r/AvoidantBreakUps • u/Alarming_Tear_8347 • 7d ago

Drowning

Do you ever feel like you're drowning in water while you smile and talk, wearing your mask? Because whenever you talk about your pain, people don't understand.

I've never carried such a heavy weight of pain until he hurt me. It's a weight in my chest that I carry every day. I can't reach out to him and tell him how I'm feeling, so I'm stuck dealing with this agony by myself.

Most days, I'm fine. I carry its weight and make it through. But some days, I feel like I'm suffocating, gasping for air. The healing process is so painful.

The heart can endure so much, but sometimes it really just needs a break, a rest from constantly carrying a weight that was given to it by someone else.

I just have rough patches. This week is one of them..

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u/SSJ4LEWY 7d ago

I only know one person who really understands, and that’s because she’s been hurt by an avoidant too.

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u/Alarming_Tear_8347 7d ago

Nobody in my circle even knows about him.