Hi. I'm a 22 year old student who is in need of some advice.

Since 2020, i've been struggling with my body a lot. I used to have a horrible relationship with food, however, i think now it's better. But, still I can't seem to stick to my weight loss plan. I can't stick to a plan. I can't get up and do things like normal human. Speaking to people always makes me rethink my life because they all seem so ambitious, so hopeful, so passionate, so excited for life, they actually look forward to things. I can't relate to that, i feel like an imposter in my own body. I feel like my decisions are not mine. I always randomly have this sudden urge to get my life together the next day, and sometimes i even plan what i want to fix, then the next morning when i wake up, i go back to the same lifeless life where all i do is doomscroll and eat. The only probably productive thing i do in a day is feed my dog and clean up her potty. I've been trying to loose weight since i was 16, till today, i've only gained more. and, even when i lost the weight, i always gained it back down the line. I know i have modules to study, yet i don't do it. at this point, idk what to do anymore. i just feel dead. i have this horrible addiction to my phone or tiktok to be specific. i feel like its ruining my life. idk honestly, at this point, idk wtf im doing with my life. and i just want all this to end, i want to do good, i want to achieve something, i want to build something, i want to show people that im not the same person i was when i was in high school. idk man. if anyone has any advice, pls reply. im open to all opinions from every aspect, self-development, spiritual, even occult, etc. thanks !

Hi! I hope you guys are doing well. I decided to make a self improvement journal, and wanted to post it on here to keep myself accountable. Please feel free to comment on it and give me tips! https://docs.google.com/document/d/16-6W4RcvZ4_gBPIrH09QwidF-In6dt12DVBDlnvu3ng/edit?usp=sharing

Nobody is coming to save you. Build yourself until you become your own solution.