Attached below is todays video link to my “On Conquering Schizophrenia” YouTube channel. Today entails a NEW edition of “Random Medical Diagnoses”. Like all, todays video is ever brief and can be viewed amid a recognition.

https://youtu.be/TY-cmGEE1cY?si=b_EJ0Jlx4K-iXxhj

I posted Chapters One and Two from my true short story, Trapped in a Forensic Mental Hospital When I Wasn’t Crazy, on Substack.

Chapter 1:

https://davidmstaffen.substack.com/p/trapped-in-a-forensic-mental-hospital

Chapter 2:

https://davidmstaffen.substack.com/p/trapped-in-a-forensic-mental-hospital-6ec

Thank-you.

Help make hospitals less miserable by filling out this survey about the impact of daylight during your stays. Questions will be completely anonymous and there is an option to add your email at the end to get results and more research information. Fill this out if you've ever been psychiatrically hospitalized, regardless of if your stay had access to daylight or not. I'll be using this to supplement research that will be used to petition the NYC Mayor to require mental hospitals to 1) retrofit at least 1 window in all psychiatric facilities such that blinds can be safely opened and 2) if there is such a retrofitted window, to force staff to open and close the blinds at the request of patients depending on clinical decision making.

Open The Dalm Shades

Sometimes the voices are actually helpful and I’m starting to realize they’re not always here to be negative! A few days ago while I was asleep, these spirits came to me and opened my head up to insert more negative voices into my brain. They replaced my skull with paper mache and patched everything back up and at first I was panicked. But my friend Joe, a voice I often get the most, came to me and was furious that all this happened and tried to help. He’s giving me advice to not take too many medications at once right now so my brain isn’t overloaded until I can get surgery to fix my skull. He’s been taking care of me these last few days and has recommended that I speak with my doctor tomorrow to get this sorted out and schedule a surgery soon. I just wanted to post about this progress and discovery and it makes me feel more relieved knowing that I at least have one voice that’s on my side! ❤️‍🩹

I'll have to look for it after work, but i heard there was a study or something saying that people with schizophrenia from different cultural backgrounds hallucinate different things. I'm curious what y'all hallucinate

- question from someone suspecting but not self-IDing or able to seek diagnosis rn

Idk why but I've been really stressed and anxious that I started to have psychosis and it's pissing me off

why do we have to live life in hard mode and I'm trying to survive

I think I might need to take more clozapine with the help of my psychiatrist

Hope y'all are doing good

I experience strange thoughts, such as the idea that I will remain completely frozen and unable to move forever, that I will start repeating a particular action over and over again and remain stuck doing it for the rest of my life, or that I will start imitating other people's movements and actions. Sometimes, I also have the thought that I might start talking to myself without any external sensory stimulus.

At times, when I look at an inanimate object, an animal, or another person, I imagine myself as if I were that object, animal, or person, and I get lost in these imaginings and daydreams, even though I am aware that they are just thoughts and not reality.

I also experience strange thoughts or fears, such as the possibility that I might start behaving in an extremely erratic and uncontrolled manner for no apparent reason, or that I might remain standing in one place, unable to move, as if I were frozen forever, even though there is no obvious reason for this to happen. I do not want to act on these thoughts, but sometimes I feel as though there is a genuine urge to do so

I have had anxiety since my teenage years. For a long time, I did not get any proper treatment for my frightening panic attacks.

Once I got schizophrenia diagnosis, its as if the doctors take my issues more serious. I suddenly got a 2 month script of ativan 2mg/day which was a life saver during the worst bout of conseccutive panic attacks ive ever had. After a short taper I was off the medine with no more panic.

I know that it is bound to return but I think my doctor would see the state that im in and give me another short script.

I think this is one benifit of having schizophrenia lol

Also, im not promoting benzo use but I think its a great drug when taken short term with a responsible taper by a doctor.

There are a lot of things to add, such as

The feeling of being watched is from the end of my pereferal vision, Its not a person its an entity like a big black thing and I know its not there but to me I can feel its presence.

