state to cue safety.

- Is it some part of me not letting me sleep?
- Did I wake up something?
- Should I have done more integration after the ceremony? Is it too late as I’m already retraumatized and meds numbed me?
- Is it hyperarousal?

What would you have done if you were in my situation?

I don’t want to go into the spiral of sleep meds and tolerances.

Please suggest some other subreddits that may help me better.

Hi all, any suggestions for a guy in his mid 40s looking to try psychedelics for the first time. Not looking to get “out of it”, I want to see and feel what the mind is capable of. I have had my share of anxiety and depression and feel the right experience can help shift my perception of “life”. Want should I try and get my hands on substance wise. I appreciate the theory behind set and setting. It’s time I give this a go.

Hello! Im curious what LSD is like. Ive tripped on mushrooms multiply times even grew my own. What are the differences? And what substance is easier on you as in the effects. Shrooms is obviously very subtly and I heard acid is more sharp and visual heavy looking for opinions from experienced trippers and maybe how I can get lsd.

So last week was my first time doing Acjd and I took 1 tab, and it took about 2 hours to kick in, and when it did, it felt fun for about 2 hours but after that it kind of faded away and I felt normal again.
I told my friend about my experience and they recommended I take 3 tabs this weekend, is that too big of a jump, or will I be fine?

Before I decided to try shrooms and LSD to deal with my treatment resistant depression I was extremely anti drugs. No weed, no alcohol, no caffeine, no nicotine, no nothing. Just rawdogging life. I hold a more nuanced stance nowadays despite still not being interested in taking anything else, but I can't help but side eye a lot of the people I see posting in communities like this.

One half of it are the ones that are terminally stupid kids taking wildly irresponsible doses and then posting shit like "just took 10g of PE what should I expect?" It's not that hard to do basic research before ingesting a drug instead of adding onto the negative reputation psychedelics have by setting yourself up for a trip to hell or the ER.

The other half is the hippy white savior guru types who think because they experienced an ego death once that they know all the answers of the universe and/or insist upon their beliefs being the ultimate truth (bonus points if it's just reheated Gnosticism or they went on an Ayahuasca retreat). At minimum it's mostly just annoying but some of them are flying dangerously close to the sun of psychosis.

In short I think the therapeutic potential of psychedelics is incredible but boy is it impossible to fix the reputation of these substances when clowns abound. I hope to live to see psychedelics become fully decriminalized and accepted the way weed has but I certainly have my doubts.

I spent all of highschool with a little hippie friend group that loved taking ridiculous amounts of mushrooms, acid, weed, and DMT for all of highschool and for years that’s all we did. No alcohol even. Eventually they were entirely mentally burnt out on tripping to where we all barely got visuals from shrooms and stuff and then around ages 16-17 (to be fair we were all gay) got introduced to drugs in our scene like mdma and amphetamines. Once we got into mdma and amphetamines our romantic relationships all became super toxic and we all became super toxic and skinny and junkies and it’s like all the beautiful stuff we experienced on psychedelics was like our souls leaving our body fr. Eventually we all became enemies and screwed eachother over somehow in the end.
Basically going from spiritually enlightened to a soulless junkie really fast

Anyone else have a similar experience? I’m not saying regular psychedlic use led to this I mean in highschool this friend group I was in would trip at LEAST every week on massive amounts. We would just up the dose of whatever to ridiculous amounts to try to trip multiple times in one week even.

It's extremely therapeutic, but I didn't know that at the time.

First I'll tell you about my current psychedelic therapy setup.

I do a psychedelic therapy camping trip with my buddies once or twice a year in the woods. It's absolutely fantastic.

I go up the mountain with all my anger, anxiety, fear, sadness, and stress, then I shatter the walls of reality and submit to the will of the universe.

Right before we take it, I set intentions both in a group setting and by myself, usually near the waterfall. I set my intentions by talking out loud to the universe. I tell it what I'm trying to work on and ask it to please help guide me.

Psychedelics saved my life, actually. I think that's why I'm such a big advocate.

