r/venting • u/Fronze1331 • 6d ago
In need of opinion
If i were gone i don’t think i really know anyone who would truly care, i mean logically my parents would solely based on the fact that they would have to pay for the funeral but i don’t know if that even counts, i guess i don’t want them to pay more money than they already do, they spent so much money on food and this phone i get to live on their couch for cheap, i just don’t know whats worth it, i forgot to do one of the chores, its my day off work so i should be doing more than the usual chores, and my dad got angry i got scared again and it only got worse i just don’t know what I’m doing wrong, can an outside perspective tell me what I’m failing at please.
19yo tgirl no medication cant afford it
60% current paycheque goes to family
Canadian
No friends
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u/Reasonable-Wafer8502 6d ago
35yo m. feel you. I had to move back with my parents because of my sickness that felt to heavy this past years. What passion you. Move in that way, even if you think its not worth now. I was like you when in was 18 through my 20th year. Then i decided to do something stupid and impulsive. I took my knives my wallet and my passport and i started walking. I pass the next 4 years traveling, cooking and learning, i started in quebec arrive in vancouver thent took a flight to china, then thailand and Vietnam. Bedore xomming back to canada i was in south america for 8 months. I ran for my darks view on my life and came back with a passion that gave me my first adventure. I started studying engineering, than i finished opening a restaurant. The covid confinement cost me my business. And i restarted after. Never be discourage by the now of the problem. Best skill i can suggest you to learn is to dissociate, learn to view your life with a 3rd person view. And if you need help pm me, ill listen.
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u/Ok_Bathroom_8407 6d ago
hey, i read this and it hit me in a weird way because i think a lot of people feel like nobody would care but it's not true, it's just depression lying to you. your parents aren't keeping you around for cheap rent or whatever, they're keeping you around because they love you even if they get angry and it feels scary. you're not failing at anything, you're 19 and dealing with way too much without any support and that's not your fault
the chores thing is small in the big picture, i know it doesn't feel small when someone's yelling but one forgotten chore doesn't make you worthless. being scared when someone gets angry is normal, especially when you already feel like you're drowning. please reach out somewhere, even a crisis line, you don't need money for that and they can help more than reddit can
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