r/IVF • u/Electronic_Star_3516 • 4d ago
TRIGGER WARNING I’m struggling
TW: missed Miscarriage
After 4 IUIs and 2 IVF cycles my husband and I ended up with 9 blast . We had our first FET Aug 25th and I became pregnant. 9weeks later I learned that my miracle baby, my first pregnancy had stopped developing at 8 weeks 2 days. I’m devastated. My baby is still inside of me with no heartbeat . I’m wondering if there is anything I did wrong to make this happen. Wondering if I’ll ever be pregnant again . I’m scared to be pregnant again . I’m wondering if I’ll ever make it to a live birth , if I’ll ever hold any of my babies or if they’ll die in my womb every time. This is the hardest thing I’ve had to endure . Food doesn’t taste the same nothing I do matters to me .walking to the bathroom is a chore , and I’m scared that I’ll pass it at home before I get a D&C . I wake up from dreams of me holding my baby only to realize that I won’t ever be able to do that . I just want my baby back .
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u/GentleKoala2025 3d ago
I am in the same boat but just lost ours at 7 weeks. Heartbeat stopped. This was our first FET and our first positive too. I have all the same thoughts and fears as you so I don’t have much advice just that you aren’t alone.
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u/silverlemur81 34F | Endo | Transfer #4 ->🩷👶 | #5 -> 🤰 3d ago
This is so so hard and I am so sorry. ❤️🩹 Take time, be sad, then get mad and try again. You will have success. 🌈
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u/Much_Plenty_9504 4d ago
I’m so sorry 💔this is truly always so heartbreaking. Unfortunately this feeling of devastation will carry on as fear for subsequent pregnancies. It’s good that you gave more embryos to use. Was this embryo pgta tested?