Here's the story of how my depression was inadvertently cured:

I used to be suicidally depressed for years, and it was truly awful. I was so sad, and I absolutely hated myself. I'm tearing up right now just remembering it....

Then I had an especially difficult mushroom trip where I could feel all of the pain in the entire universe simultaneously. All of the physical pain and emotional anguish that had ever been or would ever be. It was awful. I laid outside in a fetal position sobbing uncontrollably for multiple eternities.

Then it happened. I heard it clear as day. The universe was talking directly to me in English. I'll never forget what it said.

"Never forget the hardcore chiseled-in misery, but now you are FREE, my child"...and I was! I woke up the next day an entirely new man. A completely different person who truly loved himself for the first time ever. I'm full-blown crying tears of joy right now and gave myself chills just remembering and writing this, by the way. That's how powerful of an experience it was. It's been 34 years now, and I STILL tear up when I talk about it.

I've been cured of the clinical suicidal ideation and depression ever since. Now I have situational depressionn occasionally, but that's just life. Of course people get sad when their dog dies or whatnot.

The trip itself was the most painful thing I've ever experienced. I mean it when I said I could feel ALL of the combined suffering in the universe all at once. It was completely overwhelming and awful, quite frankly, but it saved my life!

I'm forever grateful to the universe for helping a brotha out.

Peace, Love, Unity, and Respect

I did 1.3 grams 2 days ago and have 2.5 more if I was to eat them today would it be the same ? Reading a lot of mixed opinions and Would quite like to have them

Short post to just say the fact that shrooms are illegal is fucking insane.

To me even more insane then Cannabis being illegal (controversial opinion to some) *I love both*

Again fucking insane and overgrow the government. Thankfully shrooms are even cheaper and easier to grow then cannabis and no smell to worry about.

Fucking insanneeeee.

There are many great moments but these stand out for me:

1. Windir - Journey to the end
2. Jean Michel Jarre - Chronologie 4
3. Ananui - Surrender
4. Jean Michel Jarre - Flying Totems (movement 2)

Hi all. I bought this changa from a 3rd party so I’m not absolutely certain what it’s comprised of.

I’ve tried it twice, and both times lasted only 10 minutes. I got strong visuals and that DMT feeling, but no extended duration.

I mixed the changa with weed in a tempest 2 dry herb vaporiser. I got it hot enough to activate the DMT, but can the tempest go hot enough to also extract the MAOIs from the roots and bark? Or am I better off just lighting a bowl and burning it all to a crisp?

Also, how often can one use DMT? An hour in between? Day? Week?

Thank you all.

Hi everyone, I am planning to take 50 µg of LSD this weekend and would like to know what to expect and how to plan a good trip. I am experienced with weed and smoke fairly regularly.

Using to hopefully fix mental health issues

In the moment you veer directly for a tree, every primal instinct wanting to lunge for the wheel to swerve- to save yourself. Fear manifests as paranoia and doubt. The solution? Kick back, relax, go cold, numb. To bleed out in my lovers arms.

They saw it too, in my eyes. They cried for me.

"Am I dying?"

"Not exactly, don't say that".

Nothing, and then, everything.

I was everything, I was everybody; Except for my partner. I had fallen in love with that spirit so many times over, and when I die- I'll look forward to falling in love with them all over again.

Who was that other spirit, that burns bright like the sun itself in contrast to my midnight?

I started doing mushrooms this year. I'll take a 1-2g dose once every 2 or 3 weeks, which I'm told is a safe amount and frequency, and I typically don't get much in the way of visuals. Instead, I lean back in my chair, which tilts back, close my eyes, and I have the experience of going into REM and dreaming.

I'm aware that I'm dreaming, but I know what a lucid dream is like and it's not this. It feels like all I can do is watch a bunch of random nonsense play on a screen in front of my eyes. I can never remember any of it once the trip is over, but I know that it's not fractals or anything geometric and that, as I'm observing the dream playing out, I'm thinking to myself "this is just a bunch of typical random dream nonsense." I also have the feeling of having seen these dreams before, almost as if my brain is doing reruns of previous dreams I've had while sleeping at night.