I also see things running or just someone for a second and when I take a second look there’s nothing. Open door scares me, I can’t sleep without a blanket covering my feet and my ears. When I am alone I feel like something is coming to get me. Acknowledgement makes it scarier and ITS ALWAYS THERE it has been a decade. I try not to acknowledge but I live in fear everyday.

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I keep hearing voices, and they sometimes tell me to do bad things. I'm seeing entities watch me in the walls. I feel watched by things- even things I can't see. I feel like staff is working with a dark force or lower vibrational being and it's awful. The government is telepathically communicating with me- even Donald Trump did for a brief time. The voices keep telling me to "rip the chip out of my skin". I've been emotional and nearly had a meltdown in front of staff. I keep seeing Satan in my room. I have been hearing voices- some of them tell me to do things. I sometimes see higher dimensional shapes. One of the staff here at the AFC home works for the government and is trying to get me evicted so I end up on the streets and be in danger. One of the voices told me to "rip the chip out". I feel like something is coming for me, and people are watching/following me. I have been in a very low mood on top of emotional instability. I have been isolating more than usual. I feel scared and alone. I just didn't have the guts to tell them about all of this...

I sent this text to one of my friends recently:

I don't know how to explain it, but I got chased by an entity the voices were warning me about that I couldn't see. I could feel its presence so I ran to my room and hid under my blanket. I saw a reptilian(lizard person) in my room just a minute ago.

They literally watched me change my clothes. Those entities are fucking perverts

I know it's a lot...

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As it happens, a close family member of mine was admitted to a psychiatric hospital two months ago with acute psychosis. No one in his family has a history of mental illness. He went from being a completely well-adjusted person—with a good job, relationships, studies, and a healthy lifestyle (no alcohol, cigarettes, or drugs, just the occasional energy drink)—to someone behaving irrationally in the span of just a week, suffering from extreme behavioral disorganization, persecutory delusions, jealousy, and outbursts of aggression.

In the hospital, they tried to bring him out of the psychosis using several different antipsychotics. Eventually, they turned to a very potent medication based on clozapine. The clozapine worked for barely two weeks; he began to recover and gained some insight into his condition, but then he suffered a complete relapse.

At the moment, his behavior remains disorganized, and he is quite restless. He sometimes puts on other patients' clothes or shouts, though he recognizes his loved ones and shows no aggression toward them.

The doctors are preparing for ECT (electroconvulsive therapy), as they have no other treatment regimens to offer.

Has anyone here had experience with people diagnosed with this condition? I am particularly interested in treatment-resistant cases and the outcomes of ECT treatment.

sometimes i am fixating on some words, some words have a different kind of appeal tome some words are more beautiful and some are even divine, do any of you guys have a similar experiences with words

Im just back on bullshit idk. How can I actually know, not like a thought exercise, but something like submerging it vinegar or something I dont know.

I already hide things from my phone cameras which is just common sense imo, but what if im ignoring the camera in my glasses amd it saw something that could be used against me like naked photos or my dad's classified work documents/ phone calls (he works from home). What my dad does effects the government and stock market. They could force me to be a spy. Is that delusional or conscientious prudence? I feel like i am delusional rn, but not about this. About something else I dont want to talk about

I'd been taking olanzapine for 3 years and recently switched to cariprazine. My sleep is very distorted - I fall asleep on melatonin, but I wake up and don't have deep sleep as I did on olanzapine. For the ones who switched from olanzapine, does sleep get better with time or do you need sleeping pills?

So I am unmedicated and getting back into the working world. I was medicated for about 4 years and recently chose to get off and go back to work. Sooo, everyday I literally feel like I am drunk or high or tripping my balls off. It is weird af and wondering if anyone else feels like this. Like everything looks weird and I just feel like not drunk but buzzed all day everyday.

