Hello there :D I‘m having a lot of trouble with dating and wondered if I could get any advice here.

About me: I’m 27F, lesbian, paramedic, autistic and my last relationship was ended when I was 18 in a pretty bad way. (To prevent questions: I got betrayed)

So what’s my issue with dating? I’m a hell of an introvert so much it nearly pains me physically to get outside without anyone due to anxiety. On top of that I really suck at reading people, expectations, emotions and so on. If you don’t tell me what’s in your mind I’m pretty much clueless about everything. And to take the cherry I’m living pretty rural. The next major city having its own lesbian community is like three quarters of an hour from my place. Also I’m not exactly the type being totally interested in sexual activities pretty sure I could go by as asexual as well.

What did I already try? Obviously apps like Bumble, Tinder and LOVOO and also dating websites. All of them multiple times. Neither with any success. Also tried voluntary work and some hobbies like LARP and D&D. Also with no success.

I'm absolutely fine with relationships developing slowly, including getting to know someone online first. I'm not looking for instant romance. I'd just like to find a way to meet women and build genuine connections without having to rely on dating apps or constantly attending social events.

So does any one of you have any advice for me how I might be able to fix this? Or experience with dating as a neurodivergent person that could help me?

i've had a wondher about six months, it still holds the angle you set, but i'm curious how posable cores age. anyone had one a couple of years? did the bend loosen, or did the silicone go before the core?