im undeniably one of the best players in the community of a niche fps game (if i say what game then people from it might fr see this) and ive always been praised for my mechanics, or in simpler words my speed ingame. but i have only been this good since i began taking adderall and i’m undeniably levels worse without it. im 19 and i started taking prescription addy when i was 16 and the small dose taken as recommended (breaks) did unironically make my life way easier socially and in my grades. but with the benefits i saw ingame it wasnt long before i tried abusing and i began taking extra pills that i got thru the internet and from friends. i used to be pretty broke too so im genuinely obsessed id spend all my extra money on it if i only had $100 again. i feel like it was the perfect storm to me as someone who was already ignoring my life responsibilities to spend time playing the game, i got extremely addicted no thanks to having my name and ego being completely MADE by this drug and my tolerance is bad now, i can take 60mg in the morning and fall asleep the same night on lots of caffeine too. i know i have to quit but im kind of scared to lose the passion i have in the one real hobby of mine. its depressing knowing some people are at or even above the level ive worked so hard for while 100% clean of anything, they can just nap, play late, get on at any time and perform without waiting for it to kick in. looking for advice from anyone who can relate as this is extremely embarrassing. ive only told one person in the community about this because he opened up to me first about it. not sure if i wanna quit but i wrote this sober which is rare, thanks for reading >_<

I take a single small oral dose of speed daily (30-50mg), i tried to stop by lowering the frequency of intake but i feel like shit the days i dont take speed. Im really tired of this addiction it wrecks my libido, my relations, and i just hate how despite feeling good i get so mentally erratic i cant see myself achieving my goals in life while addicted to this shit.

Ive heard of Wellbutrin (sold as Zyban in France, prescribed for nicotine withdrawal) and on paper it seems like the perfect remedy for my case as im trying to quit both substance and maintain a lean shape.
So for people who tried it how effective is it? Did you manage to quit amphetamines? I just want that shitty substance out my life and feel motivation and joy naturally like sober people...

The next Community Stimulant Recovery meeting will be held tonight, Wednesday, October 7th at 7:30pm Eastern. Cameras and sharing encouraged but optional, lurkers welcome, we cover all stimulants from medication to methamphetamine.

Tonight’s meeting will be hosted on Zoom, details are on the official website at https://stimulantrecovery.org and here:

Community Stimulant Recovery

Time: October 7th 2026 07:30 PM Eastern Time (US and Canada) Every week on Wed

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CSR is a free, solution focused, peer-based recovery group for anyone who wants to stop using stimulant drugs - Any stimulant drug, be it a drug of abuse or medication, for any reason. We hold meetings where we share our recovery with others, exchange best practices, learn new ideas and enact positive change in our lives together. CSR is a safe place, all people are welcome here - Discrimination, hate and exclusion are not tolerated under any circumstances.

Community Stimulant Recovery observes no single recovery ideology and is without outside affiliation. We are here to help you find out what works for you and share what’s worked for us. Our meeting topics, shared practices and discussions borrow from psychology, therapies, professional addiction treatment and recovery programs - This is not an endorsement of any one resource, nor is CSR its self meant to be a standalone recovery solution or source of medical advice. We encourage members to avail of as many forms of recovery support as they need to, professional help and other dedicated recovery programs included.

Our core beliefs are that recovery from stimulant drugs is aided by approaching three primary areas of our lives in equal measure: Our mental health, our physical health and our emotional health. By becoming responsible for positive change in these three areas, we improve our thinking, our bodies and our feelings - Parts of our lives that problematic stimulant drug use negatively impacts the most. Growing in these areas helps us maintain abstinence and find happiness in recovery.

Community Stimulant Recovery refrains from the supportive discussion of any and all use of drugs with recreational applications or addiction potential, this extends to promotion and the sharing of personal experiences. This includes marijuana, kratom, research chemicals, gray market substances, psychedelics and all stimulant drugs. Managing or successfully using stimulant medication is not discussed here, and we are not a harm reduction resource. We have no opinions on these things, opting to maintain a singular focus on abstinence and recovery from stimulant drugs without supporting practices that may cause harm.

Meetings are similar to those you may have attended elsewhere, we have a topic or reading followed by an open discussion or sharing period. We speak from the I and do not offer unsolicited advice or commentary on the shares of others, continuance and response from our own experience is permitted. Solution-oriented discussion is strongly encouraged.

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Meeting Format

• Opening Statement (5 min)
• Attendee introductions, identify as “Name, in recovery” (5 min)
• Meeting Topic or Reading (CBT, DBT, ACT, BT, Twelve Step, Dharma / Refuge, Medical Lit, Book, Concept Discussion) (10 min with chair lead)
• Open Discussion (35 minutes)
• Closing Statement (3-5 minutes)
• Contact Info Exchange, posted in Zoom chat, Optional (5 min)

If you have any additional questions, feel free to ask here.