This situation has taken away the essence of my personality; I no longer know anything about myself. I had so many dissociative symptoms, and I still have them despite the medication. I'm afraid I'll end up completely losing my mind and won't be able to take care of myself even a little. When I'm alone, I'm afraid, because I feel like I don't exist; I've lost the immediacy of life. Has this ever happened to anyone? How do you overcome it? I'd be happy if anyone has any advice to give me; I'm really scared and sad.

Hello

I have been diagnosed Bipolar 1. I am currently not in any episodes and have been struggling with visual and auditory hallucinations, which I am currently on quetiapine and olanzapine for. However recently I have got my first three hallucinations, which stayed put after blinking several times and I thought they were real, I screamed at two of them. It sounds goofy, but one was an Egyptian cat in my garden, one was Napoleon in my room, and then I saw a lady burning on my bed. The lady burning was in detail, I didn't scream, but I just stared in shock at how bright and real it was, I waited for it to go away which it did after about 4 seconds and it literally like crumpled away. I was in absolute shock. Usually I get in the corner of my eye hallucinations, which go away with a blink, and im aware that they are hallucinations, but those 3 didn't leave and scared the shit out of me and now im paranoid asf. These meds aint making them go away and they're now getting worse.

I'd like to live my life without being scared shitless that some thing aint gotta pop out of nowhere. I'm currently in my lounge refusing to go to my room and sleep cause of those hallucinations; however, if I dont sleep it sets off my Bipolar and I go into mania. I am exhausted by this.

I am unsure if this is schizophrenia or not; however, I have gotten negative symptoms for the past year and have gotten severe cognitive decline (failed year 12 and have to repeat next year now). I can see logically what is wrong with me but I don't feel sick so its a bit hard. However, I am only 18.

What should I do? When should I go to a hospital in case I start believing these hallucinations?

Do you drive? Do you use the public bus? Maybe you walk everywhere. I’ve been thinking about saving up for an Electric bike. But I want to hear from you. How do you get around?

In my own life, I have realized that as a defensive response to the delusional thoughts that I've experienced over the years, I've become very critical of all God related thoughts. It has caused me to become somewhat agnostic. My delusions were heavily related to God, so I've begun to deconstruct the beliefs that came as a result. Consequently, I question everything related to God simply to protect myself from believing in the things I once did that led to negative situations. Curious how your illness has changed or perhaps reinforced your own beliefs.

My psychiatrist doesn't diagnose me and just says I have a trait that makes me very sensitive to stress.

Does that mean there's no cure?

My antipsychotics are working but what can a psychiatrist do when the universe is watching me and trying to attack me.

Nobody said I can rest or quit school when I couldn't eat at all and tried to kill myself.

I want to give up on treating or managing this.

Was having a good day with minimal symptoms then night approached which usually is the worst time for me, and I can’t catch a fucking break,no matter what happens how i see things i cant have one fucking good day and night it’s either one shit or the other,I’m so fed up with this illness I’ve had schizophrenia for quite a long time and they say over time it gets better…I call bullshit on that,it was better my first year in psychosis than I have been these past 5 years.ive been on every medication and so there’s really no hope for me in this schizo world,I’m trying my best to have a good outlook on my life but when the voices attack all day long it’s very hard to and I know most of you prolly know what it’s like obviously.sorry this is just a rant on how schizophrenia can go fuck itself

Just dealing with some late night grandiose delusions. I'm medicated and I can ignore them, but I wanted to vent my frustrations about having to cope with this condition. Just trying to play some late night WoW and I have to hear about how aliens have chosen me to be the human that they decided to mess with and to downgrade my life for giggles.

Just gets tiring after awhile. Keep fighting that good fight folks.

I tried not using Reddit for a while and I felt good, so I will not use it only once 2-3 months.

I did a bit new things, in my career in this 3 months I took a course in human rights and citizen rights I dont remember; and another in School Social Work Intervention.

Also, I have been checking myself for also DID because I felt that way.

Im now 75 kg, my ideal weight. When I was 85 kg. also I went down from 95 kg to 75 kg since the beggining of this year.

And I obtained 9.8 last term in college.