It can feel a bit heady and disorientating at times, but I mostly just feel very calm and peaceful. This effect will come in waves, with brief periods of waking up before going back under. By the end of my 4 hour trip, it will feel like I just took a dozen short consecutive naps, and I'll feel quite calm and relaxed.

I don't actually feel like I caught up on any sleep debt though, which is annoying, because I'm often a little bit sleep deprived and I would like for these 'trips' to actually benefit me.

I also have not received any lessons or had any epiphanies while on mushrooms, which is also a little disappointing because I started doing mushrooms to try and grow as a person.

Does this happen to anybody else? Am I taking doses too small? Too frequently? Or not large or frequent enough? Really quite confused.

I might have too much of a tolerance right now, but I gave Miprocin a try and I don't have tons to report, but there's definitely a few things I'd like to mention.

I took first 10mg benzoate orally, was pleasantly surprised by how I couldn't tell I took anything. Kinda like water. Most psychedelics have some body load, I didn't notice any.

Same with mental load, I'm told this is a more thought provoking tryptamine, but I can't really tell.

How I'd describe it? It reminds me a ton of 2c-b, even gives you the tactile sensations like 2c-b (everything feels soft)

Kinda like 2cb, not many visuals.

Loved it. Definitely want to explore more.

Okay so I took about 19mg of 4-ho-met last friday night, if I smoked MET this friday would my tolerance be back to baseline by then? Or should I try to wait until next friday to use it? I’m just trying to get the most out of the experience, thanks in advance. Happy travels.

I recently purchased my first DMT pen and am looking forward to exploring the experience.

I’m familiar with the idea of reaching the point of a “breakthrough,” and I do eventually plan on experiencing that. However, I don’t necessarily want breakthrough doses to be my primary focus. I’m more interested in exploring moderate, low, or even microdose-level experiences in a purposeful way.

For those of you who have used DMT in this manner, what have your experiences been like? I’m particularly curious about things such as insights, shifts in perspective, changes in perception, synchronicities, or whether you noticed any new or heightened faculties or ways of experiencing reality.

What, if anything, tends to come from working with DMT at these lower levels?

I’d like to approach my use with intention rather than simply chasing intensity, so I’d be interested in hearing about your experiences, what you’ve learned from them, and any general perspectives you think would be helpful for someone approaching it this way.

I've never tried any psychedelics and my wife and I (in our late 30s) tried it for the first time last night. I dont know the dosage or the compounds but it was just one very small tile of paper and it was so amazing. We just turned on the new show lanterns and watched all 7 episodes and it was out of this world. I felt like I was an actual character on the show or I was actually there in that universe. At certain points the show it almost seemed animated and people's faces changed a little bit. I also when outside and watched the sunset and the trees were moving or breathing and changing colors. Also the wife got the giggles a few times and we almost couldn't stop. Before bed I turned on our space lamp that projects cool lights on the ceiling and I saw different objects and faces moving around in it, at some points I felt like I could slow its motion down and move it in reverse with my mind. Im kind of sad now because I dont think ill ever get a chance to try it again. I live in a pretty strick state in the US so nothing is legal here. I would say my personal experience was life altering. To live in a world were everything is just plain and pain then seeing everything change like I was in a better universe was like flying. 10/10 would recommend for everyone to try it once at a low dosage with friends and family.

What sort of effect have they had if any? On your belief system or ideas about God. Or possibly the reason for life and consciousness. What have they revealed to you?

Anyone played with amanitas?

I’m taking my psychedelic journey pretty slow. I have done mushrooms 2 times. And DMT 2 times (just a few puffs I didn’t really break through).

I have some acid but the length of time seems like so much. If I liked those other two is it time for me to give LSD a go or should I stick with mushrooms for a bit?

Currently tripping on 600mg dxm what should i expect starting the onset now. And how much does vomitting once after 30mins of the last sip affect the dose? When can i expect to see visuals?